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NED\u0130R K\u0130 insan\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fc? \u0130nsan bedeninin y\u00fcz\u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcmce en fazla yirmide biri. Y\u00fcz\u00fcne bir \u015fey olursa, bedeninin yirmi k\u0131sm\u0131n\u0131n ondokuzu kal\u0131r. Y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn deforme olmas\u0131 ayaklar\u0131n\u0131 etkilemez s\u00f6zgelimi; y\u00fcr\u00fcyebilirsin, ko\u015fabilirsin de. Y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn dostlar\u0131nca bile tan\u0131nmayacak olmas\u0131, ellerini tutmaktan, kavramaktan al\u0131koymaz.<\/p>\n
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Y\u00fcz\u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcmce yirmi par\u00e7andan sadece biri olan y\u00fcz\u00fcn, kendi kimli\u011finin, kendinin hepsidir; y\u00fcz\u00fcnle \u00f6l\u00e7erler varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n hepsini. Y\u00fcz\u00fcn yoksa, aynalardan yitiverirsin, dost\u00e7a bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131n ucundan kay\u0131verirsin, sevdiklerinin \u00f6zlemlerinin ucunda yer bulamazs\u0131n kendine, varl\u0131ktan elini ete\u011fini \u00e7ekersin.<\/p>\n
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Yanm\u0131\u015f ya da par\u00e7alanm\u0131\u015f bir y\u00fczle nereye y\u00fcr\u00fcrsen y\u00fcr\u00fc kendine varamazs\u0131n, ne kadar \u00e7ok ko\u015farsan ko\u015f kendini bulamazs\u0131n. Y\u00fcz\u00fcn o tatl\u0131 ve yumu\u015fak \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 s\u00f6ner; g\u00f6zlerin uza\u011f\u0131na savrulduk\u00e7a, g\u00f6n\u00fcllere de \u0131rak d\u00fc\u015fersin. Y\u00fcz\u00fcn o a\u015fina k\u0131vr\u0131mlar\u0131 biter; tebess\u00fcm\u00fcn ne\u015fesi, g\u00fcl\u00fcc\u00fcklerin g\u00fcne\u015fi, gamzelerin i\u015fvesi bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc kap\u0131dan i\u00e7eri girmez.<\/p>\n
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Y\u00fcz\u00fcn yoksa, bir \u015feye tutunamazs\u0131n, sevmeye hakk\u0131n olmaz mesel\u00e2, sevilmeyi umamazs\u0131n. Kalbinin her t\u00fcrl\u00fc k\u0131p\u0131rt\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 nokta nokta yans\u0131tan, duygular\u0131n\u0131n ini\u015f \u00e7\u0131k\u0131\u015flar\u0131na g\u00f6re sal\u0131nan o incecik ten kaz\u0131n\u0131p gitmi\u015fse y\u00fcz\u00fcnden, kimli\u011fin eski foto\u011fraflara as\u0131l\u0131 kal\u0131r, kendi i\u00e7inde hapsolur sevin\u00e7lerin ve hatta kederlerin. Y\u00fcz\u00fcn par\u00e7alanm\u0131\u015fsa, dudaklar\u0131n erimi\u015f ve yerlerinde bi\u00e7imsiz bir gerginlik duruyorsa, burnunun ucu yok olmu\u015f ve onun yerine kafatas\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7ine do\u011fru \u00fcrk\u00fct\u00fcc\u00fc bir karanl\u0131k a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131yorsa, g\u00f6zlerinin \u00fczerinden ka\u015flar\u0131n \u00e7ekilmi\u015f, kirpiklerin yan\u0131p kavrulmu\u015fsa, g\u00f6zlerin sa\u011fa sola \u00f6ylesine k\u0131p\u0131rdayan bi\u00e7imsiz ta\u015flar gibi duruyorsa, g\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131 bile d\u00f6kemiyorsan, birbiri \u00fczerine kapat\u0131lan demir kap\u0131lar\u0131n sesini duyarak kendi bedeninin kuytular\u0131na hapsedilirsin.Y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn penceresinden ruhunu \u015f\u00f6yle bir uzatamazs\u0131n.<\/p>\n
