GE\u00c7ENLERDE SEYRETT\u0130\u011e\u0130M bir kovboy filminde, s\u00fcrekli \u00f6l\u00fcm, kan ve deh\u015fet vard\u0131. Beyazlar k\u0131z\u0131lderililerle, k\u0131z\u0131lderililer k\u0131z\u0131lderililerle, beyazlar beyazlarla sonu g\u00f6z\u00fckmeyen bir h\u0131r-g\u00fcre dalm\u0131\u015flard\u0131. Filmin hareketli olmas\u0131n\u0131, \u00f6len adam say\u0131s\u0131na, d\u00f6k\u00fclen kana, y\u0131k\u0131lan-yanan evlere ba\u011flarsak, bir hayli hareketliydi. Filmin konusunu \u2014kovboy filmlerine \u00e2\u015fina olan bizler i\u00e7in\u2014 tahmin etmek hi\u00e7 de zor de\u011fil, ama yine de ayr\u0131nt\u0131s\u0131yla anlatay\u0131m:<\/p>\n
Beyazlar, k\u0131z\u0131lderililerin ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 b\u00f6lgelerde alt\u0131n bulurlar ve bu topraklar, gittik\u00e7e artan say\u0131da, g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc h\u0131rs b\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f, silahl\u0131 ve heyecanl\u0131 insanlar\u0131n istil\u00e2s\u0131na u\u011frar. Av sahalar\u0131n\u0131n ve topraklar\u0131n\u0131n muhterislerce i\u015fgali ise, k\u0131z\u0131lderili gururuna darbe indirmi\u015fti. Bu, onlar i\u00e7in kabul\u00fc imk\u00e2ns\u0131z bir geli\u015fmedir. Birbirlerini tan\u0131mayan bu iki ayr\u0131 t\u00fcr insan i\u00e7in, oralar\u0131n \u2018kanun\u2019una g\u00f6re, aray\u0131 bulacak tek yol vard\u0131r: Bir taraf\u0131n \u00f6lece\u011fi, di\u011fer taraf\u0131n sa\u011f kalaca\u011f\u0131, hi\u00e7 de ak\u0131l k\u00e2r\u0131 olmayan bir yar\u0131\u015f. Herkes kay\u0131ts\u0131zca o yolu denemekten ka\u00e7\u0131nmaz. Orta bir yol ise, her iki taraf\u0131n da i\u015fine gelmiyordur.<\/p>\n
Di\u011fer taraftan beyazlar kendi i\u00e7lerinde \u00e7at\u0131\u015fma halindedir. Herkes silahl\u0131d\u0131r ve herkes patlamaya haz\u0131r bir bomba gibidir. Yine oralar\u0131n \u2018kanun\u2019una g\u00f6re, m\u00fcsamahan\u0131n zerresi bile, kimsenin g\u00f6stermeyi akl\u0131na bile getiremeyece\u011fi derecede ay\u0131planan \u015feyler aras\u0131ndad\u0131r. Muhtemelen bu sebepten, herkes sert, ac\u0131mas\u0131z, g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc, ni\u015fanc\u0131, cesur rol\u00fcn\u00fc oynamak zorundad\u0131r. Hakl\u0131 da, haks\u0131z da olsalar, tepkileri hep birbirinin benzeri tepkilerdir: Kaba kuvvete dayal\u0131, pervas\u0131z ve ac\u0131mas\u0131z\u2026<\/p>\n
Bir de farkl\u0131 kabilelerden k\u0131z\u0131lderililer vard\u0131r. Birinin insan say\u0131s\u0131 di\u011ferine nazaran daha azd\u0131r, berikinin ise sava\u015f\u00e7\u0131 say\u0131s\u0131 fazlad\u0131r. Sava\u015f\u00e7\u0131s\u0131 daha fazla olanlar, di\u011fer grubun topraklar\u0131n\u0131 kendi avlanma b\u00f6lgelerine iltihak etmek u\u011fruna bir kabileyi telef eder.<\/p>\n
Film b\u00f6yle h\u0131r-g\u00fcr, iti\u015f-kak\u0131\u015f, kavga-g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fc devam ederken, hakl\u0131 olan\u0131n kim oldu\u011funu, ihtilaf konular\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcnde uygulanabilir di\u011fer alternatifleri, ben olsam nas\u0131l davranabilece\u011fimi.. d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm; i\u015fin i\u00e7inden \u00e7\u0131kamad\u0131m. Ben oralara ait de\u011fildim; oralara \u00f6zg\u00fc meselelere ve \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcm tarzlar\u0131na olan yabanc\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131mdan dolay\u0131 da, ekrandaki her olaya olumlu bir cevap araman\u0131n anlams\u0131z oldu\u011fu sonucuna vard\u0131m. Ama bir k\u0131yas yapmadan da edemedim. \u201cAcaba\u201d dedim, \u201cg\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fczde, \u015fu \u015fehirde benzer bir olay olsa, insanlar nas\u0131l \u00e7\u00f6zerler?\u201d<\/p>\n
