Bu duygu yo\u011funlu\u011fumun nedeni az \u00f6nce ayr\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131m program elbette. \u015eeb-i Arus anma gecelerinden birinden ayr\u0131ld\u0131m, daha y\u00fcre\u011fimde so\u011fumad\u0131 duyduklar\u0131m ve izlediklerim. \u0130\u015fte tam da orada idrak etmeye ba\u015flad\u0131m bu d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fleri yava\u015f yava\u015f.<\/p>\n
Y\u0130NE B\u0130R ak\u015fam d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fc ve elbette yeni bir ak\u015fam d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fc bu yolculuk. Yolculuk diyorum, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc bir k\u0131tadan bir k\u0131taya ge\u00e7i\u015f benimkisi. A\u015fk\u0131n her halinin ya\u015fand\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015fehir. Diyar-\u0131 \u0130stanbul\u2019da, bir renkten bir renge ge\u00e7i\u015f gibi, Avrupa yakas\u0131ndan Anadolu\u2019ya ula\u015fmaktay\u0131m.<\/p>\n
Ak\u015fam\u0131n ruhunu yava\u015f yava\u015f geceye devretmeye ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131 saatler… \u015e\u00fck\u00fcr ki trafik yok. Huzur yudumlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir program sonras\u0131 dilim depre\u015fmeden de olsa kalbimi bile titretmek istemiyorum insanlara k\u0131zmak i\u00e7in. \u015eof\u00f6r\u00fcn hemen arkas\u0131na oturmu\u015fum ve parmaklar\u0131m kalemime her seferindeki gibi heyecanla kavu\u015ftu\u011funda \u0130stanbul\u2019u hissetmek istiyorum ans\u0131z\u0131n. So\u011fuktan bu\u011fulanm\u0131\u015f cam\u0131m\u0131 hafif\u00e7e silince kar\u015f\u0131mda simsiyah bir denizin \u00fcst\u00fcnde oyuna dalm\u0131\u015f minik \u0131\u015f\u0131k yans\u0131malar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcyorum, g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u00fcyorum. Biraz da h\u00fcz\u00fcn ya\u015f\u0131yorum ard\u0131s\u0131ra, sevdiklerimle soluklayamam\u0131\u015f olmaktan dolay\u0131 \u0130stanbul\u2019u. Be\u015fikta\u015f\u2019tay\u0131z, Yahya Efendi Hazretleri\u2019ne selam ve dua ettikten sonra nazar\u0131m\u0131 tekrar ka\u011f\u0131d\u0131mla bulu\u015fturuyorum. Ve h\u00e2l\u00e2 d\u00f6nmekteyim evime. Yolum uzun ve varma zaman\u0131n\u0131 tahmin etsem de garantim yok.<\/p>\n
Eve d\u00f6n\u00fcyorum ve \u00e2lem d\u00f6n\u00fcyor. Etraf\u0131mdaki a\u011fa\u00e7lar, \u00e7i\u00e7ekler, onlara \u00e2\u015f\u0131k b\u00f6cekler, yere d\u00fc\u015fen yapraklar, g\u00fcne\u015f, ay ve y\u0131ld\u0131zlar, kald\u0131r\u0131m ta\u015flar\u0131, sokaktaki i\u015faretler.. onlar da d\u00f6n\u00fcyor. Ve biz insanlar, yan\u0131ba\u015f\u0131mdaki dostlar ve tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u00e2demo\u011fullar\u0131; her birimiz d\u00f6n\u00fcyoruz. Asl\u0131m\u0131za olan hasretle, neslimize uzanan gayretle d\u00f6n\u00fcyoruz durmadan. K\u00e2inat d\u00f6n\u00fcyor. D\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f ki, istikameti belli ve ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131 noktaya m\u00fc\u015ftak olan.<\/p>\n
