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BU YAZININ bu beyaz sayfadaki varl\u0131\u011f\u0131 dahi, yaz\u0131da \u00f6ne s\u00fcr\u00fclen iddian\u0131n b\u00fcrhan\u0131d\u0131r: Kara g\u00fczeldir. \u0130\u015fte g\u00f6zleriniz \u015fimdi bu sayfada \u015fu kara sat\u0131rlar\u0131n hat\u0131r\u0131 i\u00e7in geziniyor olmal\u0131. G\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fcn hakikate olan ihtiyac\u0131 bu sayfan\u0131n beyazl\u0131\u011f\u0131na raz\u0131 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7indir ki, her birimiz kendimize bu kara lekeler boyu bir ayd\u0131nl\u0131k ve ak\u2019l\u0131k ar\u0131yoruz. Her harf, asl\u0131nda bir kalem karas\u0131 de\u011fil, bir g\u00f6n\u00fcl karas\u0131d\u0131r… Her harf birer kara delik gibi, g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc bo\u015f beyazl\u0131klardan \u00e7ekip, d\u0131\u015far\u0131dan i\u00e7eriye, \u00e2faktan enf\u00fcse do\u011fru uzanan ince bir hesap \u00e7izgisinin keskinli\u011fine vurur nefsimizi. Her sat\u0131r\u0131 bir s\u0131rat bilip y\u00fcr\u00fcyoruz ve \u00f6ylece okuyoruz. Koyu renkli m\u00fcrekkep lekeleri, g\u00fcndelik tela\u015flar\u0131n s\u0131\u011fla\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131, heyecans\u0131z d\u00fcnyam\u0131z\u0131n \u00fczerine kuzgun\u00ee bir perde gibi a\u011f\u0131r a\u011f\u0131r, \u00e7o\u011falarak, koyula\u015farak indik\u00e7e, gerilerde ve i\u00e7erilerde, \u00e7o\u011fu kez h\u00fcz\u00fcnl\u00fc yaln\u0131zl\u0131k anlar\u0131na ve karanl\u0131k gece saatlerine saklad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z m\u00fcphem g\u00f6lgeler aras\u0131na ineriz. <\/p>\n
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Nice zamand\u0131r b\u00f6yle oldu. Ak sayfalardaki kargac\u0131k burgac\u0131k kara lekelerle yolumuzu ayd\u0131nlatmaya, aln\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 ak etmeye \u00e7abalad\u0131k durduk. G\u00f6zlerimizin bo\u015f ve geni\u015f beyazl\u0131klara raz\u0131 olmay\u0131p, bir k\u00f6\u015fede k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck de olsa bir karalama aramas\u0131, g\u00f6rd\u00fcklerine raz\u0131 olmamas\u0131d\u0131r; g\u00f6rd\u00fcklerinin g\u00f6sterdiklerini g\u00f6rmek istemesindendir. Yaz\u0131 bize, g\u00f6rd\u00fcklerimizin \u00f6tesini g\u00f6rmeyi \u00f6\u011fretir. Hal b\u00f6yle olunca, bu karal\u0131klar nice beyaz \u0131\u015f\u0131klar\u0131 g\u00f6lgede b\u0131rak\u0131r; sadece e\u015fyan\u0131n kendisini de\u011fil, e\u015fyan\u0131n i\u015faret etti\u011fini, ayine oldu\u011funu da g\u00f6sterir. \u00d6yle ki, e\u015fyay\u0131 da yaz\u0131n\u0131n birimi olan \u2018harf\u2019 ile tarif etti\u011fimiz olur. Yani, mahl\u00fbkat ve masnuat, t\u0131pk\u0131 birer harf gibi, kendisinden \u00e7ok, ba\u015fkas\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6sterir. <\/p>\n
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\u0130\u015fte yaz\u0131 da b\u00f6ylece g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fcn kara \u0131\u015f\u0131lda\u011f\u0131 olur. Bir beyaz sayfan\u0131n orta yerinde, ger\u00e7e\u011fin rengine \u00e2\u015fina bir kara g\u00f6zbebe\u011fidir. Yaz\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcze benzerli\u011fi de bu s\u0131rda sakl\u0131d\u0131r. Zira, g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz de beyaz\u0131n\u0131n ortas\u0131ndaki karas\u0131yla g\u00f6r\u00fcr. <\/p>\n
