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SUDAK\u0130 BALI\u011eIN suyu idrakinin, ancak \u201csudan \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015f bal\u0131k\u201d olunca ortaya \u00e7\u0131kmas\u0131 gibi halimiz. S\u0131radan gelen, kolayca ula\u015fabildi\u011fimiz onca nimetin k\u0131ymetini ancak kaybetti\u011fimizde anl\u0131yoruz. \u0130\u00e7 huzurumuz da \u00f6yle. Rabbimiz her daim rahmetiyle nazar etmese, \u015fu d\u00fcnyan\u0131n a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131na tahamm\u00fcl etmek imkans\u0131z. <\/p>\n
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\u00d6zellikle d\u00fcnyan\u0131n dar geldi\u011fi anlar\u0131 ya\u015farken daha iyi anlar\u0131z bunu. Kalplerimize yerle\u015ftirilmi\u015f \u201csekine\u201d olmasa ne bu geceden sabah\u0131, ne ya\u015farken \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc beklemeye g\u00fc\u00e7 yetirebiliriz. Hatta sevindi\u011fimiz bir haber al\u0131nca ya da y\u00fcre\u011fimiz k\u0131p\u0131r k\u0131p\u0131r olunca bile, bir sure sonra durulmas\u0131n\u0131 arzu ederiz. Ku\u015f gibi \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131nan bir y\u00fcrek yorar insan\u0131. <\/p>\n
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\u00c7ok sevdi\u011fim bir yak\u0131n\u0131m var. Hasta. Hem hastal\u0131\u011f\u0131, hem kulland\u0131\u011f\u0131 ila\u00e7lar\u0131n yan etkileri nedeniyle hemen hemen b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcn ve en \u00e7ok da geceleri tarifsiz bir i\u00e7 s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131s\u0131yla ya\u015f\u0131yor. Hatta bu d\u00fcnyadan \u00e7ekip gitmeyi arzu edecek kadar. Ge\u00e7enlerde y\u00fcre\u011fimin s\u0131k\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir an, onu hat\u0131rlad\u0131m. Bu halde g\u00fcnler ge\u00e7irmenin ne a\u011f\u0131r bir imtihan oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm. Kayalara vuran h\u0131r\u00e7\u0131n dalgalar gibi, y\u00fcre\u011fimize her dakika \u00e7arpan kesik nefeslerin, yolunu bulup ci\u011ferlerimize ula\u015fmadan \u00f6ylece s\u0131k\u0131\u015f\u0131p kalmas\u0131. <\/p>\n
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Asl\u0131nda \u201ci\u00e7im s\u0131k\u0131l\u0131yor\u201d diyenlerin say\u0131s\u0131 \u015fimdilerde ne kadar da \u00e7ok. Can s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131s\u0131 de\u011fil kastetti\u011fim. Can\u0131n\u0131z s\u0131k\u0131l\u0131nca se\u00e7enekleriniz vard\u0131r. Do\u011fru se\u00e7ene\u011fi bulunca can\u0131n\u0131z\u0131n s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131s\u0131 ge\u00e7er. Can s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131s\u0131 korkutmaz. \u0130\u00e7 s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131s\u0131 korkutur. Zaman\u0131n durdu\u011funu ve i\u00e7inde bulundu\u011funuz bu halden hi\u00e7 kurtulamayacakm\u0131\u015f vehminin etraf\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 sard\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hissedersiniz. <\/p>\n
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\u0130nsan, y\u0131llar ge\u00e7tik\u00e7e, imtihanlar \u00e7e\u015fitlendik\u00e7e, \u015fartlar de\u011fi\u015ftik\u00e7e daha \u00f6nce farketmedi\u011fi yepyeni \u015feyleri farkediyor. Hele belli bir ya\u015ftan sonra, d\u0131\u015f d\u00fcnyada olup bitenlerin de\u011fil de, ger\u00e7ekte i\u00e7 aleminizde olanlar\u0131n hayat\u0131n\u0131z i\u00e7in \u00f6nemini anl\u0131yorsunuz. \u00c7o\u011falan me\u015fguliyetler, h\u0131zla ge\u00e7en g\u00fcnler, ko\u015fmak zorunda b\u0131rakan t\u00fcm dayatmalar, eninde sonunda i\u00e7te, i\u00e7 d\u00fcnyam\u0131zda b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 derin izlerden ibaret oluyor. Ya\u015fanan ya\u015fan\u0131yor, geride ac\u0131 ya da de\u011fil, bir iz b\u0131rak\u0131yor. Ve biz, o izleri s\u00fcrerek, kendimizi anlamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yoruz.<\/p>\n
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Kimbilir, belki de \u0130smet \u00d6zel\u2019in bir zamanlar dedi\u011fi gibi, \u201cben\u201d dedi\u011fimiz \u015feyin yerini tesbitte kar\u015f\u0131la\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z zorluk \u201canlam\u201da yakla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n bir i\u015faretidir. <\/p>\n
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17.10.2008 SUDAK\u0130 BALI\u011eIN suyu idrakinin, ancak \u201csudan \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015f bal\u0131k\u201d olunca ortaya \u00e7\u0131kmas\u0131 gibi halimiz. S\u0131radan gelen, kolayca ula\u015fabildi\u011fimiz onca nimetin k\u0131ymetini ancak kaybetti\u011fimizde anl\u0131yoruz. \u0130\u00e7 huzurumuz da \u00f6yle. Rabbimiz her daim rahmetiyle nazar etmese, \u015fu d\u00fcnyan\u0131n a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131na tahamm\u00fcl etmek imkans\u0131z. \u00d6zellikle d\u00fcnyan\u0131n dar geldi\u011fi anlar\u0131 ya\u015farken daha iyi anlar\u0131z bunu. Kalplerimize yerle\u015ftirilmi\u015f \u201csekine\u201d olmasa ne […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":28,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[9],"tags":[],"ppma_author":[184],"class_list":["post-89685","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-yazarlar"],"yoast_head":"\n