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M\u0130LYONLARCA M\u00dcM\u0130N\u0130N, duam\u0131z\u0131 kabul edecek makam\u0131n \u00f6\u011fretti\u011fi o muhte\u015fem duay\u0131, Fatiha’y\u0131, \u00e7a\u011flayanlar gibi akan nefesleriyle “amiiiin” diye zarflay\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131n heyecan\u0131nda yeniden tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131m M\u00fclk S\u00fbresi’yle.. <\/p>\n
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Sabahlar\u0131n hepsinde mahzun kalplerimize ebed\u00ee g\u00fcne\u015fler do\u011furan, mahcup g\u00f6n\u00fcllerimizi sonsuz g\u00fczelli\u011fe a\u00e7an Haberci’nin (asm) huzurunda, sonsuzlu\u011fu nefeslenerek k\u0131l\u0131yoruz sabah\u0131. Sanki gafletlerden uyanm\u0131\u015f yedi uyurlar gibiyiz. Sanki zul\u00fcmleri susturmu\u015f, zalimleri bo\u011fmu\u015f zaman \u0131rma\u011f\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6b\u00fcr ucunda kurtulu\u015fa uyan\u0131r gibiyiz. Sonsuz bir ‘\u015fimdi’ kucakl\u0131yor bizi. Ne tela\u015f var ne ko\u015fturma. Bitimsiz an’\u0131n p\u0131nar\u0131ndan yudumluyoruz kevseri.<\/p>\n
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Secdeler sahici. Secdeler hi\u00e7e indiriyor bizi. Sabah namaz\u0131n\u0131n iki rek\u00e2t\u0131na yay\u0131yor ‘Tebareke’yi imam\u0131m\u0131z. “Teb\u00e2rekellezi biyedihi’l m\u00fclk.” “Ne y\u00fccedir O m\u00fclk\u00fc elinde tutan…” “Hanginizin daha g\u00fczel i\u015fler yapaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131namak i\u00e7in \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc ve hayat\u0131 yaratmakta…” M\u00fclk\u00fcn Sahibi, sahip olmak\/ol(a)mamak ekseninde k\u0131vran\u0131p duran insanl\u0131\u011fa varl\u0131k manifestosunu en ba\u015f\u0131nda ilan ediyor. “\u00d6lmeyi de ya\u015famay\u0131 da ciddiye alma…” “\u00d6lmekle her \u015feyi yitiriyor de\u011filsin. Ya\u015famakla da her \u015feye sahip oluyor de\u011filsin.” “M\u00fclk O’nundur; senin de\u011fil…” Sana her \u015feyi terk ettiren \u00f6l\u00fcm, bildi\u011fin \u00f6l\u00fcmlerden bir \u00f6l\u00fcm de\u011fil… Seni her \u015feye sahip eyleyen hayat da, o bildi\u011fin hayatlardan de\u011fil. \u00d6l\u00fcm de \u00f6d\u00fcn\u00e7, hayat da. \u00d6lmek de \u015fimdilik. <\/p>\n
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Ya\u015famak; zaten \u015fimdilik. Hem sonra, ya\u015famas\u0131 kendinden olmayan\u0131n sahipli\u011fi ne kadar sahicidir ki? Sahip oldu\u011funu sand\u0131klar\u0131yla sadece beraberdir. Sadece yak\u0131n\u0131nda durmaktad\u0131r sahiplendikleri. Ve sadece \u015fimdilik durmaktad\u0131r. “Bu benimdir” dedikleri elinden \u00e7\u0131kacak bir g\u00fcn. Eli de elinden gidecek bir g\u00fcn. Ayette “\u00f6l\u00fcm”\u00fcn \u00f6nce zikredilmesi belki bu y\u00fczden. Kendini p\u00fcr\u00fczs\u00fczce ak\u0131p giden hayat\u0131n ortas\u0131nda bulan insana o beklenmedik kesintiyi en ba\u015f\u0131ndan hat\u0131rlatmak i\u00e7in. “Varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n kesintiye u\u011frayaca\u011f\u0131 o an her daim yan\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131nda bekliyor seni.” Varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u00f6d\u00fcn\u00e7. Sahiplenmen emanet. Ve sadece \u015fimdilik. Varl\u0131k sende kalacak de\u011fil, sen de varl\u0131kta kalacak de\u011filsin. Hemen ard\u0131ndan teselli ediyor \u00f6l\u00fcme do\u011fru