17.05.2009<\/p>\n
B\u0130R S\u0130GARA D\u00dc\u015eT\u00dc YERE, duman\u0131 \u00fczerinde, gri beton yere..<\/p>\n
Bir doktor g\u00f6rd\u00fc bunu ve \u00fcz\u00fcnt\u00fcyle bakt\u0131 sigaray\u0131 arabas\u0131n\u0131n cam\u0131ndan atan gence..<\/p>\n
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Az evvel hastane binas\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015f az evvel, akci\u011fer kanseri bir hastas\u0131n\u0131 yitirmi\u015fti..<\/p>\n
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Akci\u011ferde kalmam\u0131\u015f bir kanserdi bu..Beyin, kemikler ve neredeyse t\u00fcm v\u00fccuda yay\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n
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\u201c\u00c7ok \u00e7al\u0131\u015fkan bir adamd\u0131\u201d dedi kar\u0131s\u0131 ve ekledi \u201cbir de sigara i\u00e7meseydi\u201d\u2026<\/p>\n
Hen\u00fcz vefat ger\u00e7ekle\u015fmemi\u015fti bu diyalog kuruldu\u011funda.<\/p>\n
Ancak \u00f6l\u00fcm kendini hissettirmeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131..<\/p>\n
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Ve bu diyalogdan iki saat sonra, hasta son nefesini verdi..Akci\u011ferinden h\u0131r\u0131lt\u0131l\u0131 seslerdi en son duydu\u011fu doktorun..<\/p>\n
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Doktor, hen\u00fcz so\u011fumam\u0131\u015f bedenine dokundu, boyundaki ana atardamarda t\u0131k yoktu..<\/p>\n
Bile\u011fine bakt\u0131, evet, art\u0131k kalbi atm\u0131yordu..EKG cihaz\u0131 d\u00fcz \u00e7izgi \u00e7iziyordu..<\/p>\n
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\u00dcz\u00fclmedi doktor, \u00fcz\u00fclmedi yak\u0131nlar\u0131..<\/p>\n
Belki \u00e7ok \u00e7ekmemesi, makinelere mahkum olmamas\u0131 bir nebze yat\u0131\u015ft\u0131rm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 herkesi..<\/p>\n
Ya da \u00f6l\u00fcm yak\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 bu hastal\u0131\u011fa..Ya da bu hastal\u0131\u011fa \u00f6l\u00fcmden ba\u015fka yak\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131lacak bir \u015fey bulunamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131..<\/p>\n
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Ama sigara, gen\u00e7 adam\u0131n arabas\u0131n\u0131n cam\u0131ndan att\u0131\u011f\u0131 ve doktorun ayaklar\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcne d\u00fc\u015fen duman\u0131 \u00fczerinde sigara gitmiyordu g\u00f6zlerinin \u00f6n\u00fcnden..<\/p>\n
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\u0130nsanlar\u0131n neden sigara i\u00e7ti\u011fini hala ama hala \u00e7\u00f6zememi\u015fti..\u00d6l\u00fcm\u00fcn \u00fczerini kaplayan bu gri dumanla nas\u0131l kendilerini \u00f6ld\u00fcrebiliyorlard\u0131 bilmeden b\u00f6ylesine\u2026Bir de yak\u0131nlar\u0131n\u0131 tabii\u2026<\/p>\n
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D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc i\u00e7ten i\u00e7ten doktor..Y\u0131llard\u0131r \u00f6len hastayla birlikte ayn\u0131 odada o sigara duman\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7eken ya\u015fl\u0131 teyzeyi, teyzeye \u201csen de akci\u011ferlerini s\u0131k s\u0131k kontrol ettirmelisin\u201d dedi\u011fini ve babas\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6l\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6rmek isteyip istemedi\u011fini soran hastabak\u0131c\u0131ya, \u201cgerek yok, topla gitsin\u201d diyen o\u011flunu, \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn nas\u0131l ilk defa i\u00e7ini ac\u0131tmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 belki do\u011fal kar\u015f\u0131lad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bu kez..D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u2026\u00c7ok tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir hastayd\u0131, hen\u00fcz yatakl\u0131 servise yeni yat\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 ve \u00f6l\u00fcm h\u0131zl\u0131 gelmi\u015fti bu kez..Uzun d\u00f6nem hastanede yatan hastalar\u0131yla aras\u0131nda farkl\u0131 bir ba\u011f kurulurdu..Ancak bu hastay\u0131 hen\u00fcz tan\u0131yamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 bile..<\/p>\n