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Nur m\u00fcellifi, \u201cG\u00f6z\u00fcnde bir neh\u00e2r var,\u201d diye haber verir. L\u00e2kin, bu g\u00fcnd\u00fcz beyaz ve karanl\u0131kt\u0131r. G\u00f6z\u00fcn ayd\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131, ne garip ki, karas\u0131nda sakl\u0131d\u0131r. Beyaz\u0131 k\u00f6rd\u00fcr; karas\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcr. Karas\u0131nda, nurlanm\u0131\u015f bir gece sakl\u0131d\u0131r. Ak k\u00e2\u011f\u0131t par\u00e7alar\u0131n\u0131n, \u00fczerindeki karalamalarla mektuba ve kitaba d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fmesi, g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fcn nuru olmas\u0131 da b\u00f6yledir. Yaz\u0131, t\u0131pk\u0131 g\u00f6zbebe\u011fi gibi, \u201cm\u00fcb\u00e2rek, h\u00e2lis kalemlerden akan siyah nur\u201d h\u00fckm\u00fcndedir. Okumak, bu a\u00e7\u0131dan bak\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, iki karan\u0131n, g\u00f6z\u00fcn karas\u0131yla k\u00e2\u011f\u0131d\u0131n karas\u0131n\u0131n bulu\u015fmas\u0131d\u0131r; iki g\u00f6zbebe\u011finin bak\u0131\u015fmas\u0131 ve birbiri i\u00e7inde derinle\u015fmesidir. <\/p>\n
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\u201cOku!\u201d emrinde de \u00f6ylesi kara s\u0131rlar sakl\u0131 olmal\u0131 ki, ilk olarak H\u00eera\u2019n\u0131n karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, \u00fcmm\u00eeli\u011fi ile d\u00fcnyan\u0131n d\u00fcnyev\u00eeli\u011fini karanl\u0131kta b\u0131rakan z\u00e2ta (asm) geldi. Res\u00fbl-i Ekrem (asm) sanki ba\u015fkalar\u0131n\u0131n zulmetli g\u00fcnd\u00fcz\u00fcne s\u0131rt\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6n\u00fcp, okuman\u0131n s\u0131rr\u0131n\u0131 inziva halinin nurlu karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7inde arad\u0131 ve buldu. \u00d6ylece arz\u0131n ve sem\u00e2v\u00e2t\u0131n g\u00f6zbebe\u011fi oldu. Ve bize Regaib, Berat, Mi\u2019rac ve Kadir gibi nurlu geceleri hediye getirdi. Ve \u00f6ylece nice geceleri zulmetli g\u00fcnd\u00fczlerimizin ortas\u0131nda sem\u00e2ya bakan kara g\u00f6zbebeklerine \u00e7evirdi. <\/p>\n
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Ger\u00e7ekten de, insan g\u00f6z\u00fc, g\u00fcnd\u00fczleri, sem\u00e2ya k\u00f6rd\u00fcr. Tek bir y\u0131ld\u0131z\u0131n beyaz oklar\u0131n\u0131n ucunda, d\u00fcnya b\u00fct\u00fcn derinli\u011fi, ayr\u0131nt\u0131s\u0131yla ve cezbe odaklar\u0131yla bi\u00e7imlenip, renkler giyerek k\u0131yama durur, nazar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 kendi \u00fczerine kilitler. Di\u011fer y\u0131ld\u0131zlar\u0131 bir beyaz perdenin ard\u0131nda gizlenir; g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fczde sem\u00e2v\u00e2t derinli\u011fini yitirir. Bir k\u0131z\u0131l \u015fafak i\u00e7in, nice y\u0131ld\u0131z\u0131n kan\u0131 ak\u0131t\u0131l\u0131r. Oysa, k\u00e2inatta aslolan gece ve karanl\u0131kt\u0131r. \u201cG\u00fcnd\u00fcz\u201d dedi\u011fimiz hal, olsa olsa, g\u00fcne\u015f diye bir y\u0131ld\u0131za yak\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131n ad\u0131d\u0131r. D\u00fcnyan\u0131n g\u00fcne\u015fe uzak d\u00fc\u015fen y\u00fcz\u00fc, sem\u00e2ya daha yak\u0131n gibi durur. Gece ve karanl\u0131k, g\u00f6klerin e\u015fi\u011fi gibi gelir bana nedense.<\/p>\n
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\u00d6yle ki, g\u00fcn ak\u015fama eri\u015fti\u011finde, karanl\u0131k \u00e2lemi, g\u00fcnd\u00fcz\u00fcn b\u00fct\u00fcn izlerini siler; d\u00fcnya albenisiz bir \u201csiyah kefen\u201de b\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fcr. G\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc ve d\u00fcnyam\u0131z\u0131 kaplayan siyah gece, en son giyinece\u011fimiz beyaz kefen gibi, bizi d\u00fcnyan\u0131n ard\u0131na, hayat\u0131n \u00f6te y\u00fcz\u00fcne, gayba ve hakikate davet eder. \u00d6ylece leyl\u00e2m\u0131z olan g\u00fcnd\u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fcz, siyah \u00e7ar\u015faf\u0131 i\u00e7inde leyl\u2019imiz olur. Leyl\u2019imiz, leyl\u00e2m\u0131z gibi aldatmaz ve oyalamaz; Mevl\u00e2ya giden yol olur. <\/p>\n
