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SIRADA\u011eLAR G\u0130B\u0130 k\u0131vr\u0131m k\u0131vr\u0131m uzan\u0131r hayat\u0131m\u0131zdaki ini\u015f \u00e7\u0131k\u0131\u015flar, zor t\u0131rman\u0131\u015flar, ani d\u00fc\u015f\u00fc\u015fler… O k\u0131vr\u0131mlar\u0131n aras\u0131nda saklanan g\u00f6lgeler, asl\u0131nda hepimizin hayat\u0131nda gizlenmi\u015f g\u00f6lgeleri resmeder. \u0130lkbahar\u0131n ba\u015flang\u0131c\u0131nda, karlar da\u011flarda hen\u00fcz erimeye ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, o dev g\u00f6vdelerinin i\u00e7inde nas\u0131l farkl\u0131 ya\u015famlar ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131klar\u0131 belirginle\u015fir.<\/p>\n
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\u00d6rt\u00fclerin tam a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131 de\u011fil, araland\u0131\u011f\u0131 zamanlar\u0131n, bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 daha iyi tan\u0131tt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hi\u00e7 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcn\u00fcz m\u00fc? Aralanan; en kolay g\u00f6sterilen, en memnun kal\u0131nan, en \u00f6ndeki y\u00fczeylerdir. Bir de zaman isteyenler vard\u0131r ya da hep g\u00f6lgede kalmaya mahkum olanlar, bir di\u011fer ad\u0131yla en gizli derinliklikler. Da\u011flar\u0131n en derin g\u00f6lgedeki o yar\u0131klar\u0131ndan p\u0131narlar akar, unutmayal\u0131m. G\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131 da o derinlikler kadar gizli g\u00f6lgelerde akt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda o p\u0131narlar kadar saft\u0131r san\u0131r\u0131m. O p\u0131narlara o derinliklerde belki hi\u00e7 g\u00fcne\u015f de\u011fmemektedir, ama bir zamanlar de\u011fmi\u015f ve karlar\u0131 o derin yar\u0131klara teslim etmi\u015ftir. \u015eimdi hi\u00e7 g\u00fcne\u015f de\u011fmese de, g\u00f6lgede bile g\u00f6zlerinizi alabilecek kadar berrakt\u0131r. Bu berrakl\u0131\u011f\u0131 veren teslimiyet midir?<\/p>\n
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\u0130lkbahar\u0131n ilk g\u00fcnleri, g\u00fcney ve kuzey cephelerin en belirgin oldu\u011fu zamanlard\u0131r. Da\u011flar\u0131n bir y\u00fcz\u00fcnde beyaz bir palto, di\u011fer y\u00fcz\u00fcnde g\u00fcne\u015fi yans\u0131tan gri dallar vard\u0131r. \u0130nsana, g\u00fcne\u015fi g\u00f6ren y\u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fczde yans\u0131yan g\u00fcneyimsi ifadeler ve paltonun alt\u0131nda kalm\u0131\u015f kuzeyimsi derinlikleri \u00e7o\u011fu zaman hat\u0131rlatmasalar da, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcnce hayat benzerliklerle dolu gibi geliyor.<\/p>\n
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Da\u011fda y\u0131llar\u0131n\u0131 t\u00fcketen bir a\u011fa\u00e7 olmak ve kimselerin u\u011framad\u0131\u011f\u0131 o diyarda y\u0131llarca kalmak… \u015eu anda bulundu\u011funuz yerde de\u011fil, kimselerin olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 ve belki de hi\u00e7 olamayaca\u011f\u0131 bir yama\u00e7ta, o a\u011fac\u0131n g\u00f6lgesinde olabilir ve t\u00fcm \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fcn dakikalar\u0131n\u0131 o ana s\u0131\u011fd\u0131rabilirdik. Sanki ba\u015fka bir yer, ba\u015fka bir zaman, bir daha hi\u00e7 ya\u015fanmayacak gibi… Ya da ya\u015fan\u0131lan her\u015feyin birka\u00e7 saniyelik \u00f6zetinden geriye kalan yalan bir d\u00fcnya. O a\u011fa\u00e7 neden var, biz neden var\u0131z?<\/p>\n
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\u015eimdi g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fczde var olma ihtimali olan o bulutlar hangi da\u011f\u0131n hangi a\u011fac\u0131na selam edip de gelmi\u015ftir? Yapraklar\u0131n\u0131 dansettirdi\u011fi r\u00fczg\u00e2r, sizin kirpiklerinize de dokunmu\u015f mudur? Ya\u011fmur ya\u011fmay\u0131 m\u0131 \u00f6\u011fretir asl\u0131nda? Hani \u0131slanmamak i\u00e7in ka\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z, duvarlar\u0131n ard\u0131nda sakland\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z, \u015femsiyelerle savurdu\u011fumuz ya\u011fmur, ya\u011fmay\u0131 m\u0131 \u00f6\u011fretir?<\/p>\n
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\u015eu g\u00fcnlerde hayat\u0131n\u0131z\u0131n g\u00fcneyi mi, kuzeyi mi ya\u015fan\u0131yor, hi\u00e7 bilemem. Bildi\u011fim, g\u00fcn ve saatler bile g\u00fcney ve kuzeylerle dolup ta\u015f\u0131yor. Buna ra\u011fmen hayat bir nefeste donup kald\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, ortal\u0131\u011f\u0131 derin bir sessizlik kaplad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, geriye kuzeyde teslimiyeti kabul edebilmi\u015f berrak bir \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr p\u0131r\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n g\u00fcneye ak\u0131\u015f\u0131 kal\u0131yor. Tabi\u00ee, varsa\u2026<\/p>\n
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13.01.2008 SIRADA\u011eLAR G\u0130B\u0130 k\u0131vr\u0131m k\u0131vr\u0131m uzan\u0131r hayat\u0131m\u0131zdaki ini\u015f \u00e7\u0131k\u0131\u015flar, zor t\u0131rman\u0131\u015flar, ani d\u00fc\u015f\u00fc\u015fler… O k\u0131vr\u0131mlar\u0131n aras\u0131nda saklanan g\u00f6lgeler, asl\u0131nda hepimizin hayat\u0131nda gizlenmi\u015f g\u00f6lgeleri resmeder. \u0130lkbahar\u0131n ba\u015flang\u0131c\u0131nda, karlar da\u011flarda hen\u00fcz erimeye ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, o dev g\u00f6vdelerinin i\u00e7inde nas\u0131l farkl\u0131 ya\u015famlar ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131klar\u0131 belirginle\u015fir. \u00d6rt\u00fclerin tam a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131 de\u011fil, araland\u0131\u011f\u0131 zamanlar\u0131n, bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 daha iyi tan\u0131tt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hi\u00e7 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcn\u00fcz m\u00fc? Aralanan; en […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":50,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[9],"tags":[],"ppma_author":[230],"class_list":["post-90312","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-yazarlar"],"yoast_head":"\n