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SEVG\u0130L\u0130 ZAMANE, Belki hi\u00e7 hat\u0131rlatan olmad\u0131 sana, belki bilgisayar oyunlar\u0131n\u0131n karma\u015f\u0131k men\u00fclerinde yer almad\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in hi\u00e7 duymad\u0131n. A\u00e7 g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc hele, sana \u201cs\u0131la-y\u0131 rah\u00eem\u201di anlatmaya geldim. Merak etme, zaman\u0131n\u0131 almayacak bu s\u00f6zc\u00fck. Seni \u00f6yle s\u00f6zel say\u0131sal tela\u015flara da ko\u015fturmayacak. S\u00f6zl\u00fcde yahut yaz\u0131l\u0131da sorulmayacak. Hayat\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7oktan se\u00e7meli tercihlerin k\u0131vr\u0131m\u0131nlar\u0131na s\u0131k\u0131\u015ft\u0131ranlar\u0131n da unuttu(rdu)\u011fu \u201cs\u0131la-y\u0131 rah\u00eem\u201d, sana arad\u0131\u011f\u0131n mutlulu\u011fu bulduracak.<\/p>\n
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\u00dcstelik \u00f6yk\u00fc de anlat\u0131yorum, bak: \u0130ki saka, yani sucu, yolda kar\u015f\u0131la\u015f\u0131rlar. Biri di\u011ferine,\u201cKarde\u015f, bana k\u0131rbandan bir tas su verir misin? \u00c7ok susad\u0131m\u201d der. \u00d6teki \u015fa\u015f\u0131r\u0131r; \u201cBe \u015fa\u015fk\u0131n. Bende k\u0131rba varsa sende de k\u0131rba var. Neden kendi k\u0131rbandan doldurup kendi suyunu i\u00e7miyorsun?\u201d Cevap dikkat \u00e7ekicidir; \u201cHakl\u0131s\u0131n karde\u015f, bende de su var sendeki gibi ama ben kendi suyumu i\u00e7mekten b\u0131kt\u0131m.\u201d<\/p>\n
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Hangi kalp su bill\u00fbrlu\u011funu bile pusta b\u0131rakan bu serin \u00e7a\u011fr\u0131ya duyars\u0131z kalabilir ki? Hangi vicdan, i\u00e7inde biriktirdi\u011fi hasret p\u0131nar\u0131n\u0131 duda\u011f\u0131ndan dupduru d\u00f6k\u00fcveren bu dostu kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131ks\u0131z b\u0131rak\u0131r ki? Sorun su i\u00e7mek de\u011fil; birinin elinden su i\u00e7mektir asl\u0131nda. Birinin elinden su i\u00e7erken, duda\u011f\u0131na sudan fazlas\u0131 dokunur. Sevdi\u011finin elinde terleyen kadehi duda\u011f\u0131na g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcrken, dama\u011f\u0131na su yerine a\u015fk d\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcr; bo\u011faz\u0131nda sevdan\u0131n en tatl\u0131s\u0131 d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmlenir, i\u00e7ine muhabbetin denizi ta\u015far.<\/p>\n
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\u00d6yle de\u011fil mi? Rahmetle vuslat kurmak, merhamete dokunmak demek \u201cs\u0131la-y\u0131 rah\u00eem\u201d. Merhamete dokunman\u0131n yolu anababay\u0131, akrabay\u0131, yetimi \u00f6ks\u00fcz\u00fc, yolda kalm\u0131\u015f\u0131, fakir fukaray\u0131 g\u00f6zetmekten ge\u00e7er. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc, onlar\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmez, i\u00e7inden bir par\u00e7a kopar, benli\u011finden bir tu\u011fla d\u00fc\u015fer, bencilli\u011finin kabu\u011fu \u00e7atlar, kendinden bir \u015fey eksilir gibi olur. \u00d6yle vurdumduymaz, \u00f6yle s\u0131cak ve yumu\u015fac\u0131k ak\u0131p gitmez hayat\u0131n. Onlar\u0131 dert edinmeyerek, kendinden uzakta tuttu\u011fun \u015fey her ne ise, seni i\u00e7indeki merhametten de uzak tutuyor olmal\u0131… Yan\u0131na usulca sokulan bir dilenci, seni niye rahats\u0131z eder ki?<\/p>\n
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Sende olup senin de uyutup unuttu\u011fun merhameti hat\u0131rlat\u0131r sana. Seni sana \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131r dilenci. Kendi i\u00e7inde susturdu\u011fun merhametin sesini ta\u015f\u0131r kulaklar\u0131na.. Bir de \u015funu oku: \u0130kinci D\u00fcnya Sava\u015f\u0131 s\u0131ras\u0131nda, Ruslar ve Almanlar Stalingrad\u2019da \u00e7arp\u0131\u015fmaktad\u0131r. Mikhail Goldstein y\u0131lba\u015f\u0131 gecesi moral olsun diye Rus askerlerine tek ki\u015filik bir keman konseri verir. Melodiler hop\u00f6rler yoluyla Alman askerlerinin siperlerine kadar ula\u015f\u0131r, ate\u015f birden kesilir. O acayip sessizli\u011fe, Goldstein\u2019\u0131n yay\u0131ndan akan m\u00fczik h\u00fckmeder. Bitirdi\u011finde, Rus askerleri \u00fczerine derin bir sessizlik \u00e7\u00f6ker. B\u00fcy\u00fcy\u00fc, Alman b\u00f6lgesindeki h\u00f6parl\u00f6rden gelen bir ses bozar. K\u0131r\u0131k d\u00f6k\u00fck bir Rus\u00e7ayla \u015funu rica eder Alman subay\u0131: \u201cBiraz daha Bach \u00e7al\u0131n. Ate\u015f a\u00e7mayaca\u011f\u0131z!\u201d William Craig\u2019in Enemy at the Gates kitab\u0131ndan bu anektodu al\u0131nt\u0131layan Slavo\u00e7 \u017di\u017eek, b\u00f6ylesi haller i\u00e7in \u201ck\u0131r\u0131lgan temas\u201d tabirini kullan\u0131yor. (Bk. K\u0131r\u0131lgan Temas, Slavo\u00e7 \u017di\u017eek, Metis Yay\u0131nlar\u0131)<\/p>\n
