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\u00d6NCE KARDELEN \u00c7\u0130\u00c7E\u011e\u0130 mevsimin ilk m\u00fcjdesini b\u0131rak\u0131r bahara. Sonras\u0131nda bir beyaz papatya d\u00fc\u015fer yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n eline. Sar\u0131-beyaz inciler dizilidir, ye\u015fil gerdanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcne. Ve cemreler d\u00fc\u015fer her bir zerreye.<\/p>\n
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K\u0131ymeti kayna\u011f\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fen cemrelerin Mevsime d\u00fc\u015fen cemreler gizli bir dokunu\u015fla hayatland\u0131r\u0131r hayat sahiplerini. Kimbilir daha ka\u00e7 yaln\u0131z a\u015fk\u2019\u0131 beslemi\u015ftir bu bahar. Bir ye\u015fil seccade serilir yery\u00fcz\u00fcne. Topra\u011fa d\u00fc\u015fen cemrenin secdesinde Hayy sesi ayakta. K\u00fcn emrini almaya haz\u0131rd\u0131r mevsim.<\/p>\n
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Bir cemre de y\u00fcreklere d\u00fc\u015fer. Y\u00fcreklere d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc m\u00fc cemre, binbir esman\u0131n co\u015ftu\u011fu bayram\u0131na d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr bahar. Bu bayram co\u015fturur en \u00f6zg\u00fcr ruhlar\u0131, bu bayram seyrettirir; en kutsal tabloyu, bu bayram sevdirir en pak y\u00fcrekleri.<\/p>\n
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Kudd\u00fcs ismi de\u011fer bahara, bahar de\u011fildir sadece temizlenen, a\u015fklar da Kudd\u00fcs isminden nasbini al\u0131r. En kutsal haliyle.<\/p>\n
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Bahar kelimelerini toplar, \u0131l\u0131k r\u00fczgar kalplerin en kuytusuna savurur a\u015fk\u2019\u0131. Kelimeler tek bir ismi, ad\u0131 a\u015fk kokan bahar\u0131 yazar. A\u015fk\u2019\u0131n kokusudur yay\u0131lan. Bu kokuyu bir defa almaya g\u00f6r\u00fcn; \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n etraf\u0131nda pervane olan ate\u015fb\u00f6ce\u011fi gibi pervane olur, d\u00f6nersiniz zamans\u0131zca. Ba\u015fd\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fc bu kokuyu i\u00e7inize \u00e7ektik\u00e7e tazelenir, tazelendik\u00e7e yeniden do\u011fars\u0131n\u0131z. Size de yeni, yeniden K\u00fcn emri \u00fcflenmi\u015ftir. A\u015fk\u0131n kayna\u011f\u0131ndan \u00fcflenen K\u00fcn emri, hi\u00e7 kesilmeden sonsuzluk okyanusuna kar\u0131\u015fana dek devaml\u0131 akar. Yaln\u0131zl\u0131k rafa kald\u0131r\u0131l\u0131r \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc; sa\u011f\u0131n\u0131zda a\u015fk solunuzda a\u015fk vard\u0131r.<\/p>\n
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P\u0131t\u0131r p\u0131t\u0131r patlayan m\u0131s\u0131r misali, h\u0131zla patlay\u0131p kendi kab\u0131n\u0131 a\u015fan \u00e7i\u00e7ek demetleri s\u00fcratle da\u011f\u0131l\u0131r her yana. \u015eimdi \u00e7i\u00e7ek demetleri dallara as\u0131l\u0131, sonras\u0131nda sonsuz \u015f\u00fckr\u00fcn kuca\u011f\u0131nda meyveler. Ye\u015fil gerdanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7inden \u00e7\u0131kan sar\u0131-beyaz papatyalar, uyum i\u00e7inde yer a\u00e7arlar birbirlerine.<\/p>\n
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Bu a\u015fk\u2019\u0131n tablosudur. Birbirlerine, ne ye\u015fil bu tabloda sadece ben olmal\u0131y\u0131m der, ne de sar\u0131-beyaz tonlar. Renklerin dostlu\u011fu kadim dostluklar\u0131 anlat\u0131r, ge\u00e7ici ve rastgele de\u011fildir. B\u00fcy\u00fck bir t\u00f6renle b\u0131rak\u0131r yeni renkler mevsime kendini. Birbirleriyle ittifak i\u00e7inde olan \u00e7i\u00e7ekler, t\u00fcm kainat\u0131 i\u00e7ine al\u0131r b\u00fcy\u00fcl\u00fc kokusuyla. Bu mevsimde b\u00fcy\u00fcl\u00fc a\u015fk\u2019a davet vard\u0131r, reddedilmesi m\u00fcmk\u00fcn olmayan bu b\u00fcy\u00fcyle ye\u015ferir her bir \u00fcmitler.<\/p>\n