Tan\u0131d\u0131k \u00e7evreme uygun olan cevap bir kefede, filmdeki \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcm tarz\u0131 di\u011fer kefedeydi. \u0130\u015fin i\u00e7inden yine \u00e7\u0131kamad\u0131m.<\/p>\n
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\u0130lgimi \u00e7eken, Amerikan tarihindeki toprak kavgalar\u0131, alt\u0131n aray\u0131c\u0131lar\u0131, banka soygunlar\u0131, g\u00fcneyliler-kuzeyliler, k\u0131z\u0131lderililer de\u011fildi. S\u00f6z konusu topraklarda, bir zaman kesitinde ya\u015fam\u0131\u015f baz\u0131 insanlar vard\u0131; tabancalar\u0131n\u0131 asmaya ve kur\u015funlar\u0131n\u0131 yerle\u015ftirmeye yarayan kemerleri, mahmuzlar\u0131, atlar\u0131, kementleri ve serke\u015f bir hayatlar\u0131 vard\u0131. \u2018At, tabanca, kur\u015fun\u2019 \u00e2deta v\u00fccutlar\u0131n\u0131n ayr\u0131lmaz bir par\u00e7as\u0131 gibiydi. Hayat tarzlar\u0131 \u00f6yleydi ki, o par\u00e7alar\u0131 yitiren, hayat hakk\u0131n\u0131 yitirmi\u015f say\u0131labiliyordu. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc yerle\u015fik anlay\u0131\u015f, silah\u0131n\u0131 h\u0131zl\u0131 \u00e7eken, maden\u00ee paray\u0131 ortas\u0131ndan vuran, at\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7ok iyi kullanan, demir gibi yumruk atan insanlar\u0131n, kendi benzerlerini \u2014rakiplerini\u2014 altetmesiyle hayatiyetini s\u00fcrd\u00fcrebilece\u011fini \u00f6ng\u00f6r\u00fcyordu. Yani g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc olan kazan\u00e7l\u0131 \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yor, zay\u0131flar ise zaaflar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnmez k\u0131lmak ya da g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc olmak i\u00e7in \u00e7aba sarfediyorlard\u0131. Kuvvetin bu derece \u00f6d\u00fcllendirildi\u011fi, dahas\u0131 \u015fart ko\u015fuldu\u011fu bir anlay\u0131\u015f, \u201cyenilmez\u201d, \u201chatas\u0131z\u201d, \u201ckorkusuz\u201d, \u201cg\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc\u201d, \u201ciyi\u201d, \u201ccesur\u201d gibi vas\u0131flar\u0131 hedef g\u00f6sterirken, say\u0131s\u0131z zul\u00fcmleri, haks\u0131zl\u0131klar\u0131, adaletsizlikleri ise zay\u0131flara verilen bir ceza olarak me\u015frula\u015ft\u0131r\u0131yordu. Bu y\u00fczden \u201ckuvvet\u201din \u00f6ng\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc vas\u0131flar\u0131 y\u00fcklenen bir haydut kovboy, kendi ba\u015f\u0131na buyruk, kanun tan\u0131maz, kendi hakk\u0131ndan ba\u015fka hak bilmez birisi olarak \u201chayat hakk\u0131 tan\u0131ma\u201d, \u201cya\u015famas\u0131na izin verip-vermeme\u201d gibi bir yetkiyi de \u00fcstleniyordu.<\/p>\n
Sonu\u00e7ta, bu, \u2018kovboy tavr\u0131\u2019n\u0131n zihnimdeki izd\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm\u00fc, keyf\u00ee bir \u201cterminat\u00f6r\u201de denk d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyor.<\/p>\n