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Y\u00fcz nakli i\u00e7in bekleyen o hastay\u0131 g\u00f6rmeseydim, y\u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fcn her noktas\u0131na dokunan sonsuz rahmetin varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 fark edemeyecektim. \u00dcstelik, s\u00f6z\u00fcm ona y\u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fcn varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, g\u00fczelli\u011fini ve inceli\u011fini farkedi\u015fimin asl\u0131nda fark\u0131ndas\u0131zl\u0131k oldu\u011funu fark edemeyecektim. Y\u00fcz\u00fcn k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir yang\u0131n sonras\u0131 neye benzeyebilece\u011fini a\u00e7\u0131k\u00e7a g\u00f6r\u00fcnce, y\u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fcn nerelerden getirilip y\u00fcz\u00fcme y\u00fcz edildi\u011fini gecikerek de olsa farkettim.<\/p>\n
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Korkar\u0131m ki, tela\u015f ve me\u015fguliyet y\u00fcz\u00fcnden bu fark\u0131ndal\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131n heyecan\u0131 \u015fimdiki kadar derin kalmayacak da… G\u00f6re g\u00f6re varl\u0131\u011f\u0131na al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z y\u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fcn yoklu\u011funa dair pek hesab\u0131m\u0131z yok. Var olduk\u00e7a t\u00fcketti\u011fimiz, yan\u0131m\u0131zda olduk\u00e7a varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 unuttu\u011fumuz nice \u015fey gibi, y\u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc de hep g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fcn \u00f6n\u00fcnde buldu\u011fumuz i\u00e7in fark etmiyoruz. Ne zaman ger\u00e7ekle\u015fece\u011fi belli olmayan, ger\u00e7ekle\u015fse bile ba\u015far\u0131s\u0131 hayli \u015f\u00fcpheli olan, ba\u015far\u0131l\u0131 olsa bile kendisini bir ba\u015fkas\u0131n\u0131n, hem de \u00f6l\u00fcp gitmi\u015f bir ba\u015fkas\u0131n\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fcne mahk\u00fbm edecek olan y\u00fcz nakli i\u00e7in umutlanan o gen\u00e7 k\u0131z, beni s\u0131k\u0131c\u0131 ve yap\u0131\u015fkan bir uyu\u015fuklu\u011fun i\u00e7inden \u00e7ekip ald\u0131.<\/p>\n
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Y\u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fcn belki de baka baka b\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z o g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fcn alt\u0131nda, onlarca kas, kemik, damar, sinir ve ya\u011f dokusu saklan\u0131r. Y\u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fcz onlar\u0131 hem saklar hem g\u00f6sterir. Bu saklama ve g\u00f6sterme aras\u0131nda, her duygu durumumuzla de\u011fi\u015fen, sa\u011fa sola kayan ince bir denge vard\u0131r. Kaslar ve kemikler, bazen k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck tatl\u0131 dalgalanmalar gibi kabar\u0131rlar, varl\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 utanga\u00e7 bir \u00e7ocuk edas\u0131yla belli belirsiz hissettirirler, sonra usulca geri \u00e7ekilirler. Elmac\u0131k kemiklerimizin yana\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n tam ortas\u0131nda durmalar\u0131na ra\u011fmen, hi\u00e7 yokmu\u015f gibi yapmalar\u0131 seni de \u015fa\u015f\u0131rtm\u0131yor mu? G\u00f6z \u00e7ukurlar\u0131m\u0131z mesela. Hi\u00e7 de bildi\u011fimiz \u00fcrk\u00fct\u00fcc\u00fc \u00e7ukurlara benzemezler; g\u00f6zler, ka\u015flar, kirpikler ve g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131yla y\u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fcn g\u00fczelli\u011fini zirveye \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131rlar.<\/p>\n