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Kalplerdeki k\u0131\u015fa seslenir mevsim ve y\u00fcreklere d\u00fc\u015fen cemre eritir karlar\u0131. Seyri takibe yeti\u015fmez zahiri g\u00f6zleriniz, a\u015fk\u0131n say\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 sayamaz ak\u0131llar. \u015ea\u015far hesap makineniz, \u00e7\u0131karma ya da \u00e7arpma yap\u0131lsa da o hep art\u0131dad\u0131r. Do\u011fru s\u00f6zl\u00fcd\u00fcr mevsim, terk etmez fani gibi. Yerinde ve zaman\u0131nda kar\u015f\u0131lar sizi, a\u015fk-\u0131 kadimdir ad\u0131.<\/p>\n
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Bahar ya\u011fmurlar\u0131 ar\u0131nd\u0131r\u0131r en gizli g\u00fcnahlar\u0131. Hayy emrini alan cemre, topra\u011fa ta\u015f\u0131r mevsimi. Toprakla bulu\u015fmas\u0131 a\u015fk\u0131n ma\u015fukuyla bulu\u015fmas\u0131 kadar kutsal, g\u00fcne\u015fin g\u00fcl\u00fcmsemesi kadar s\u0131cakt\u0131r. Sevginin kokusu yay\u0131l\u0131r alt\u0131n sa\u00e7l\u0131 baharda. Her yeniye, yeniden a\u015f\u0131k olunur. Eskimi\u015f olsa da a\u015fk\u0131n\u0131z ziyan\u0131 yok, nisan ya\u011fmuruyla yenilenir. Toprak kokusuna kar\u0131\u015fan a\u015fk\u0131n kokusu, yeniden yenilenerek kar\u0131\u015f\u0131r mevsime.<\/p>\n
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Hangi sevgili bunca renk demetlerini b\u0131rak\u0131r elinize? Hangi sevgili t\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc toplay\u0131p getirebilir, sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131za ta\u00e7lar yapabilir? Ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z \u015fehirle s\u0131n\u0131rl\u0131 de\u011fildir sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131za yap\u0131lan ta\u00e7lar yada elinize b\u0131rak\u0131lan demet demet \u00e7i\u00e7ekler. Her yeni yarat\u0131l\u0131\u015f ve dirili\u015f; bilirsiniz yaln\u0131z size \u00f6zel ve yaln\u0131z sizin i\u00e7indir. Engel olmak m\u00fcmk\u00fcn de\u011fildir bu co\u015fkuya, bu dirili\u015fe. Elime b\u0131rak\u0131lan demet demet papatyalar\u0131n beyazl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda bahar\u2019a a\u015fk\u2019\u0131m. \u0130\u015fte bu sebepten ben her bahar\u2019a yine, yeniden a\u015f\u0131k olurum.<\/p>\n
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\u015eimdi b\u00fcy\u00fcl\u00fc bir huzur sakl\u0131yorum i\u00e7imde, derin bir nefesle \u00e7ektim, bir sonraki bahara kadar. Cemreler d\u00fc\u015fer alt\u0131n sa\u00e7l\u0131 bahara. Biri yarat\u0131l\u0131\u015f a\u011fac\u0131na, biri yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011fa, di\u011feri a\u015fk\u2019a\u2026 \u00dc\u00e7 cemre d\u00fc\u015fer, \u00fc\u00e7 harf ile anlat\u0131r hikayesini, ad\u0131 A-\u015f-k olan\u0131.<\/p>\n
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Kalbinizin kanat \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131\u015flar\u0131 kelebekleri k\u0131skand\u0131r\u0131r m\u0131 bilinmez ancak, cemre d\u00fc\u015fen a\u015fklar ac\u0131tmaz kalbinizi, Ol emriyle, \u00e7\u0131k\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r yola. Umutlara d\u00fc\u015fen cemre, nas\u0131l ye\u015fertir ve k\u00f6k salarsa y\u00fcrekleri, \u00f6yle de kab\u0131na s\u0131\u011fmaz ruhum ye\u015ferir, g\u00f6kku\u015fa\u011f\u0131 renkleriyle. Nas\u0131l beklerse a\u015f\u0131k ma\u015fukunu \u00f6yle beklerim bahar\u0131 kalp at\u0131\u015flar\u0131mla. Sadece lale, s\u00fcmb\u00fcl, papatya ve \u0131tri g\u00fcller de\u011fildir elinize b\u0131rak\u0131lanlar, g\u00f6zlerin g\u00f6rebildi\u011fi t\u00fcm \u00e7i\u00e7ekler, ya da alt\u0131n sa\u00e7l\u0131 baharda her ne varsa c\u00f6mert\u00e7e b\u0131rak\u0131l\u0131r avu\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131za.<\/p>\n
