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YIL 1991. Ankara Kocatepe Kitap Fuar\u0131\u2019ndaki \u0130z Yay\u0131nc\u0131l\u0131k stand\u0131na yana\u015f\u0131r adam\u0131n biri. \u00dcnl\u00fcd\u00fcr. \u00d6zellikle soyad\u0131yla bir devrin zulm\u00fcn\u00fc hat\u0131rlat\u0131r. Ve milletin vicdan\u0131na g\u00f6md\u00fc\u011f\u00fc derin ac\u0131n\u0131n mezar ta\u015f\u0131 gibi y\u00fcr\u00fcr aram\u0131zda: \u201cSon Menderes\u201d. <\/p>\n
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Soyad\u0131n\u0131n getirdi\u011fi itibara yaslanmay\u0131 reddetti. Mazlumluktan prim dev\u015firmedi. Hakk\u0131yd\u0131 da bu. Bedelini \u00f6demi\u015fti. Devletinden adalet beklerken, bir eyl\u00fcl ak\u015fam\u0131 dallar\u0131 k\u0131r\u0131l\u0131p, yapraklar\u0131 a\u011f\u0131r bir hazan r\u00fczg\u00e2r\u0131na kap\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131nda sadece 14 ya\u015f\u0131ndayd\u0131. \u201c\u2026g\u00fczel, ipekten yumu\u015fak, veli miza\u00e7l\u0131, hizmet dervi\u015fi\u201d bir baba alacakl\u0131yd\u0131 milletinden. Milletin sel\u00e2meti u\u011fruna, ezan\u0131n yeniden seslendirilmesi hat\u0131r\u0131na, yetimli\u011fini kutsal bir emanet gibi ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131 y\u00fcre\u011finde. Devletinden nefret etmeye hakk\u0131 vard\u0131. O g\u00fcnlerde-ve yaz\u0131k ki bug\u00fcnlerde de- en g\u00fcvenilir san\u0131lan kurumlara isyan bayra\u011f\u0131 a\u00e7abilirdi.<\/p>\n
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Bildiklerini s\u00f6ylese, hissettiklerini a\u00e7\u0131k etse, onca iktidar kulesini y\u0131kabilir, zalim muteberleri rezil edebilirdi.<\/p>\n
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Sustu. Az konu\u015ftu. \u00c7ok okudu.<\/p>\n
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Okumak i\u00e7in uzatt\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 kitap stand\u0131ndan i\u00e7eri.<\/p>\n
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Fuara geldi g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcs\u00fc vermek umurunda de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n
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Soruyordu.<\/p>\n
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Mesel\u00e2 bir hadis k\u00fclliyat\u0131n\u0131n 6. cildinin \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p \u00e7\u0131kmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 soruyordu.<\/p>\n
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\u201cFalanca terc\u00fcmenin yeni bask\u0131s\u0131 yap\u0131ld\u0131 m\u0131?\u201d Yar\u0131m saatten fazla k\u00e2h ayakta k\u00e2h oturarak inceledi kitaplar\u0131.<\/p>\n
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G\u00f6zlerinde ciddi sorgulamalarla geziniyordu sayfalar aras\u0131nda. Elindeki listeyi kontrol edip fuar\u0131n di\u011fer stantlar\u0131na do\u011fru y\u00f6neldi.<\/p>\n
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[Bu \u00f6zel hat\u0131ras\u0131n\u0131 payla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in karde\u015fim dostum Muhammed \u00d6zdemir\u2019e te\u015fekk\u00fcrler.]<\/p>\n
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Yukar\u0131daki foto\u011fraf 14 ya\u015f\u0131nda onurlu bir delikanl\u0131n\u0131n babas\u0131ndan kopar\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131, belki de utand\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131 an\u2019\u0131 yans\u0131t\u0131yor. Utana s\u0131k\u0131la ayakta duran o \u201cdelikanl\u0131\u201dn\u0131n g\u00f6zlerinin bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 yer bir \u00f6m\u00fcr bo\u015fluk oldu. Babas\u0131zl\u0131k oldu. A\u011fabeysizlik oldu. Annesizlik oldu.<\/p>\n
