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SEN H\u0130\u00c7 ellerindeki u\u00e7urtmalar\u0131n ipine tak\u0131l\u0131p g\u00f6\u011fe a\u011fan \u00e7ocuklar\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fcn m\u00fc?<\/p>\n
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Bir bebe\u011fin avu\u00e7lar\u0131nda vahalar\u0131n kokusunu ald\u0131n m\u0131? Ayr\u0131l\u0131k \u00e7\u00f6l\u00fcn\u00fcn ortas\u0131nda g\u00fcl gibi koklad\u0131n m\u0131 sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 y\u00e2rin? Uzak u\u00e7urumlar\u0131n tepesinde kuru dal gibi tutundun mu ihtiyarlar\u0131n benekli ellerine? \u015eehri bir mercek gibi b\u00fcy\u00fct\u00fcp g\u00f6zlerine ta\u015f\u0131yan ya\u011fmur damlas\u0131n\u0131n pencereden s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fc seyrettin mi? Bu\u011fulu g\u00f6zlere ban\u0131p ban\u0131p \u0131slanan kirpiklerin g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcnde b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 k\u0131l\u0131\u00e7 yaras\u0131n\u0131 hat\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131n oldu mu? Zaman ge\u00e7ip gitti de\u011fil mi y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc yalayarak. Hat\u0131rlamad\u0131n, durup dinlemedin, var\u0131p g\u00f6remedin ve tutunamad\u0131n zamana?<\/p>\n
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Sen iyisi mi dondur karelerini \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fcn… G\u00f6\u011fe a\u011fan \u00e7ocuklar, \u015fehri yutan damlalar, g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcste k\u0131l\u0131\u00e7 yaralar\u0131, kuru dallar bir resim olup as\u0131l\u0131 kals\u0131n.<\/p>\n
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Sen sabahlar\u0131 ka\u00e7 g\u00fcne\u015fi kar\u015f\u0131lad\u0131n g\u00f6zlerinde? K\u0131z\u0131lca k\u0131yamet ufuklar\u0131, tomurcuk gibi a\u00e7\u0131lan \u0131\u015f\u0131klar\u0131, rengarenk k\u0131rlang\u0131\u00e7lar\u0131 ilk kez g\u00f6r\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015f gibi g\u00f6rd\u00fcn m\u00fc? Puslu aynalarda gen\u00e7li\u011fini arayan solgun y\u00fczleri hat\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131n olur mu? Kelebe\u011fin ani bir kanat \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131\u015f\u0131yla bahar\u0131 g\u00f6nl\u00fcne ta\u015f\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00fcn\u00fc \u00f6zler misin? R\u00fczg\u00e2r dokunu\u015funu yana\u011f\u0131nda, ya\u011fmur \u00e7isesini aln\u0131nda, suyun dama\u011f\u0131ndaki serin ak\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131, yusuf\u00e7uk ku\u015fu pe\u015finde ko\u015fmalar\u0131, taze yosun kokusunu ellerinde hat\u0131ra defteri gibi d\u00fcrmek istedi\u011fin oldu mu? \u0130lk bal\u0131klar\u0131n oltadaki duru\u015funu, namaz sonras\u0131 ilk huzuru tekrarlamak istedi\u011fin oluyor mu? Tela\u015flar aras\u0131nda kaybetti\u011fin ya\u015faman\u0131n kendisiydi, ayaklar\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131nda ezilmi\u015fti zaman? G\u00f6zlerine de\u011fmeden ge\u00e7ip gitti \u00f6mr\u00fcn? Yava\u015f olmal\u0131yd\u0131n. Atlamamal\u0131yd\u0131n sonraki mevsimlere.. Son g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn taze f\u0131nd\u0131k dal\u0131na as\u0131l\u0131 kalmal\u0131yd\u0131n.<\/p>\n
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Sen kiraz a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131nda ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131n korkuyu yak\u0131n hissediyor musun h\u00e2l\u00e2? Alfabe defterinin ilk sayfas\u0131ndaki teredd\u00fctleri ya\u015f\u0131yor musun yine? \u00d6dev korkusunu, tozlu yollar\u0131n kuytular\u0131na saklad\u0131\u011f\u0131n hayalleri, yetim olma imtiyaz\u0131n\u0131n keyfini, kamyon \u015fof\u00f6r mahallindeki mutluluklar\u0131, ek\u015fi hayran hasretini, yoku\u015flarda \u00e7i\u00e7eklerle sohbetini, de\u011firmene un g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcp getirmeyi \u00f6zl\u00fcyorsun de\u011fil mi? Patates ve kabaktan arabalar\u0131n belki h\u00e2l\u00e2 ko\u015fturuyordur oralarda. Belki yine sa\u011fnak alt\u0131nda k\u00f6y \u00e7ocuklar\u0131 k\u0131z\u0131lottan \u015femsiye yap\u0131yordur kendilerine. S\u00fctl\u00fc m\u0131s\u0131r\u0131n k\u00f6zlemesi belki h\u00e2l\u00e2 ayn\u0131 tad\u0131ndad\u0131r ve deredeki oyuncak de\u011firmenin h\u00e2l\u00e2 nazl\u0131 nazl\u0131 d\u00f6n\u00fcyordur. Geride b\u0131rakmak istedi\u011fin g\u00fcnlerdi onlar. Acele ettin. Yeni y\u0131llar, yeni ya\u015f d\u00f6n\u00fcmleri g\u00f6rmek istedin. Belki de \u00e7ak\u0131l\u0131p kalmal\u0131yd\u0131n \u00e7amurdan yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z evinizin duvar\u0131na.<\/p>\n