y\u00fcr\u00fcyen, eskiyen\/eksilen \u00e7aresiz insan\u0131. \u00d6l\u00fcm de sahipsiz de\u011fil. \u00dcstelik senin Sahibin olan, sana varl\u0131\u011f\u0131 sahiplendiren O’nun elinde. \u00d6l\u00fcm\u00fc o yaratt\u0131; O’na ra\u011fmen \u00f6l\u00fcyor de\u011filsin. \u00d6l\u00fcm\u00fc O takdir etti; O’ndan habersiz gidiyor de\u011filsin. \u00d6lsen bile O’nun m\u00fclk\u00fcndesin. \u00d6l\u00fcm\u00fcn s\u0131nanmak i\u00e7in. Ya\u015faman s\u0131nanman i\u00e7in. Yani \u00f6l\u00fcm de hayat da bir oyun. Bir ba\u015fka ger\u00e7ekli\u011fin y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc aralamak i\u00e7in bu oyun. Kazanman ya\u015famaya ba\u011fl\u0131 de\u011fil, kaybetmen \u00f6l\u00fcme endeksli de\u011fil.<\/p>\n
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Bir ba\u015fka ger\u00e7e\u011fin e\u015fi\u011finde vas\u0131ta sadece \u00f6l\u00fcm-kal\u0131m derdi. “Senin derdin \u00f6l\u00fcm-kal\u0131m derdinden b\u00fcy\u00fck olmal\u0131.” Varl\u0131k manifestosu, bizi al\u0131\u015f\u0131k oldu\u011fumuz eksenden \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131p, olmam\u0131z gereken eksene yerle\u015ftiriyor. \u00d6l\u00fcm-kal\u0131m ekseninden iyi-k\u00f6t\u00fc eksenine konu\u015flan\u0131yoruz birden. Soruyorum \u015fimdi kendime. Korkular\u0131m nerede konakl\u0131yor? Sevin\u00e7lerim hangi vadide b\u00fcy\u00fcyor? H\u00fcz\u00fcnlerimin m\u00fcsebbibi neler? Kay\u0131p ve kazan\u00e7 terazimin kefelerine neler koymu\u015fum? \u00d6rne\u011fin, yanl\u0131\u015fa savrulmaktan \u015farampole yuvarlanmaktan korkar gibi korkuyor muyum? U\u00e7uruma d\u00fc\u015fmek gibi korkun\u00e7 geliyor mu bana dilimin ve nefeslerimin bo\u015f s\u00f6z ve yalanlar\u0131n kirli kuyusuna \u00e7ekilmesi? Ate\u015fe de\u011fiyormu\u015fum gibi yak\u0131yor mu dama\u011f\u0131m\u0131 duda\u011f\u0131m\u0131 g\u0131ybetler, arkadan \u00e7eki\u015ftirmeler? Her an k\u0131r\u0131labilir buzdan zemin \u00fczerinde y\u00fcr\u00fcr gibi mi y\u00fcr\u00fcyorum s\u00f6zlerimin \u00fczerine basarken? \u00c7ekinmelerim kimlerden, nelerden? \u00c7amurdan pislikten sak\u0131nd\u0131\u011f\u0131m kadar sak\u0131n\u0131yor muyum nank\u00f6rl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn, \u015f\u00fck\u00fcrs\u00fczl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn koku\u015fmu\u015flu\u011fundan? Allah’\u0131 bir bilip de, O i\u015fitmiyormu\u015f gibi konu\u015fmak, O bilmiyormu\u015f gibi eylemek, O g\u00f6rm\u00fcyormu\u015f gibi davranmak, sa\u011f\u0131rla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m, k\u00f6rle\u015fti\u011fim, cahille\u015fti\u011fim zifiri karanl\u0131kta y\u00fcr\u00fcyormu\u015fum gibi \u00fcrk\u00fct\u00fcyor mu beni? Sorumu tekrar ediyorum: \u00d6l\u00fcm-kal\u0131m kayg\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 neye g\u00f6re ayar etmi\u015fiz? Gafilce bir s\u00f6z\u00fcn kulaklar\u0131m\u0131za aniden de\u011fmesi, kula\u011f\u0131m\u0131zdan ge\u00e7en bir kur\u015fun v\u0131nlamas\u0131 kadar betimizi benzimizi att\u0131r\u0131yor mu? Tiksinir miyiz mesel\u00e2, bir karde\u015fimizin bize de g\u0131ybetini dinlettirip bir ba\u015fka karde\u015finin \u00f6l\u00fc etini didikleyerek yemesi kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda…<\/p>\n