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Bu filmi seyredip, kovboylara ve kovboyculu\u011fa i\u00e7erledi\u011fim g\u00fcnlerde, bir sohbet aras\u0131nda \u2014o an i\u00e7in nazar\u0131mdan ka\u00e7an, daha sonra dikkate de\u011fer buldu\u011fum\u2014 ufak bir anekdot yer alm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u015eahs\u00ee d\u00fcnyas\u0131nda art\u0131k Brezilya t\u00fcr\u00fc filmleri seyretmekten vazge\u00e7en birisinin ilgin\u00e7 bir gerek\u00e7esi vard\u0131. Diyordu ki: \u201cHemen t\u00fcm diyaloglar ba\u011f\u0131rmal\u0131-\u00e7a\u011f\u0131rmal\u0131. En ufak bir\u015feyde dahi ba\u011f\u0131rarak, k\u0131zarak, belki de nefret duyarak tepki veriyorlar. Her seyredi\u015fimde ruhum daral\u0131yor\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
Bu ufak serzeni\u015fi hat\u0131rlamama sebep olan ise, tatl\u0131 ve uyumlu ki\u015fili\u011fiyle i\u00e7imde yer edinen \u00e2hiret yolda\u015f\u0131m\u0131n anlatt\u0131klar\u0131yd\u0131. Kald\u0131\u011f\u0131 yurtta, insanlar problemlerini y\u00fcksek bir ses tonuyla ve hep uzla\u015fmazl\u0131\u011fa varan tart\u0131\u015fmalarla \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcms\u00fcz hale getiriyorlard\u0131. Bulunduklar\u0131 ortam bu y\u00fczden birbirinin kuyusunu amans\u0131zca kazma yar\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131n yap\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir yere d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f; ba\u011f\u0131rmalar, hakaretler, y\u00fcz ve el ifadeleri birer sald\u0131r\u0131 halini alm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n
Bunu dinledikten sonra, saf\u00e7a, bu ortamdaki insanlar\u0131n \u015fiddete ba\u015fvurup ba\u015fvurmad\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 sordum. Birbirlerine sald\u0131r\u0131yorlar m\u0131yd\u0131? Yani fizik\u00ee sald\u0131rganl\u0131k a\u015famas\u0131na geliniyor muydu? \u201cHay\u0131r\u201dd\u0131; gelinmiyordu. O an birbirlerini yumruklamad\u0131ktan, b\u0131\u00e7aklamad\u0131ktan ya da ne bileyim yaralay\u0131p \u00f6ld\u00fcrmedikten sonra, yapt\u0131klar\u0131 \u00e7ok da \u00f6nemli de\u011fil gibi bir hisse kap\u0131ld\u0131m. \u0130\u00e7in i\u00e7in \u201cNe de olsa bir sald\u0131rganl\u0131k yok\u201d diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm.<\/p>\n
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\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc i\u00e7 d\u00fcnyadaki yerle\u015fik tabloda, sald\u0131rganl\u0131\u011f\u0131n resmi \u015f\u00f6yle \u00e7izilmi\u015fti: Birbirine rakip insanlar, ellerinde yaralay\u0131c\u0131, tahrip edici, hatta \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fc silahlarla birbirlerine sald\u0131r\u0131rlar.. yaralanma, kan d\u00f6k\u00fclmesi ya da \u00f6l\u00fcmler olur. Sald\u0131rganl\u0131k yaln\u0131zca b\u00f6yle bir tabloya hasredilince, insanlar\u0131n birbirlerine ba\u011f\u0131r\u0131p-\u00e7a\u011f\u0131rmalar\u0131, a\u015fa\u011f\u0131lamalar\u0131, hatta k\u00fcfretmeleri bu tablonun d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda, basit \u201cstres atma\u201dlar \u015feklinde me\u015fru kalabilir.<\/p>\n
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S\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc etti\u011fim kovboy filmi sonras\u0131nda, kendimin ve insanlar\u0131n \u2018problemlerini \u00e7\u00f6zme tarzlar\u0131\u2019na kar\u015f\u0131 duydu\u011fum yo\u011fun ilgi, benzer t\u00fcrden olaylarda, esasen tav\u0131r olarak pek farkl\u0131 davranamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 hat\u0131rlatt\u0131. \u00c7o\u011fu kez, sadece g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fc