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D\u0130YEL\u0130M K\u0130 bu g\u00fcn, hayat\u0131n\u0131z\u0131n ilk g\u00fcn\u00fc. Herhangi bir g\u00fcnden farkl\u0131 olarak nas\u0131l ya\u015fard\u0131n\u0131z hayat\u0131n\u0131z\u0131n ilk g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00fc? Mesela ilk g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00fcn sabah\u0131nda nas\u0131l uyan\u0131rd\u0131n\u0131z? \u0130lk defa do\u011fu\u015funu seyretti\u011finiz G\u00fcne\u015fi, nas\u0131l kar\u015f\u0131lard\u0131n\u0131z? Y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcz\u00fc G\u00fcne\u015fin \u0131\u015f\u0131klar\u0131 ilk defa ok\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131zda neler hissederdiniz?<\/p>\n
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Sevgiyle y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcze g\u00fclen bir \u00e7i\u00e7e\u011fi ilk defa g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fczde eminim tarif edemeyiz hissettiklerimizi. Ya ilk defa ku\u015flar\u0131 u\u00e7arken g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fczde, kendimizi sanki onlarla beraber u\u00e7uyormu\u015f gibi hissederdik. <\/p>\n
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Ya denize ne demeli? \u0130lk defa hayat\u0131m\u0131zda deniz g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fczde nas\u0131l kar\u015f\u0131lard\u0131k acaba? Sahili hep vuran o kocaman dalgalar\u0131yla s\u00fcrekli bir titre\u015fim halinde bulunan deniz, kara par\u00e7as\u0131na, topra\u011fa, da\u011fa ta\u015fa meydan okur adeta. <\/p>\n
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Daha bunun gibi insan\u0131, hayvanlar\u0131, bitkileri, da\u011flar\u0131, ta\u015flar\u0131 her \u015feyi ilk defa g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fczde hayretimizden yerimizde duramaz; heyacanla ve merakla onlarla ilgileniriz. \u0130lk defa d\u00fcnyaya gelen bir yavruyu seyretmeye neden doyum olmuyor? Saatlerce siz ona o da size merakla bak\u0131\u015f\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z. Sanki ilk defa yery\u00fcz\u00fcyle m\u00fc\u015ferref olan o de\u011fil de sizmi\u015fisiniz gibi. <\/p>\n
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Bu yaz\u0131y\u0131 okuduktan sonraki ilk g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00fcz\u00fc, g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00fcz\u00fc yukar\u0131daki sorulara ay\u0131r\u0131n. Ve o g\u00fcn\u00fc hayat\u0131n\u0131z\u0131n ilk g\u00fcn\u00fc gibi ya\u015famaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131n. Hissettiklerinizi birlikte payla\u015fal\u0131m.<\/p>\n
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Bir de soruyu tersinden soral\u0131m. Bu g\u00fcn, hayat\u0131n\u0131z\u0131n son g\u00fcn\u00fc oldu\u011funu bilseydiniz nas\u0131l ya\u015fad\u0131n\u0131z bu g\u00fcn\u00fc? D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnsenize! G\u00fcne\u015fi son kez do\u011farken g\u00f6r\u00fcyorsunuz. Heyecanla G\u00fcne\u015fi seyre dalar, zaman\u0131n ge\u00e7mesini istemezsiniz adeta. T\u0131pk\u0131 r\u00fcyam\u0131zda, r\u00fcya oldu\u011funu anlay\u0131p, r\u00fcyan\u0131n bitmesini istememek gibi. Her \u015feye son bir kez bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131zda, i\u00e7imizi bir h\u00fcz\u00fcn kaplar ve heyacanla d\u00f6n\u00fcp d\u00f6n\u00fcp bir daha bakard\u0131k herhalde. T\u0131pk\u0131 limandan ayr\u0131lan bir gemiden, limana do\u011fru bak\u0131nca g\u00f6rd\u00fcklerimiz gibi. Her \u015fey gittik\u00e7e uzakla\u015f\u0131yor bizden. <\/p>\n
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Az \u00f6nce gibi, sabah g\u00fcne\u015fin do\u011fu\u015funu seyretmi\u015ftik beraberce. Sanki hemen sonra ise, G\u00fcne\u015f bat\u0131yor d\u00fcnyan\u0131zda. Hatta hayat\u0131n\u0131z\u0131n ilk g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00fc d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrken, ayn\u0131 g\u00fcn\u00fcn bir de son g\u00fcn oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131n. \u2018Bir g\u00fcn\u2019, \u00e7ok k\u0131sa bir zaman. Sabah bu limana yana\u015fan gemimiz, \u015fimdi ayr\u0131l\u0131yor limandan. <\/p>\n
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Bir g\u00fcn gibi hayat\u0131m\u0131z. Be\u015fikten mezara kadar ge\u00e7en bir zaman. Upuzun zannedilen ve fakat \u2018bir g\u00fcn\u2019 s\u00fcren hayat\u0131m\u0131z. \u0130lk g\u00fcn\u00fc ve son g\u00fcn\u00fc aras\u0131nda ge\u00e7en onca g\u00fcne ra\u011fmen, toplay\u0131p \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131zda elimizde kalan \u2018bir g\u00fcn\u2019 gibi hayat. \u00d6mr\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fcn resmini \u00e7izer \u2018bir g\u00fcn\u2019\u00fcm\u00fcz. <\/p>\n