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H\u00fcrriyetimiz ad\u0131na bedellerin en a\u011f\u0131r\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6deyen o delikanl\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fcne girmek i\u00e7in son f\u0131rsat\u0131m\u0131z bug\u00fcn ve yar\u0131n. Bizim utanmayal\u0131m diye utan\u0131yor Ayd\u0131n o foto\u011frafta. Biz a\u011flamayal\u0131m diye di\u015flerini s\u0131k\u0131yor. Biz \u00fcz\u00fclmeyelim diye susuyor. \u0130\u00e7indeki ukdeyi biz mahcup olmayal\u0131m diye onca y\u0131ld\u0131r \u00e7\u00f6zmeden sakl\u0131yor: \u201c\u0130\u00e7imde bir ukde olarak kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r. \u0130ki dakikac\u0131k bile komutan bizi yaln\u0131z b\u0131rakmad\u0131, do\u011fru d\u00fcr\u00fcst bir vedala\u015fma imk\u00e2n\u0131 bulamad\u0131k. \u0130\u00e7imizde kalan, s\u00f6ylemek istediklerimiz vard\u0131 ama s\u0131ra gelmedi.\u201d<\/p>\n
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S\u00f6ylemek istedikleri vard\u0131. Hayk\u0131rabilirdi isterse, hep sustu. Vatan\u0131n\u0131n itibar\u0131na zarar gelmesin diye. Milletin y\u00fcre\u011fine kin ve nefret d\u00fc\u015fmesin diye. Kin ve nefrete kar\u015f\u0131, kin ve nefret \u00fcretmekten hep ka\u00e7\u0131nd\u0131. Dedi\u011fi gibi, \u201cs\u0131ra gelmedi.\u201d S\u0131ras\u0131 olmad\u0131 hi\u00e7. Babas\u0131n\u0131n kan\u0131n\u0131 yerde b\u0131rakt\u0131 ama can\u0131yla s\u00f6yledi\u011fi son s\u00f6zlerinin ard\u0131ndan durdu canla ba\u015fla: \u201cKat’iyyen mu\u011fber de\u011filim, hi\u00e7bir i\u011fbirar duymuyorum.\u201d (Mu\u011fber, g\u00fccenmi\u015f demek. Merhum Menderes Osmanl\u0131ca konu\u015furdu.)<\/p>\n
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Ne ilk ne de son Menderes bir r\u00f6van\u015f ve misilleme duygusu bar\u0131nd\u0131rd\u0131 y\u00fcre\u011finde. Kendilerine yap\u0131lan haks\u0131zl\u0131k \u00fczerinden yeni bir haks\u0131zl\u0131k \u00fcretmek, asl\u0131nda zalimleri hakl\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131rd\u0131. Her t\u00fcrl\u00fc misilleme d\u00fc\u015fman\u0131n\u0131 kendine \u00f6\u011fretmen yapmak demekti. O foto\u011fraf\u0131n ma\u011frur komutan\u0131 gibi olmaya kalkmad\u0131 hi\u00e7bir Menderes. Her kimse o komutan gururun kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 Hesap G\u00fcn\u00fc geldi\u011finde kendi aynas\u0131nda nas\u0131lsa kendi g\u00f6zleriyle g\u00f6recekti nas\u0131lsa.<\/p>\n
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Son Menderes, foto\u011fraftaki o mahcup \u00e7ocuk, i\u00e7indekileri susturan o mahzun delikanl\u0131, o foto\u011frafta kalan sevdiklerinin her birinin ac\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131 y\u00fcre\u011finde. Her d\u00f6nem bir ac\u0131yla sars\u0131ld\u0131. O ac\u0131lar\u0131 biz bir kenara b\u0131rakt\u0131k; ta\u015f\u0131yamad\u0131k, ama o tek ba\u015f\u0131na omuzland\u0131. Biz unuttuk o hep hat\u0131rlad\u0131. Her defas\u0131nda azalan ailenin \u00e7o\u011falan h\u00fczn\u00fc Ayd\u0131n\u2019\u0131n omuzlar\u0131nda kald\u0131. \u00d6nce \u201cipekten yumu\u015fak\u201d baba gitti. Hem de nas\u0131l? \u201c\u2026sanki, bir el g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcsleri yarm\u0131\u015f, ci\u011ferlerini oradan koparm\u0131\u015f\u00e7as\u0131na, belki daha b\u00fcy\u00fck bir ac\u0131\u2026\u201d Sonra Y\u00fcksel gitti. (Y\u0131l 1972; intihar etti diyorlar, acaba?) Sonra Mutlu a\u011fabeyi veda etti. (1978, trafik kazas\u0131 (m\u0131?)) 1991\u2019de ise, h\u00fczn\u00fcn\u00fc suskunluk zarf\u0131na beleyen o asil kad\u0131n, hepimiz ad\u0131na \u201ckad\u0131n\u201d olarak sanc\u0131yan, \u201canne\u201d olarak i\u00e7ine a\u011flayan Berin Han\u0131m veda etti Ayd\u0131n\u2019a.<\/p>\n