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Namaz\u0131 terk etti\u011fi i\u00e7in ebediyen fel\u00e7 olmak \u00fczere olan bir karde\u015fimizin, birden namaz i\u00e7in aya\u011fa kalkmas\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fczde, bir fel\u00e7linin y\u00fcr\u00fcmeye ba\u015flamas\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fcz kadar sevin\u00e7 ve \u015fa\u015fk\u0131nl\u0131k ya\u015fad\u0131k m\u0131 hi\u00e7? Namazs\u0131zlar\u0131 niyazs\u0131zlar\u0131 her g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fczde, ebed\u00ee hayat\u0131n\u0131n engelli ve \u00f6z\u00fcrl\u00fc olmas\u0131na ald\u0131r\u0131\u015f etmemelerine bak\u0131p da bir engelli g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f gibi \u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcyor muyuz? Kur’\u00e2n’a uzak kalarak g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc de g\u00f6nl\u00fcn\u00fc de k\u00f6reltmi\u015f karde\u015flerimizin ara s\u0131ra elinden tutup ezilmesin diye “yol”un kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na ge\u00e7irmeye heveslendi\u011fimiz oldu mu hi\u00e7? M\u00fclk O’nun oldu\u011fu halde, biz m\u00fclk kayg\u0131s\u0131nday\u0131z. \u00d6l\u00fcm\u00fc o var etti\u011fi halde, biz yok yere yok etmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yoruz \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc. Hayat\u0131 o var etti\u011fi halde, biz bo\u015f yere kendimize y\u00fckl\u00fcyoruz ya\u015famay\u0131.<\/p>\n
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R\u0131zk\u0131 garanti etti\u011fi halde r\u0131z\u0131k pe\u015finde ko\u015fturuyoruz. Ak\u0131betimizi garanti etmedi\u011fi halde, ak\u0131betimiz garantiymi\u015f gibi endi\u015fesiz ve tela\u015fs\u0131z\u0131z. Sadece g\u00f6zler de\u011filmi\u015f me\u011fer k\u00f6rle\u015fen, g\u00f6n\u00fcller de k\u00f6r olurmu\u015f… G\u00f6z\u00fcn g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc \u00f6l\u00fcmden korkanlar, g\u00f6z\u00fcn g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc hayata tutunanlar, g\u00f6n\u00fcllerinin korktu\u011fu \u00f6l\u00fcml\u00fc amellere korkmadan y\u00fcr\u00fcyorlar, g\u00f6n\u00fcllerinin \u00f6zledi\u011fi diri amelleri g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc k\u0131rpmadan terk ediyorlar. M\u00fclk O’nun… Ama k\u00f6r g\u00f6nl\u00fcm h\u00e2l\u00e2 daha “\u00f6l\u00fcm-kal\u0131m” derdinde.. “\u0130yi-k\u00f6t\u00fc” derdi sanki ba\u015fkalar\u0131n\u0131n derdi…<\/p>\n
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28.05.2012 M\u0130LYONLARCA M\u00dcM\u0130N\u0130N, duam\u0131z\u0131 kabul edecek makam\u0131n \u00f6\u011fretti\u011fi o muhte\u015fem duay\u0131, Fatiha’y\u0131, \u00e7a\u011flayanlar gibi akan nefesleriyle “amiiiin” diye zarflay\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131n heyecan\u0131nda yeniden tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131m M\u00fclk S\u00fbresi’yle.. Sabahlar\u0131n hepsinde mahzun kalplerimize ebed\u00ee g\u00fcne\u015fler do\u011furan, mahcup g\u00f6n\u00fcllerimizi sonsuz g\u00fczelli\u011fe a\u00e7an Haberci’nin (asm) huzurunda, sonsuzlu\u011fu nefeslenerek k\u0131l\u0131yoruz sabah\u0131. Sanki gafletlerden uyanm\u0131\u015f yedi uyurlar gibiyiz. Sanki zul\u00fcmleri susturmu\u015f, zalimleri bo\u011fmu\u015f zaman […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":7,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[9],"tags":[],"ppma_author":[144],"class_list":["post-87787","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-yazarlar"],"yoast_head":"\n