Hasta k\u00f6t\u00fcle\u015fmeye ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, e\u015fini odaya \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131p, usulca \u201cher an her \u015feye haz\u0131rl\u0131kl\u0131 olmal\u0131y\u0131z\u201d demi\u015fti ve \u00f6ylesine metin bir \u015fekilde nas\u0131l s\u00f6yledi\u011fine sonra kendisi de \u015fa\u015f\u0131rm\u0131\u015ft\u0131..<\/p>\n
\u201c\u00d6l\u00fcm hakt\u0131r, ve bir g\u00fcn bir \u015fekilde gelecek..Burada, ya da evinizde, bir g\u00fcn ger\u00e7ekle\u015fecekti ve muhtemelen \u015fimdi ger\u00e7ekle\u015fmek \u00fczere..\u00dcz\u00fclmeyin, kanser zaten t\u00fcm bedenine yay\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131, yani bedeni art\u0131k d\u00fcnyadan ayr\u0131lmak isteyen ruhunu ta\u015f\u0131yamayacakt\u0131..\u201d manas\u0131nda bir \u015feyler s\u00f6ylemi\u015fti..<\/p>\n
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Vefat ger\u00e7ekle\u015ftikten sonra da, \u201c\u00c7ekmeden ve \u00e7ektirmeden gitti teyzeci\u011fim. \u2026Aylarca y\u0131llarca makinelere ba\u011fl\u0131 bir \u015fekilde ya\u015famas\u0131 hi\u00e7 kimse i\u00e7in kolay olmayacakt\u0131..Ne mutlu ki \u00e7ok ac\u0131 \u00e7ekmeden gitti\u2026\u201d gibi bir \u015feyler..<\/p>\n
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Merdivenlerden inerken, yan yataktaki hastan\u0131n munis y\u00fczl\u00fc e\u015fini g\u00f6rd\u00fc..<\/p>\n
Elinde k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir Kuran, pencereden a\u015fa\u011f\u0131daki \u00f6len hastan\u0131n yak\u0131nlar\u0131na bakarak, m\u0131r\u0131l m\u0131r\u0131l dua ediyordu..<\/p>\n
Nas\u0131l bir hissiyat i\u00e7indeydi kim bilir. Belki kendi e\u015fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyordu, bir yandan da ona dua ediyordu..\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc yan yataktan giden can, bir g\u00fcn di\u011fer bir yataktan da gidecekti elbet..<\/p>\n
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Bahar serinli\u011fi esti..<\/p>\n
D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceler de mor yapraklar gibi savrulup gitti..<\/p>\n
Mor yaprakl\u0131 sarma\u015f\u0131k biraz daha b\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f ve etrafa biraz daha yapraklar\u0131 sa\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131..<\/p>\n
Hen\u00fcz \u00f6lmemi\u015f olanlar i\u00e7in, b\u00fcy\u00fcleyici bir g\u00f6k, \u00e7i\u00e7eklerin rahatlatan kokusu, yapraklar\u0131n taze ye\u015filli\u011fi vard\u0131 hastanenin d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda..<\/p>\n
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Doktor derin bir nefes ald\u0131..Bir ka\u00e7 \u00e7i\u00e7ek yapra\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ald\u0131 eline..Dalda as\u0131l\u0131 olanlar\u0131n resmini \u00e7ekti ve yere d\u00fc\u015fenlerin de\u2026<\/p>\n
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Ve hayat, her \u015feye ra\u011fmen, her \u015feyle birlikte devam etti..<\/p>\n
Doktor da \u00e7i\u00e7ekli sarma\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n alt\u0131nda biraz daha vakit ge\u00e7irip evine gitti.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
17.05.2009 B\u0130R S\u0130GARA D\u00dc\u015eT\u00dc YERE, duman\u0131 \u00fczerinde, gri beton yere.. Bir doktor g\u00f6rd\u00fc bunu ve \u00fcz\u00fcnt\u00fcyle bakt\u0131 sigaray\u0131 arabas\u0131n\u0131n cam\u0131ndan atan gence.. Az evvel hastane binas\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015f az evvel, akci\u011fer kanseri bir hastas\u0131n\u0131 yitirmi\u015fti.. Akci\u011ferde kalmam\u0131\u015f bir kanserdi bu..Beyin, kemikler ve neredeyse t\u00fcm v\u00fccuda yay\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u201c\u00c7ok \u00e7al\u0131\u015fkan bir adamd\u0131\u201d dedi kar\u0131s\u0131 ve ekledi \u201cbir de […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":18,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[9],"tags":[],"ppma_author":[166],"class_list":["post-88875","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-yazarlar"],"yoast_head":"\n