de\u011fi\u015fiyordu. G\u00fcndelik hayat\u0131mda sarf-\u0131 nazar etti\u011fim kimi davran\u0131\u015flar, s\u00f6zler, dokundurmalar, ima etti\u011fi anlamlar bak\u0131m\u0131ndan \u201ckovboy tarz\u0131\u201d ile hi\u00e7 de farkl\u0131 de\u011fildi. Silahl\u0131 bir insan\u0131n etraf\u0131na ter\u00f6r estirmesi; kendini d\u00fcnyan\u0131n hakimi sanan birisinin bir ba\u015fkas\u0131n\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131lama, ve onun yarat\u0131l\u0131\u015ftan gelen haklar\u0131n\u0131 tehdit etme yetkisini kendisinde g\u00f6rmesi kadar; ufak bir ele\u015ftiri kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda, k\u00fcmesine tecav\u00fcz edilmi\u015f bir horoz gibi diklenen birisinin se\u00e7ti\u011fi ifade ve davran\u0131\u015flar da maraz\u00ee bir \u00e7izginin noktalar\u0131 gibiydi. \u201cGizli kovboyculuk\u201d diye adland\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131m anlay\u0131\u015f ve davran\u0131\u015f tarz\u0131n\u0131n, b\u00f6ylece g\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fczde farkl\u0131 \u201cversiyon\u201dlarda devam etti\u011fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm. Dahas\u0131, bunun, H\u00e2bil-K\u00e2bil olay\u0131na dayanacak kadar, d\u00fcnyan\u0131n en eski maraz\u00ee i\u015flerinden biri oldu\u011fu kanaatine vard\u0131m.<\/p>\n
Bu \u201cgizli kovboyculuk\u201da bir tan\u0131m da getirdim: \u201cKendisini d\u00fcnyan\u0131n h\u00e2kimi, insanlar\u0131n efendisi, \u2018\u015fey\u2019lerin h\u00fckmedicisi sanan; her\u015feyin merkezine kendisini oturttu\u011fundan dolay\u0131, kendi yarg\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 referans edinen; olaylar\u0131n kendi d\u00fcnya g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcne uymas\u0131n\u0131 \u015fiddetle ve h\u0131rsla talep edip, bunu sa\u011flamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan; kendi de\u011fer yarg\u0131lar\u0131na uymayan\u0131 ac\u0131mas\u0131zca ortadan kald\u0131rma yetkisini umursamazcas\u0131na kendinde bulan; bir anlamda kendine \u2018tapan\u2019, kendini seven, kendisini sevmeyenden nefret eden; kendisini hatas\u0131z bulup, hatas\u0131n\u0131n su y\u00fcz\u00fcne \u00e7\u0131kmas\u0131na tahamm\u00fcl edemeyen; ele\u015ftiren ama ele\u015ftirilmekten kesinlikle haz duymayan; kendisinden ba\u015fka otorite tan\u0131mayan\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
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Bu tan\u0131m\u0131n, ayr\u0131nt\u0131s\u0131na indik\u00e7e, insan\u0131 deh\u015fete d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcren bir yan\u0131 var: \u201chayat sahanl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u201dda i\u00e7 i\u00e7e ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z bir\u00e7ok insan; \u2014bu arada kendimiz\u2014 zaman zaman bu anlamda \u201cgizli bir kovboy\u201d gibiyiz.Gizli kovboyculuk b\u00f6yle tan\u0131mland\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, onun yok etme ara\u00e7lar\u0131 veya silahlar\u0131 de\u011fi\u015fken olabiliyor. \u0130lk\u00e7a\u011flarda bu t\u00fcr insanlar\u0131n silahlar\u0131, edindikleri ta\u015f ya da tahtalard\u0131. Sonraki \u00e7a\u011flarda m\u0131zraklar, oklar, k\u0131l\u0131\u00e7lar oldu. Ate\u015fli silahlar geli\u015ftik\u00e7e, tabanca, t\u00fcfek oldu. G\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fczde ise insanlar ne tabancal\u0131, ne de m\u0131zrakl\u0131. Bir i\u015fi olan, gazete okuyup televizyon