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\u00c7ok ho\u015fuma gitti bu tabir! \u201cHah, i\u015fte bu!\u201d dedim… M\u00fczikten az \u00f6nce \u2013ve ne yaz\u0131k ki, m\u00fczikten hemen sonra da!-birbirlerine kur\u015fun ya\u011fd\u0131ran askerler o anda, d\u0131\u015flar\u0131nda olup biten sava\u015f halini k\u0131ran bir \u015feyi farketmi\u015flerdi. \u0130\u00e7lerinde k\u0131r\u0131lgan olan \u015feyle temaslar\u0131n\u0131 sa\u011flayan bir deneyimdi bu. O k\u0131r\u0131lgan \u015fey, elleri tetikteyken unuttuklar\u0131 merhametleri olmalar\u0131yd\u0131. Sucunun bir ba\u015fkas\u0131n\u0131n elinden su i\u00e7mek isterken pe\u015fine d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u011f\u00fc o tatl\u0131 serinlik gibi.<\/p>\n
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Aram\u0131zdaki farkl\u0131l\u0131klara, hatta d\u00fc\u015fmanl\u0131klara ra\u011fmen, \u00f6teki ile ayn\u0131 olan yan\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 arar buluruz b\u00f6yle zamanlarda. K\u0131r\u0131lgan merhametimizle temas\u0131m\u0131z ba\u015flar. \u0130\u00e7inde kendin olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n, i\u00e7ine kalbini koyamad\u0131\u011f\u0131n mekanlar aras\u0131nda gidip gelirken, birden, ayak alt\u0131nda s\u00fcr\u00fcnd\u00fcrd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn, tela\u015fla paspas\u0131n alt\u0131na saklad\u0131\u011f\u0131n o yan\u0131n\u0131, k\u0131r\u0131lgan temas noktan\u0131 farkedersin. \u0130\u00e7inde ak\u0131p duran ama bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc y\u0131kanamad\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u015fefkat \u0131rma\u011f\u0131n\u0131n k\u0131y\u0131s\u0131nda bulursun kendini. \u015ea\u015f\u0131r\u0131rs\u0131n! O kadar \u015fa\u015f\u0131r\u0131rs\u0131n ki, \u015fa\u015f\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131na \u015fa\u015f\u0131r\u0131rs\u0131n! <\/p>\n
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Sanki i\u00e7inde bir ba\u015fkas\u0131n\u0131n pla\u011f\u0131n\u0131 (CD mi demeliydim?) \u00e7al\u0131yorsun. Sana g\u00f6re formatlanmam\u0131\u015f, senin komutlar\u0131n\u0131 tan\u0131mayan bir program konuluyor kalbinin hard-diskine. Sen, kazanc\u0131n\u0131 da, kayb\u0131n\u0131 da, tu\u015flar \u00fczerinden kurgulanm\u0131\u015f y\u00f6nlendirmelere d\u00fc\u011fmelemi\u015fsin. Ekranda elektronlar oynuyor asl\u0131nda, ne sen gol at\u0131yorsun, ne de adam kurtar\u0131yor ya da \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcyorsun. Sana \u00f6yle g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyor sadece… Joy-stick\u2019le sen mi oynuyorsun, yoksa joy-stick seni mi oynat\u0131yor?<\/p>\n
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Mutlulu\u011funu kendinin d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda, kendine uzak noktalar \u00fczerinden tan\u0131mlaman\u0131 isteyenlere s\u00f6yleyece\u011fin bir \u015fey olmal\u0131 sevgili zamane! Sahici olman i\u00e7in i\u00e7indeki o k\u0131r\u0131lgan temas\u0131 bulman\u0131 umuyorum. Mouse\u2019unu avucuna al\u0131r gibi avu\u00e7la \u015fimdi kalbini..<\/p>\n
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Sol t\u0131kla!<\/p>\n
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24.10.2011 SEVG\u0130L\u0130 ZAMANE, Belki hi\u00e7 hat\u0131rlatan olmad\u0131 sana, belki bilgisayar oyunlar\u0131n\u0131n karma\u015f\u0131k men\u00fclerinde yer almad\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in hi\u00e7 duymad\u0131n. A\u00e7 g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc hele, sana \u201cs\u0131la-y\u0131 rah\u00eem\u201di anlatmaya geldim. Merak etme, zaman\u0131n\u0131 almayacak bu s\u00f6zc\u00fck. Seni \u00f6yle s\u00f6zel say\u0131sal tela\u015flara da ko\u015fturmayacak. S\u00f6zl\u00fcde yahut yaz\u0131l\u0131da sorulmayacak. Hayat\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7oktan se\u00e7meli tercihlerin k\u0131vr\u0131m\u0131nlar\u0131na s\u0131k\u0131\u015ft\u0131ranlar\u0131n da unuttu(rdu)\u011fu \u201cs\u0131la-y\u0131 rah\u00eem\u201d, sana arad\u0131\u011f\u0131n […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":7,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[9],"tags":[],"ppma_author":[144],"class_list":["post-87802","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-yazarlar"],"yoast_head":"\n