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Son y\u0131llar\u0131nda yatalak olan annesinin her dakikas\u0131nda yan\u0131nda oldu Ayd\u0131n Menderes. \u00d6yle ki, bir yere gidecek olsa, \u201cAnneci\u011fim \u015furaday\u0131m, \u015fu saatte \u00e7\u0131kaca\u011f\u0131m, \u015fu vakitte yan\u0131nda olaca\u011f\u0131m\u201d diye dakika dakika hesap verirdi. Belli ki anne duas\u0131 almay\u0131 kurtulu\u015fu biliyordu. Ezan\u0131 u\u011fruna can vermekle \u015fereflenen rahmetli babas\u0131n\u0131n hat\u0131r\u0131n\u0131 sayd\u0131\u011f\u0131 Rahmet El\u00e7isi\u2019nin [asm] m\u00fcjdesini umuyordu. O\u2019nun [asm] \u201ckime iyilik edeyim?\u201d diye soran sahabesine \u201cannene, annene, annene\u2026\u201d diyerek \u00fc\u00e7 kez i\u015faret etti\u011fi muhte\u015fem iyilik yolunu sessizce ad\u0131ml\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n
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Ne Berin Han\u0131m ne Y\u00fcksel ne Mutlu ne Ayd\u0131n kalbimizin ba\u015fk\u00f6\u015fesinde a\u011f\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z Adnan Menderes hat\u0131ras\u0131na halel getirecek bir \u015fey yapt\u0131. Sustular sadece. Beklediler. Bize iyiliklerin en g\u00fczelini en sessizini yapt\u0131lar. \u0130yili\u011fin en zorunu ba\u015fard\u0131lar. Tarihin \u201cMenderes\u201d sayfas\u0131, Hasan [ra] ve H\u00fcseyin [ra] gibi, ahiret saltanat\u0131 ad\u0131na d\u00fcnya saltanat\u0131ndan vazge\u00e7i\u015fin buruk ama asilce kapand\u0131.<\/p>\n
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\u015eimdi bizi bekliyor Ayd\u0131n Menderes\u2026 Bizi bekliyor Berin Menderes\u2026 Bizi bekliyor Adnan Menderes\u2026<\/p>\n
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O foto\u011frafa ma\u011frurca giren talihsiz komutan\u0131n mezar\u0131 ne kadar yaln\u0131zsa, o kadar kalabal\u0131k olacak Son Menderes\u2019in cenazesi. Delikanl\u0131lar\u0131n elini kolu ba\u011flayan, bir han\u0131mefendiyi, bir \u201cana\u201dy\u0131 i\u00e7ine do\u011fru a\u011flatan Yass\u0131ada\u2019n\u0131n o zul\u00fcm odas\u0131na hep beraber y\u00fcr\u00fcyece\u011fiz. O delikanl\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6zlerinin bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 yerde \u00e7ok olaca\u011f\u0131z, \u00e7ok\u2026<\/p>\n
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Okunan ezanlar\u0131n her hecesince rahmet eyleye Rabbimiz Menderes\u2019e ve ailesine\u2026<\/p>\n
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El Fatiha.<\/p>\n
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25.12.2011 YIL 1991. Ankara Kocatepe Kitap Fuar\u0131\u2019ndaki \u0130z Yay\u0131nc\u0131l\u0131k stand\u0131na yana\u015f\u0131r adam\u0131n biri. \u00dcnl\u00fcd\u00fcr. \u00d6zellikle soyad\u0131yla bir devrin zulm\u00fcn\u00fc hat\u0131rlat\u0131r. Ve milletin vicdan\u0131na g\u00f6md\u00fc\u011f\u00fc derin ac\u0131n\u0131n mezar ta\u015f\u0131 gibi y\u00fcr\u00fcr aram\u0131zda: \u201cSon Menderes\u201d. Soyad\u0131n\u0131n getirdi\u011fi itibara yaslanmay\u0131 reddetti. Mazlumluktan prim dev\u015firmedi. Hakk\u0131yd\u0131 da bu. Bedelini \u00f6demi\u015fti. Devletinden adalet beklerken, bir eyl\u00fcl ak\u015fam\u0131 dallar\u0131 k\u0131r\u0131l\u0131p, yapraklar\u0131 […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":7,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[9],"tags":[],"ppma_author":[144],"class_list":["post-87795","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-yazarlar"],"yoast_head":"\n