seyreden, tak\u0131m tutan, yiyip-i\u00e7en, koltu\u011funda oturan, bir-\u00f6rne\u011fe yak\u0131n \u201cdo\u011fal\u201d insanlar var. Ve, yok etmeye haz\u0131r bir sald\u0131rgan i\u00e7in art\u0131k ill\u00e2 ki maden\u00ee silahlar gerekmiyor. Genellikle y\u0131k\u0131c\u0131 sald\u0131rganl\u0131k elle tutulur g\u00f6zle g\u00f6r\u00fcl\u00fcr bir silahla \u00f6zde\u015fle\u015ftirildi\u011fi i\u00e7in, yine silah i\u015flevini g\u00f6ren s\u00f6zler, davran\u0131\u015flar, tav\u0131rlar, bir masumiyet maskesiyle ola\u011fanl\u0131k kazan\u0131yor. Mesel\u00e2 eli silahl\u0131 kovboylar\u0131n, baltal\u0131 k\u0131z\u0131lderililerin problem \u00e7\u00f6zme tav\u0131rlar\u0131, \u00e7o\u011fu insana \u201cy\u0131k\u0131c\u0131 sald\u0131rganl\u0131k\u201d\u0131n \u00f6rne\u011fi olarak rahatl\u0131kla g\u00f6r\u00fclebilir. Ama, art\u0131k silah\u0131 belinde g\u00f6r\u00fclmeyen \u201cgizli kovboylar\u201d\u0131n en az beldeki kadar tehlikeli silahlar\u0131 var. Y\u0131k\u0131c\u0131 sald\u0131rganl\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir k\u0131y\u0131m harek\u00e2t\u0131 olarak anlarsak, kovboy filmlerinin ola\u011fan g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fcn h\u00e2l\u00e2 ge\u00e7erlilik kazand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, ama \u00fcslub de\u011fi\u015fikli\u011fine u\u011frad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6yleyebiliriz. Demeye getiriyorum ki, silah\u0131yla bir insan\u0131 haks\u0131zca katleden bir kovboy ile, ba\u011f\u0131r\u0131p-\u00e7a\u011f\u0131rmay\u0131 itiyad edinen, se\u00e7ti\u011fi kelimeler hi\u00e7 de olumlu anlam ta\u015f\u0131mayan, y\u0131k\u0131c\u0131 veya \u0131s\u0131r\u0131c\u0131 bir \u00fcsl\u00fbbu tarz edinen insan aras\u0131nda, i\u00e7erik bak\u0131m\u0131ndan farkl\u0131l\u0131k yok. Her ikisi de hayattar bir\u015feyin hayat\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6nd\u00fcrmeye y\u00f6nelik bir tav\u0131r sergiliyor. Bu y\u00fczden \u201cfarkl\u0131 olanlara haz\u0131ms\u0131zl\u0131k\u201d olarak anlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m y\u0131k\u0131c\u0131 sald\u0131rganl\u0131k \u201cgizli kovboyculuk\u201d halinde i\u00e7imizde devam ediyor; bazan gergin, m\u00fcsamahas\u0131z, sald\u0131rgan tav\u0131r ve fiillerle, bazan y\u00fcz ifadelerinde ya da ses tonlar\u0131nda, bazan bilinen bir sata\u015fmayla, sami-m\u00ee bir sohbette aralara serpi\u015ftirilen \u0131s\u0131r\u0131c\u0131 kelimelerle, bazan da \u015fiddet i\u00e7eren el \u015fakalar\u0131 \u015feklinde.<\/p>\n
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San\u0131r\u0131m genellikle yad\u0131rgad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z \u015fey, ba\u015fkalar\u0131n\u0131n \u015fiddete ve sald\u0131rganl\u0131\u011fa ba\u015fvurmas\u0131. Kendi taraf\u0131m\u0131zda sayd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z insanlar\u0131n ya da bizzat kendimizin maruz kald\u0131\u011f\u0131 sald\u0131rganl\u0131klar kabullenebilece\u011fimiz cinsten \u015feyler de\u011fil; ama kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131nda ayn\u0131 yola ba\u015fvurmay\u0131 pek\u00e2l\u00e2 uygun g\u00f6rebiliyoruz. Bir Filistinlinin kolunu k\u0131ran yahudi askerini g\u00f6r\u00fcp, ayr\u0131m yapmadan t\u00fcm yahudilere benzer \u015feyler uygulanmas\u0131n\u0131; m\u00fcsl\u00fcman Bo\u015fnaklar\u0131 katledenlere kar\u015f\u0131, t\u00fcm S\u0131rplardan intikam