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Hayat\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n tek nurlu karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 gece de\u011fildir l\u00e2kin. D\u00fcnyam\u0131z\u0131 karartan musibetler ve fel\u00e2ketler, hayat\u0131n tekd\u00fcze g\u00fcnd\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc delen, aya\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n alt\u0131ndaki buzlar\u0131 k\u0131ran nurlu geceler gibidir. Her musibet \u00e2n\u0131, p\u00fcr\u00fczs\u00fczce s\u00fcr\u00fcp giden hayat\u0131n \u015fa\u015faas\u0131 ortas\u0131nda, hakikati kalbimize ay\u00e2n eden bir kara g\u00f6zbebe\u011fi gibi durur. Nitekim, Y\u00fbsuf Aleyhissel\u00e2m, nurlu dersini iki karanl\u0131ktan, kuyudan ve zindandan, ge\u00e7erek anlat\u0131r. Y\u00fbnus Aleyhissel\u00e2m\u0131n dersi ise, \u00fc\u00e7 karanl\u0131k i\u00e7inden \u00e7\u0131kagelir: gece, deniz ve bal\u0131k. Asl\u0131nda, bunca zulmetler i\u00e7inde, hayat\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n par\u0131lt\u0131l\u0131, beyaz g\u00fcnd\u00fczleri i\u00e7inde k\u00f6r kald\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z as\u0131l karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6rme dersini verir peygamberler: Musibetin zulmeti, onlara nefsin zulm\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6sterir. Y\u00fbsuf Aleyhissel\u00e2m, \u201cMuhakkak ki nefsim emm\u00e2redir,\u201d diyerek, Rah\u00eem olan Rabbini bulur. Y\u00fbnus Aleyhissel\u00e2m, \u201cMuhakkak ki ben zulmedenlerden oldum\u201d der; Rabbini kusur ve noksandan tenzih eder, bir k\u00fcll\u00ee tesbih ve takdis dersi verir. \u00d6ylece bizi de Rah\u00eem ve Ad\u00eel olan Rabbimizin tecellig\u00e2h\u0131 olan bir b\u00fcy\u00fck sabaha eri\u015ftirirler. Demek, bizim en derin gecemiz, nefsimizi ak bilmemizdir. <\/p>\n
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Zaten, nefsimizi zul\u00fcml\u00fc ve zul\u00fcm\u00e2tl\u0131 bildi\u011fimizde, hayat\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fcnde nurlu bir siyahl\u0131k peyda olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 haber verir Nur m\u00fcellifi. Yoksa, hayat-\u0131 d\u00fcnyeviyenin beyaz, \u015fa\u015faal\u0131 g\u00fcnd\u00fcz\u00fc, o hayat g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fcn nursuz beyaz\u0131d\u0131r ki, ileriyi, \u00f6teyi g\u00f6rmez; bize ebed\u00ee karanl\u0131klara koyar. <\/p>\n
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\u00d6yleyse Senai, senin g\u00f6z\u00fcn kara olmal\u0131. Sabaha eri\u015fmek i\u00e7in g\u00fcne\u015fi beklemeye ne h\u00e2cet! Nefsinin zulmetini g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde ba\u015flar senin fecr-i s\u00e2d\u0131k\u0131n. Hi\u00e7bir g\u00f6zkapa\u011f\u0131n\u0131n perdeleyemedi\u011fi bir ak sabaha uyan\u0131rs\u0131n \u00f6ylece. Bir sabah ki, gecenin de\u011fil, kalbin karas\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131kar.<\/p>\n
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Bir uyan\u0131\u015f ki, nefsinin zulm\u00fcn\u00fc kendine g\u00fcne\u015f eyler. De\u011fil mi ki sen nefsini aklamak u\u011fruna nice g\u00fcne\u015flerin \u00f6n\u00fcne durdun da nice gecelerce y\u00fcz\u00fcne g\u00fcn de\u011fmedi… \u015eimdi bu kara yaz\u0131 aklar m\u0131 seni?<\/p>\n
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10.05.2004 BU YAZININ bu beyaz sayfadaki varl\u0131\u011f\u0131 dahi, yaz\u0131da \u00f6ne s\u00fcr\u00fclen iddian\u0131n b\u00fcrhan\u0131d\u0131r: Kara g\u00fczeldir. \u0130\u015fte g\u00f6zleriniz \u015fimdi bu sayfada \u015fu kara sat\u0131rlar\u0131n hat\u0131r\u0131 i\u00e7in geziniyor olmal\u0131. G\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fcn hakikate olan ihtiyac\u0131 bu sayfan\u0131n beyazl\u0131\u011f\u0131na raz\u0131 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7indir ki, her birimiz kendimize bu kara lekeler boyu bir ayd\u0131nl\u0131k ve ak\u2019l\u0131k ar\u0131yoruz. Her harf, asl\u0131nda bir kalem […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":7,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[9],"tags":[],"ppma_author":[144],"class_list":["post-87939","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-yazarlar"],"yoast_head":"\n