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U\u00e7an her g\u00fcne ko\u015ftun. T\u00fcketmek istedin saatleri. Daha sonralar vard\u0131 nas\u0131lsa.. Yumu\u015fac\u0131k yast\u0131\u011f\u0131nda unuttu\u011fun ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 yeni sabahlara ta\u015f\u0131mak istedin. Sanc\u0131l\u0131 g\u00fcnler, s\u0131navl\u0131 aylar, hesap sorulan y\u0131llar hemen ge\u00e7ip gitmeliydi sana g\u00f6re.. Mutluluk sonralarda sakl\u0131yd\u0131. Ertesi g\u00fcnlerde bekliyordu tamamlanm\u0131\u015fl\u0131k hissi. “B\u00fcy\u00fck adam” dedi\u011fin ki\u015fi, ancak y\u0131llar\u0131 yutarak b\u00fcy\u00fcyebilirdi.. Acemilikler, teredd\u00fctler, eksiklikler, aksakl\u0131klar ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131n g\u00fcne aitti. Sonra, belki daha sonra, belki yeterince sonralar\u0131 usta, kararl\u0131, tam, kusursuz bir kelebek \u00e7\u0131kacakt\u0131 \u00e7ocuklu\u011funun kozas\u0131ndan. Ke\u015fke kanatlar\u0131n\u0131 hi\u00e7 a\u00e7masayd\u0131n. Sar\u0131l\u0131p bekleseydin \u0130bra’m dedenin boynuna..<\/p>\n
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Hayat, i\u00e7inden bir de sen ge\u00e7tin diye mutlu mu oldu dersin? D\u00fcnya, \u00fczerinde bir sen daha olunca ba\u015f\u0131 g\u00f6\u011fe mi erdi dersin? Bu beden, seni i\u00e7inde a\u011f\u0131rlad\u0131 diye topraktan uzak m\u0131 kalacak dersin?<\/p>\n
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Zaman ak\u0131p gidiyor. Seninle ya da sensiz. \u015eimdi ba\u015fka \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n okul teredd\u00fctleri ya\u015fan\u0131yor. U\u00e7urtmalar ba\u015fka \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n ipinden tutuyor. Ba\u015fka \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n g\u00f6zleri ya\u011f\u0131yor ya\u011fmura. Ba\u015fka \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n r\u00fcyas\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcyor geceler. Kiraz a\u011fac\u0131 korkular\u0131 ba\u015fka delikanl\u0131lar\u0131 bekliyor. Ba\u015fka \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n h\u00fclyalar\u0131ndan ak\u0131p gidiyor \u0131rmaklar.<\/p>\n
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Sen \u0131rma\u011f\u0131n \u00f6te k\u0131y\u0131s\u0131ndas\u0131n art\u0131k. Ba\u015fka \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n babas\u0131.. Me\u00e7hul zamanlar\u0131n adam\u0131. Yeni \u00e7\u0131kacak gazetelerin \u00f6l\u00fcm haberi. Ba\u015fka ba\u015fka adamlar\u0131n dudaklar\u0131n\u0131n mahzun taziyesi. Yeni takvimlerin yapraklar\u0131ndan \u00f6nce kopar\u0131lan adam. Yeni \u015fehirlerin mezarl\u0131klar\u0131ndan birinde so\u011fuk bir ta\u015f.. Belki az zaman s\u00fcren bir a\u011flay\u0131\u015flar\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fcnde taze g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131.<\/p>\n
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Sen durup kalmad\u0131n sana ait olan an’da. Donup kalmad\u0131n zaman\u0131n en tatl\u0131 yerinde. Sen saatin kadran\u0131nda hi\u00e7bir noktaya raz\u0131 olmad\u0131n. Herkes gibi sen de hi\u00e7 \u00f6lmeyecekmi\u015f gibi ya\u015fad\u0131n, hi\u00e7 ya\u015famam\u0131\u015f gibi \u00f6ld\u00fcn.<\/p>\n
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10.01.2013 SEN H\u0130\u00c7 ellerindeki u\u00e7urtmalar\u0131n ipine tak\u0131l\u0131p g\u00f6\u011fe a\u011fan \u00e7ocuklar\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fcn m\u00fc? Bir bebe\u011fin avu\u00e7lar\u0131nda vahalar\u0131n kokusunu ald\u0131n m\u0131? Ayr\u0131l\u0131k \u00e7\u00f6l\u00fcn\u00fcn ortas\u0131nda g\u00fcl gibi koklad\u0131n m\u0131 sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 y\u00e2rin? Uzak u\u00e7urumlar\u0131n tepesinde kuru dal gibi tutundun mu ihtiyarlar\u0131n benekli ellerine? \u015eehri bir mercek gibi b\u00fcy\u00fct\u00fcp g\u00f6zlerine ta\u015f\u0131yan ya\u011fmur damlas\u0131n\u0131n pencereden s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fc seyrettin mi? Bu\u011fulu g\u00f6zlere ban\u0131p […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":7,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[9],"tags":[],"ppma_author":[144],"class_list":["post-87780","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-yazarlar"],"yoast_head":"\n