al\u0131nmas\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6nermek yahut Irak\u2019\u0131 bombalayan, S\u0131rplar\u0131n katliam\u0131na g\u00f6z yuman ABD\u2019in sellere maruz kalmas\u0131na sevinmek gibi h\u00e2let-i ruhiyeler asl\u0131nda sald\u0131rganl\u0131\u011f\u0131n yanl\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 de\u011fil, \u2018bizim tarafa\u2019 kar\u015f\u0131 yap\u0131lmas\u0131n\u0131 hazmedemeyen bir anlay\u0131\u015f\u0131 haber veriyor. Biraz daha yak\u0131n\u0131m\u0131zda olan bir ba\u015fka \u00f6rnekle baz\u0131 ipu\u00e7lar\u0131 edinebiliriz: hakk\u0131m\u0131za tecav\u00fcz eden birisini uyan\u0131k vicdanlara \u015fikayet edip, ba\u015fkas\u0131n\u0131n hakk\u0131na tecav\u00fcz etmemizi me\u015fr\u00fb g\u00f6stermeye \u00e7abalamak; kendimize ba\u011fr\u0131lmas\u0131ndan ho\u015flanmay\u0131p, kar\u015f\u0131m\u0131zdakilere ba\u011f\u0131r\u0131p \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rmak; ele\u015ftirilmekten haz duymay\u0131p, ba\u015fkalar\u0131n\u0131 ele\u015ftirmek; kendi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcklerimizi mahz-\u0131 hakk g\u00f6r\u00fcp, ba\u015fka g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015flere kar\u015f\u0131 b\u00e2t\u0131l imas\u0131yla yakla\u015fmak.. gibi, \u00e7o\u011fu zaman fark\u0131na varmaks\u0131z\u0131n ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z g\u00fcndelik davran\u0131\u015flar, sald\u0131rganl\u0131\u011f\u0131n ve \u015fiddetin d\u0131\u015f\u0131m\u0131zda bir yerlerde de\u011fil, ta i\u00e7imizde oldu\u011funu g\u00f6steriyor. Yani sald\u0131rganl\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir \u2018toplumsal olay\u2019 olarak anlamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131p birtak\u0131m insanlara at\u0131flar yapmak yerine, ferd\u00ee olarak anlamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmak, sald\u0131rganl\u0131\u011f\u0131n mahiyetini anlama bak\u0131m\u0131ndan daha elveri\u015fli g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyor.<\/p>\n
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T\u00fcm hayat\u0131n\u0131 \u201cm\u00fcsbet hareket\u201d \u00fczerine kuran \u00dcstad\u0131n, \u201cm\u00fcsbet hareket\u201din m\u00e2n\u00e2s\u0131n\u0131 hissetti\u011fim bir risalesinde, \u201cnifak, \u015fikak, kin, ad\u00e2vet\u201d gibi, i\u00e7inde \u015fiddeti de bar\u0131nd\u0131ran sald\u0131rganl\u0131klar\u0131n sebebi olarak, \u201ctarafgirlik, inad ve hased\u201dden bahsetti\u011fini okumu\u015ftum. \u0130lk anda dikkatimi \u00e7eken, sald\u0131rganl\u0131k gibi zahir\u00ee davran\u0131\u015flar\u0131n, gizli bir yerden tahrik ve te\u015fvik olundu\u011fuydu. Ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u00e2lemde elle tutulur, g\u00f6zle g\u00f6r\u00fcl\u00fcr, bir \u015fey olarak \u201ctarafgirlik\u201d yoktu. \u201cKendi varl\u0131\u011f\u0131mla\u201d anlam kazanan tariflerim vard\u0131; d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnce, kabulleni\u015f veya inan\u0131\u015flar\u0131m\u0131 kendimle tarif ederek, kendime malederek \u201cbana uyanlar ve uymayanlar\u201d s\u0131n\u0131fland\u0131rmas\u0131 yapm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcklerim ve kabullendiklerim g\u00fczeldiler, iyiydiler, hatas\u0131z, kusursuzdular, \u00f6v\u00fclmeye lay\u0131kt\u0131lar. B\u00f6yle bir v\u00fccut sahibiydim ve tercihlerime de bir v\u00fccut giydiriyordum; sonra da bunlardan taraf olup \u00e7izgi d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda kalanlar\u0131 d\u00fc\u015fman addediyordum. \u00d6ncelikle kendimden taraft\u0131m \u2014ki san\u0131r\u0131m tarafgirlik; \u201cba\u015fka\u201dlar\u0131na yanda\u015f olmak de\u011fil, kendimizden taraf olmakt\u0131r. Ve sonra da \u201cBana uyanlar, benden\u201d deyip, uymayanlar\u0131 d\u00fc\u015fman ilan ediyordum. Bunun i\u00e7in \u201cbana muz\u0131r gelen\u201d ve \u201cbenim ho\u015fuma gitmeyen\u201d s\u0131fatlar\u0131n, s\u0131fat sahibiyle beraber yok olmas\u0131na, batmas\u0131na \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordum.<\/p>\n
Okudu\u011fum yerde ge\u00e7en \u201ch\u00e2ne-i maneviye-i v\u00fccudun m\u00e2nen gark ve ihrak\u0131na, tahrip ve batmas\u0131na te\u015febb\u00fcs\u201d c\u00fcmlesi \u00f6zellikle \u015fiddet i\u00e7erikli sald\u0131rgan s\u00f6z ve fiillere i\u015faret ediyordu. Bir\u00e7ok s\u0131fatlarla, duygularla, kabiliyetlerle donat\u0131lm\u0131\u015f bir insan manev\u00ee bir hane gibiydi; kimi s\u0131fatlar pencere, kimi s\u0131fatlar \u00e7at\u0131, kimisi duvar\u0131 olu\u015fturan tu\u011fla, kimisi binay\u0131 ayakta tutan kiri\u015f vazifesi g\u00f6r\u00fcyordu. Haneyi olu\u015fturan, ayakta tutan ve evi ev yapan, birbirinden \u00e7ok farkl\u0131, irili-ufakl\u0131, de\u011fi\u015fik i\u015flere yarayan \u2014ama haneye \u015fekil kazand\u0131ran, bir i\u015fe yarayan\u2014 unsurlar\u0131n birbirleriyle uyum i\u00e7inde olmas\u0131yd\u0131. Her hanenin farkl\u0131 bir mimar\u00ee anlay\u0131\u015fla yap\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131, pencerelerinin tarz ve b\u00fcy\u00fckl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fcn de\u011fi\u015fken oldu\u011fu, oda say\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n ve b\u00fcy\u00fckl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fcn farkl\u0131 oldu\u011fu; kiri\u015flerin, \u00e7at\u0131n\u0131n, birbirine benzemedi\u011fi evler toplulu\u011fu i\u00e7inde, yaln\u0131zca kendi mimar\u00ee tarz\u0131ma taraf olup, di\u011fer mimar\u00ee tarzlara kar\u015f\u0131 d\u00fc\u015fman kesilirsem, onlar\u0131n kiri\u015flerini y\u0131kma, cam\u0131n\u0131 k\u0131rma, \u00e7at\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 indirme anlam\u0131na gelen \u0131s\u0131r\u0131c\u0131 kelimeler kullan\u0131rd\u0131m. A\u015fa\u011f\u0131lay\u0131p, istihza ederdim. K\u0131rmaya, g\u00fccendirmeye y\u00f6nelik davran\u0131\u015flar g\u00f6sterirdim. Bu zalim\u00e2ne tavr\u0131n \u00f6zeti, kendi mimar\u00ee tarz\u0131ma uygun olmayan \u201cdi\u011ferlerini\u201d kendime benzetmek, olmazsa y\u0131kmak arzusudur.<\/p>\n
Bu, kendi kabulleni\u015flerine taraf olup, \u201cd\u0131\u015far\u0131daki\u201d her\u015feye kar\u015f\u0131 yabanc\u0131la\u015fmay\u0131 getiren bir anlay\u0131\u015ft\u0131r. B\u00f6ylece \u201cd\u0131\u015f d\u00fcnya\u201dda hareket halindeki ger\u00e7eklerin yerine, kendi \u201ci\u00e7 d\u00fcnya\u201ds\u0131n\u0131, ki\u015fili\u011fini \u00f6ne koyar in-san. Sahip oldu\u011fu \u015feylerin ola\u011fan\u00fcst\u00fc g\u00fczel oldu\u011funa inan\u0131p, bir anlamda kendine \u00e2\u015f\u0131k olan bir insan, hemcinsleri i\u00e7inde yaln\u0131zken, denizlerin, mart\u0131lar\u0131n, a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131n, \u00e7i\u00e7eklerin, bulutlar\u0131n.. oldu\u011fu bir d\u00fcnyada da yaln\u0131z kal\u0131r. Yabanc\u0131la\u015fma, esasen \u00e2lemine kar\u015f\u0131 yabanc\u0131la\u015fmad\u0131r. Bu y\u00fczden, herhangi