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AMA \u00c7OCUK avucumun i\u00e7ine koyaca\u011f\u0131 yerde, \u00f6ylece havaya do\u011fru tutuyordu \u00e7i\u00e7e\u011fi. \u0130\u015fte o zaman \u00e7ocu\u011fun g\u00f6zlerinin g\u00f6rmedi\u011fini anlad\u0131m: \u00e7ocuk k\u00f6rd\u00fc.<\/p>\n
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Birg\u00fcn kitap okumak i\u00e7in parka gitmi\u015f, ya\u015fl\u0131 bir s\u00f6\u011f\u00fct a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n uzun, da\u011f\u0131n\u0131k dallar\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131ndaki bo\u015f banka oturmu\u015ftum. Hayat\u0131mdan bezmi\u015f bir halde, d\u00fcnyan\u0131n alay edercesine, \u00fcst \u00fcste silleler vurmas\u0131na i\u00e7erlemi\u015f, homurdan\u0131yordum.<\/p>\n
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T\u00fcm bunlar g\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fc mahvetmeye yetmezmi\u015f gibi, oyun oynamaktan bitap d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir \u00e7ocuk nefes nefese \u00e7\u0131kageldi. Yan\u0131ba\u015f\u0131mda, kafas\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 e\u011fik bir \u015fekilde durdu ve b\u00fcy\u00fck bir heyecanla bana \u201cBak ne buldum!\u201d diyerek elindekileri g\u00f6sterdi.<\/p>\n
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Elinde bir \u00e7i\u00e7ek vard\u0131 ve \u00e7i\u00e7ek ac\u0131nacak durumdayd\u0131. \u00c7i\u00e7e\u011fin b\u00fct\u00fcn yapraklar\u0131 y\u0131rt\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. San\u0131r\u0131m \u00e7i\u00e7ek ya yeterli ya\u011fmur g\u00f6rmemi\u015f yada pek \u0131\u015f\u0131k alamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u00c7ocu\u011fun \u00f6l\u00fc \u00e7i\u00e7e\u011fi al\u0131p gitmesi i\u00e7in sahte bir g\u00fcl\u00fcc\u00fck att\u0131m ve kafam\u0131 ba\u015fka y\u00f6ne \u00e7evirdim.<\/p>\n
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Ancak \u00e7ocuk d\u00f6n\u00fcp gidece\u011fine yan\u0131ma oturdu. \u00c7i\u00e7e\u011fi burnunun \u00fcst\u00fcne getirerek, \u015fa\u015f\u0131rm\u0131\u015f bir \u015fekilde \u201cBu kesinlikle \u00e7ok ho\u015f kokuyor ve ayr\u0131ca da \u00e7ok g\u00fczel. \u0130\u015fte bu y\u00fczden onu kopard\u0131m; al, bu senin i\u00e7in.\u201d diyerek \u00e7i\u00e7e\u011fi bana do\u011fru uzatt\u0131.<\/p>\n
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Getirdi\u011fi bu \u00e7i\u00e7ek yabani bir ottan ba\u015fka bir\u015fey de\u011fildi, renkli g\u00f6ze ho\u015f gelen bir\u015fey de de\u011fildi ama biliyordum ki onu almazsam \u00e7ocuk gitmeyecekti. Ben de \u00e7i\u00e7e\u011fe do\u011fru uzand\u0131m ve \u201cBu tam ihtiyac\u0131m olan \u015feydi.\u201d diyerek cevap verdim.<\/p>\n
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Ama \u00e7ocuk avcumun i\u00e7ine koyaca\u011f\u0131 yerde, \u00f6ylece havaya do\u011fru tutuyordu \u00e7i\u00e7e\u011fi. \u0130\u015fte o zaman \u00e7ocu\u011fun g\u00f6zlerinin g\u00f6rmedi\u011fini anlad\u0131m: \u00e7ocuk k\u00f6rd\u00fc.<\/p>\n
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En g\u00fczel \u00e7i\u00e7e\u011fi se\u00e7ti\u011fi i\u00e7in ona te\u015fekk\u00fcr ederken sesim titriyor, g\u00f6zlerimden ya\u015flar bo\u015fal\u0131yordu. \u201cBir\u015fey de\u011fil\u201d dedi g\u00fcl\u00fcmseyerek, ve sonra ko\u015farak oyununa geri d\u00f6nd\u00fc, bende b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 etkiden habersizce.<\/p>\n
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Orada otura kald\u0131m ve bu k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck \u00e7ocu\u011fun ya\u015fl\u0131 s\u00f6\u011f\u00fct a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131nda oturan ve kendi kendine ac\u0131yan bu ya\u015fl\u0131 kad\u0131n\u0131 nas\u0131l g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc merakla d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeye ba\u015flad\u0131m. Benim s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131l\u0131 oldu\u011fumu nas\u0131l bilmi\u015fti? \u00c7i\u00e7e\u011fi neden bana getirmi\u015fti? \u0130htimal, kalp g\u00f6z\u00fc ona ger\u00e7ek do\u011fruyu g\u00f6stermi\u015fti.<\/p>\n
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Sonunda k\u00f6r bir \u00e7ocu\u011fun g\u00f6zlerinden problemin d\u00fcnya ile ilgili olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m: problem bendeydi. Oysa ki ger\u00e7ek k\u00f6r bendim ve t\u00fcm zaman\u0131m\u0131 bir k\u00f6r olarak ge\u00e7irmi\u015ftim. \u0130\u015fte o g\u00fcn etraf\u0131mdaki g\u00fczellikleri g\u00f6rmeye ve benim olan her an\u0131n tad\u0131na varmaya ahdettim.<\/p>\n
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Ve sonra solmu\u015f \u00e7i\u00e7e\u011fi burnuma yakla\u015ft\u0131rarak o g\u00fczel kokuyu koklamaya ba\u015flad\u0131m. O s\u0131rada k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck \u00e7ocuk elinde ba\u015fka bir otla, parkta oturan ba\u015fka bir ya\u015fl\u0131 adam\u0131n hayat\u0131n\u0131 de\u011fi\u015ftirmeye gidiyordu.<\/p>\n
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10.10.2002 AMA \u00c7OCUK avucumun i\u00e7ine koyaca\u011f\u0131 yerde, \u00f6ylece havaya do\u011fru tutuyordu \u00e7i\u00e7e\u011fi. \u0130\u015fte o zaman \u00e7ocu\u011fun g\u00f6zlerinin g\u00f6rmedi\u011fini anlad\u0131m: \u00e7ocuk k\u00f6rd\u00fc. Birg\u00fcn kitap okumak i\u00e7in parka gitmi\u015f, ya\u015fl\u0131 bir s\u00f6\u011f\u00fct a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n uzun, da\u011f\u0131n\u0131k dallar\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131ndaki bo\u015f banka oturmu\u015ftum. Hayat\u0131mdan bezmi\u015f bir halde, d\u00fcnyan\u0131n alay edercesine, \u00fcst \u00fcste silleler vurmas\u0131na i\u00e7erlemi\u015f, homurdan\u0131yordum. T\u00fcm bunlar g\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fc mahvetmeye […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":32,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[9],"tags":[],"ppma_author":[192],"class_list":["post-89856","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-yazarlar"],"yoast_head":"\n