Eve d\u00f6n\u00fcyorum, beynimde deveran eden binbir d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnce ve y\u00fcre\u011fimdeki huzur ile. Bu duygu yo\u011funlu\u011fumun nedeni az \u00f6nce ayr\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131m program elbette. \u015eeb-i Arus anma gecelerinden birinden ayr\u0131ld\u0131m, daha y\u00fcre\u011fimde so\u011fumad\u0131 duyduklar\u0131m ve izlediklerim. \u0130\u015fte tam da orada idrak etmeye ba\u015flad\u0131m bu d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fleri yava\u015f yava\u015f. D\u00f6nmenin zevkine var\u0131p vecd ile Allah\u2019a y\u00f6nelen, Cenab-\u0131 Hakk\u2019a a\u015fk\u0131yla alevlenmi\u015f ruhunun yang\u0131n\u0131n\u0131 emaneti olan bedeni ile kayna\u015ft\u0131r\u0131p zikrin tad\u0131na varan Koca Pir\u2019in, Hak a\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 Mevl\u00e2n\u00e2\u2019n\u0131n semas\u0131yd\u0131 g\u00f6zlerimden ruhuma ak\u0131veren.<\/p>\n
\u201cSema safa, cana \u015fifa, ruha g\u0131dad\u0131r.\u201d<\/p>\n
Onun enfes dizeleriyle bezeli kelimeler, dili depre\u015ftirmeden kalp kelam\u0131 ile ruha sesleni\u015fler bir an bile olsa heva ve hevesten ayr\u0131 durman\u0131n tad\u0131n\u0131 ya\u015fatt\u0131 benli\u011fime. D\u00fcnya hayat\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7eldirici siyahlar\u0131n\u0131 temsil eden c\u00fcbbeler at\u0131l\u0131p bembeyaz libaslarla \u00f6zlerine d\u00f6nmeye niyetlenmi\u015f m\u00fcritlerdi Koca Sultan\u2019\u0131n etraf\u0131nda onun yoluna r\u00e2m olmu\u015f canlar. Hakk\u2019tan ald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 halka ak\u0131tan bir zikrin yans\u0131mas\u0131yd\u0131 sema.<\/p>\n
Ve zikir ve zikir.<\/p>\n
Seman\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131nda ve sonunda ney elbet. A\u015fk ile inleyen; kam\u0131\u015fa, \u2018\u00f6z\u00fcne,\u2019 asl\u0131na olan hasret ile inim inim inleyen ney. G\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131n\u0131 e\u015fsiz t\u0131n\u0131larla t\u00fcm zerrelere hissettiren, zerreleri depre\u015ftiren, ruhu incelten ney. Ve \u2018D\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u2019 ve \u2018D\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f.\u2019 Hayy\u2019dan H\u00fb\u2019ya ebed\u00ee bir d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f. Vuslat hasreti ile d\u00fcnya \u00fczerinde bir d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f…<\/p>\n
Eve d\u00f6nd\u00fcm. Allah\u2019a d\u00f6nmek ve Allah\u2019a varmak da nasibimiz ola…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Bu duygu yo\u011funlu\u011fumun nedeni az \u00f6nce ayr\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131m program elbette. \u015eeb-i Arus anma gecelerinden birinden ayr\u0131ld\u0131m, daha y\u00fcre\u011fimde so\u011fumad\u0131 duyduklar\u0131m ve izlediklerim. \u0130\u015fte tam da orada idrak etmeye ba\u015flad\u0131m bu d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fleri yava\u015f yava\u015f. Y\u0130NE B\u0130R ak\u015fam d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fc ve elbette yeni bir ak\u015fam d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fc bu yolculuk. Yolculuk diyorum, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc bir k\u0131tadan bir k\u0131taya ge\u00e7i\u015f benimkisi. A\u015fk\u0131n her […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":60,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[9],"tags":[],"ppma_author":[250],"class_list":["post-90403","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-yazarlar"],"yoast_head":"\n