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Bu a\u015fk ba\u015f d\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u00fcr, bu a\u015fk \u015f\u00fckr\u00fc artt\u0131r\u0131r, bu a\u015fk nuru ile ayd\u0131nlat\u0131r, bu a\u015fk tazeler iman g\u00fcne\u015fini. G\u00fcne\u015fin s\u0131cakl\u0131\u011f\u0131 a\u015fk\u0131n \u015fark\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6yler her dem. Seher de \u00f6ten b\u00fclb\u00fcllerin nidalar\u0131 yaln\u0131z O\u2019nu zikreder. T\u00fcm \u00f6vg\u00fcler yaln\u0131z O\u2019na. Kainat\u0131 kapsayan hi\u00e7 bitmeyecek bir sevdan\u0131n senfonisidir. Her bir azam \u015fahittir bu a\u015fk\u2019a.<\/p>\n
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Seherde ba\u015flay\u0131p ve g\u00fcnbat\u0131m\u0131na kadar devam eden bu senfoniye, kalp at\u0131\u015flar\u0131m e\u015flik eder. Kulaklar\u0131mda Rahmani zikirle \u00f6ten b\u00fclb\u00fcllerin co\u015fkulu sesi. G\u00f6zlerimde ha\u015frin ayetleri. Ellerimde ise rengarenk umut \u00e7i\u00e7ekleri.<\/p>\n
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A\u015fk\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcne, bahar kokular\u0131 yay\u0131l\u0131r. G\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fcd\u00fcr bu a\u015fk, ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011fa d\u00fc\u015fmeyecek kadar g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc. Rahman\u2019\u0131n Cemal isminden sad\u0131r.<\/p>\n
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Rahmet\u2019in a\u015fk\u0131ndan a\u015fk\u2019a d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc cemre.<\/p>\n
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Ve a\u015fktan a\u015fk\u2019a d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc son cemre. \u0130\u015fte bu y\u00fczden ben her bahar\u2019a yeni, yeniden a\u015f\u0131k olurum.<\/p>\n
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Bu seyri takibe ge\u00e7 kalmamak gerek. Lakin baharda A\u015fk\u2019a ge\u00e7 kalmamak gerek.<\/p>\n
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A\u015fk ad\u0131na her ne varsa…<\/p>\n
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19.04.2009 \u00d6NCE KARDELEN \u00c7\u0130\u00c7E\u011e\u0130 mevsimin ilk m\u00fcjdesini b\u0131rak\u0131r bahara. Sonras\u0131nda bir beyaz papatya d\u00fc\u015fer yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n eline. Sar\u0131-beyaz inciler dizilidir, ye\u015fil gerdanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcne. Ve cemreler d\u00fc\u015fer her bir zerreye. K\u0131ymeti kayna\u011f\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fen cemrelerin Mevsime d\u00fc\u015fen cemreler gizli bir dokunu\u015fla hayatland\u0131r\u0131r hayat sahiplerini. Kimbilir daha ka\u00e7 yaln\u0131z a\u015fk\u2019\u0131 beslemi\u015ftir bu bahar. Bir ye\u015fil seccade serilir yery\u00fcz\u00fcne. Topra\u011fa […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":44,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[9],"tags":[],"ppma_author":[218],"class_list":["post-90216","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-yazarlar"],"yoast_head":"\n