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Nas\u0131l da karanl\u0131\u011fa d\u00fc\u015fer kederli bir y\u00fcz? \u00dczerine en parlak \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 da tutsan\u0131z ayd\u0131nlanmaz; g\u00f6lgeden \u00f6te bir g\u00f6lge siner kuytular\u0131na. M\u00fctebessim bir y\u00fcz ise ayd\u0131nlan\u0131r; sanki iki g\u00fcne\u015f birden do\u011far g\u00f6zlerin karas\u0131ndan. G\u00fclen bir y\u00fcz\u00fcn her noktas\u0131nda g\u00f6r\u00fcnmez \u00e7i\u00e7ekler a\u00e7ar; dokunamazs\u0131n ama s\u0131ms\u0131cak elinde avucunda gibidir; g\u00f6remezsin ama g\u00f6zlerine batacak kadar oradad\u0131r.<\/p>\n
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Y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc kafatas\u0131n\u0131n \u00fczerine gerili bir bez gibi ta\u015f\u0131yor de\u011filsin. Y\u00fcz\u00fcn seni senden \u00f6te ta\u015f\u0131r. Seni sevdiklerinin g\u00f6z\u00fcne ve g\u00f6nl\u00fcne ta\u015f\u0131r. Seni c\u00fcmle muhabbetlerin kalbine ta\u015f\u0131r\u0131r. Seni nice tatl\u0131 \u00f6p\u00fcc\u00fcklerin k\u0131y\u0131s\u0131na ta\u015f\u0131r. Bir avu\u00e7 kezzap yahut k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcc\u00fck bir alev kadar yak\u0131ndad\u0131r y\u00fcz\u00fcnden ve kendinden s\u00fcrg\u00fcnl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn. En fazla bir \u00f6l\u00fcn\u00fcn y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc ta\u015f\u0131maktan umutlanmaya raz\u0131 olacak kadar uza\u011fa d\u00fc\u015fer g\u00fczelli\u011fin.<\/p>\n
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Y\u00fcz\u00fcndeki yara kimli\u011fini yaralar; yaral\u0131 bir y\u00fczle kendini ta\u015f\u0131yamaz hale gelirsin. Y\u00fcz\u00fcn sessiz mucizelerin y\u00f6residir; y\u00fcz\u00fcn rahmetin en \u00e7ok ya\u011fd\u0131\u011f\u0131 bahar \u00fclkesidir.<\/p>\n
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Rahmet dokununca b\u00f6yle dokunur i\u015fte; y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn her noktas\u0131ndad\u0131r ama hi\u00e7bir yerde de\u011fil gibidir, varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hissettirmez. Yumu\u015fac\u0131k ve incecik bir t\u00fcl gibi sarar y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc. Rahmet hi\u00e7 hissettirmeden dokunuyorsa y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn her noktas\u0131na, unutas\u0131n diye de\u011fil. Minnettarl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hi\u00e7 bask\u0131s\u0131z, hi\u00e7 \u015fikesiz ifade edesin diyedir.<\/p>\n
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Bir daha bak y\u00fcz\u00fcne… Bak neler g\u00f6receksin, bak neler g\u00f6remeyeceksin.<\/p>\n
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02.05.2012 NED\u0130R K\u0130 insan\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fc? \u0130nsan bedeninin y\u00fcz\u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcmce en fazla yirmide biri. Y\u00fcz\u00fcne bir \u015fey olursa, bedeninin yirmi k\u0131sm\u0131n\u0131n ondokuzu kal\u0131r. Y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn deforme olmas\u0131 ayaklar\u0131n\u0131 etkilemez s\u00f6zgelimi; y\u00fcr\u00fcyebilirsin, ko\u015fabilirsin de. Y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn dostlar\u0131nca bile tan\u0131nmayacak olmas\u0131, ellerini tutmaktan, kavramaktan al\u0131koymaz. Y\u00fcz\u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcmce yirmi par\u00e7andan sadece biri olan y\u00fcz\u00fcn, kendi kimli\u011finin, kendinin hepsidir; y\u00fcz\u00fcnle \u00f6l\u00e7erler varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n hepsini. Y\u00fcz\u00fcn […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":7,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[9],"tags":[],"ppma_author":[144],"class_list":["post-87791","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-yazarlar"],"yoast_head":"\n