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Sabah do\u011far, g\u00fcne\u015fin ilk \u0131\u015f\u0131klar\u0131yla emekleriz; ku\u015fluk vaktinde hayat\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n fark\u0131na var\u0131r; G\u00fcne\u015f tepemizdeyken, biz de hayat\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n en verimli \u00e7a\u011f\u0131nda olgunluk d\u00f6nemimizi ya\u015far\u0131z. G\u00fcne\u015f ikindi vaktine do\u011fru e\u011fildi\u011finde, yorgunluktan belimiz b\u00fck\u00fcl\u00fcr; hayat\u0131n a\u011f\u0131r sorumluluklar\u0131ndan iki b\u00fckl\u00fcm oluruz. Ve ak\u015fam oldu\u011funda hayat\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n g\u00fcne\u015fi ufukta ya bir tepenin ard\u0131nda, ya da \u2018bal\u00e7\u0131kl\u0131 bir \u00e7amurda\u2019 batar. Biz de geldi\u011fimiz topra\u011fa avdet etmi\u015f oluruz. \u2018Alt\u0131 g\u00fcn\u2019de yarat\u0131lan kainat\u0131n vakitlerini biz, bir g\u00fcnde ya\u015far\u0131z. G\u00fcne\u015fin do\u011fu\u015fuyla her g\u00fcn biz de do\u011far, bat\u0131\u015f\u0131yla her g\u00fcn biz de \u00f6l\u00fcr\u00fcz. <\/p>\n
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Saniye, dakika, saat, g\u00fcn, hafta, ay, y\u0131l, as\u0131r, \u00e7a\u011f, insanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n ba\u015flang\u0131c\u0131, kainat\u0131n ba\u015flang\u0131c\u0131 ve biti\u015fi g\u00f6steren bir saat farzedelim. Kainat\u0131n ba\u015flang\u0131c\u0131yla beraber, ilk saniye bir t\u0131klama ile \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmaya, zaman da i\u015flemeye ba\u015flar. \u0130lk t\u0131klama gibi, son bir t\u0131klama da hayat\u0131n, kainat\u0131n ve zaman\u0131n biti\u015fini anlat\u0131r bize. Bu iki t\u0131klama aras\u0131nda ge\u00e7en zamanda say\u0131s\u0131z g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcler as\u0131l\u0131r zaman\u0131n ipine. <\/p>\n
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B\u00fct\u00fcn bu tekrarlar, hayat\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n \u2018bir g\u00fcn\u2019 oldu\u011fu ger\u00e7e\u011fini de\u011fi\u015ftirmez. Bir g\u00fcnl\u00fck \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fcz varm\u0131\u015f d\u00fcnyada. Her tekrarlanan g\u00fcn, \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fcn sanki anl\u0131k g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcs\u00fc gibi. Her g\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fcz, hayat\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n filmindeki bir saniyelik bir g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fc. Bir saniyelik zaman diliminde r\u00fcyam\u0131za, g\u00fcnler hatta seneler s\u0131\u011far. <\/p>\n
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G\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fc, ger\u00e7e\u011fin kendisi de\u011fil, bir par\u00e7as\u0131 da de\u011fil. Sadece bir yans\u0131mas\u0131. Hayat\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n bir g\u00fcn\u00fc, \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fcn bir par\u00e7as\u0131. \u00d6mr\u00fcm\u00fcz ise, ger\u00e7e\u011fin sadece bir g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcs\u00fc. <\/p>\n
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\u0130nsan\u0131n bir g\u00fcn\u00fc gibi, her \u015feyin de bir ilk g\u00fcn\u00fc bir de son g\u00fcn\u00fc var kendi \u00f6mr\u00fcnce. Her \u015feyin say\u0131s\u0131z g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcleri, sonsuz bir G\u00fcne\u015fin \u0131\u015f\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131n yans\u0131malar\u0131. G\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fc, ger\u00e7e\u011fi yans\u0131t\u0131yor. <\/p>\n
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\u0130\u015fte, bir \u00f6mr\u00fcn yans\u0131mas\u0131 olan \u2018bir g\u00fcn\u2019\u00fcn g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcs\u00fc gibi bir yaz\u0131.<\/p>\n
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\u00a9Ahmet Nazl\u0131\/www.karakalem.net<\/p>\n
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12.11.2003 D\u0130YEL\u0130M K\u0130 bu g\u00fcn, hayat\u0131n\u0131z\u0131n ilk g\u00fcn\u00fc. Herhangi bir g\u00fcnden farkl\u0131 olarak nas\u0131l ya\u015fard\u0131n\u0131z hayat\u0131n\u0131z\u0131n ilk g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00fc? Mesela ilk g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00fcn sabah\u0131nda nas\u0131l uyan\u0131rd\u0131n\u0131z? \u0130lk defa do\u011fu\u015funu seyretti\u011finiz G\u00fcne\u015fi, nas\u0131l kar\u015f\u0131lard\u0131n\u0131z? Y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcz\u00fc G\u00fcne\u015fin \u0131\u015f\u0131klar\u0131 ilk defa ok\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131zda neler hissederdiniz? Sevgiyle y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcze g\u00fclen bir \u00e7i\u00e7e\u011fi ilk defa g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fczde eminim tarif edemeyiz hissettiklerimizi. Ya ilk defa ku\u015flar\u0131 […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[9],"tags":[],"ppma_author":[176],"class_list":["post-89447","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-yazarlar"],"yoast_head":"\n