bir mevcuda olan ilgi, mevcudun m\u00e2n\u00e2s\u0131na, mevcudiyetine y\u00f6nelik bir ilgi de\u011fil, o an i\u00e7in tarafgirlik duydu\u011fu hislerini doyurmak i\u00e7indir. \u00c7i\u00e7e\u011fi yerinden kopar\u0131p i\u015fi bitti\u011finde umursamazca bir tarafa atmak, kulland\u0131\u011f\u0131 e\u015fyalar\u0131 i\u015fleri bitince bir kenara f\u0131rlatmak, \u00e7ay\u0131n\u0131 kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 ka\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131, i\u015fi bittikten sonra \u015furada burada s\u00fcr\u00fcnd\u00fcrmek.. gibi ufak hadiseler, asl\u0131nda mevcutlar\u0131n varl\u0131\u011f\u0131na y\u00f6nelik yabanc\u0131la\u015fmayla ilgili \u00f6nemli hadiselerdir. Davran\u0131\u015flara y\u00f6n veren de\u011ferler, tamamen kendi d\u0131\u015f\u0131ndakiler \u00fczerinde h\u00e2kimiyet kurmaya ve d\u0131\u015fardakileri isteklerinin \u00e7aresiz uygulay\u0131c\u0131lar\u0131 gibi g\u00f6rmeye ayarl\u0131d\u0131r. Bu y\u00fczden bir \u201chane\u201d olan t\u00fcm mevcutlar, bu nazar\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fcyle tahrip edilmeye lay\u0131k, de\u011fersiz, anlams\u0131z, hatta d\u00fc\u015fman varl\u0131klar halini al\u0131r.<\/p>\n
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Yabanc\u0131la\u015fma, sald\u0131rganl\u0131k ve \u015fiddet, k\u0131saca mevcut olan her\u015feyin de\u011ferini kayba u\u011fratan bir g\u00f6zl\u00fck gibidir. Bu g\u00f6zl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn berisinden d\u0131\u015far\u0131ya do\u011fru bakan ki\u015fi, g\u00f6zl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn g\u00f6sterdi\u011fine ba\u011f\u0131ml\u0131d\u0131r. D\u00fcnya, g\u00fcc\u00fcn h\u00e2kimiyet kurdu\u011fu, kuvvetin her\u015feye egemen olman\u0131n basama\u011f\u0131 oldu\u011fu bir yerdir. D\u00fcnya \u00fczerindekiler ise, de\u011fersiz, anlams\u0131z, altedilmesi gereken rakiplerdir. Ayn\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u00fckle kendine bak\u0131nca, kendini m\u00fckemmel, g\u00fczel, hatas\u0131z, \u00f6vg\u00fcye l\u00e2y\u0131k, istedi\u011fini ger\u00e7ekle\u015ftirmek nam\u0131na \u00f6zg\u00fcr, her\u015feyin \u00fczerinde \u2014bir anlamda il\u00e2hla\u015fm\u0131\u015f\u2014 biri olarak g\u00f6r\u00fcr.<\/p>\n
Halbuki bir\u015feyleri tan\u0131mak ve anlamak i\u00e7in, kendi kendimize takt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z bir g\u00f6zl\u00fck de\u011fil, kendimize \u201cverilmi\u015f\u201d bir g\u00f6z yeterlidir.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
GE\u00c7ENLERDE SEYRETT\u0130\u011e\u0130M bir kovboy filminde, s\u00fcrekli \u00f6l\u00fcm, kan ve deh\u015fet vard\u0131. Beyazlar k\u0131z\u0131lderililerle, k\u0131z\u0131lderililer k\u0131z\u0131lderililerle, beyazlar beyazlarla sonu g\u00f6z\u00fckmeyen bir h\u0131r-g\u00fcre dalm\u0131\u015flard\u0131. Filmin hareketli olmas\u0131n\u0131, \u00f6len adam say\u0131s\u0131na, d\u00f6k\u00fclen kana, y\u0131k\u0131lan-yanan evlere ba\u011flarsak, bir hayli hareketliydi. Filmin konusunu \u2014kovboy filmlerine \u00e2\u015fina olan bizler i\u00e7in\u2014 tahmin etmek hi\u00e7 de zor de\u011fil, ama yine de ayr\u0131nt\u0131s\u0131yla anlatay\u0131m: […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":95,"featured_media":90655,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"ppma_author":[318],"class_list":["post-90646","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-arsiv"],"yoast_head":"\n