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YAZ BEN\u0130M mevsimim, ben s\u0131ca\u011f\u0131n, g\u00fcne\u015fin ve yaz\u0131n insan\u0131y\u0131m.<\/p>\n
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Hava ne denli \u0131s\u0131n\u0131rsa \u0131s\u0131ns\u0131n bana v\u0131z geldi hep.<\/p>\n
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D\u0131\u015far\u0131da insan\u0131n kan\u0131n\u0131 \u0131s\u0131tan bir g\u00fcne\u015f var. Is\u0131nd\u0131k\u00e7a \u0131s\u0131n\u0131yor. Daha da \u0131s\u0131nacak in\u015fallah. En s\u0131kk\u0131n halde bile g\u00fcl\u00fcmseyesim geliyor. Sanki g\u00fcne\u015fi kalbimle k\u00f6r\u00fckl\u00fcyorum. Yan! Parla! Is\u0131n!<\/p>\n
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Bah\u00e7emizde k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 ve beyaz papatyalar\u2026<\/p>\n
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Yanl\u0131\u015f duymad\u0131n\u0131z papatya, k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131, ben de \u015fa\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m, ama ger\u00e7ek. Bir s\u00fcrpriz paketi olmu\u015f papatyalar \u015firinlikte s\u0131n\u0131r tan\u0131mam\u0131\u015f ve bir de k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131ya boyanm\u0131\u015flar. K\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 benim rengim. Papatyalar kendilerine ve k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131ya sevgimi bilip bana jest yapm\u0131\u015flar. Jest, el Kerim\u2019den \u015f\u00fcphesiz\u2026<\/p>\n
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Daha bir ay \u00f6nce her yerde laleler arz-\u0131 endam ediyorlard\u0131. Ebem ku\u015fa\u011f\u0131 gibi \u00e7e\u015fit \u00e7e\u015fit renklerde. Laleler g\u00fczel \u00e7i\u00e7ekler, onlar ortal\u0131k yerdeyken, hemen diplerine de dikili olsa, menek\u015felere bakan yok. Menek\u015feler mini mini, k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck sevimli \u00f6rdekler gibi, lalelerse birer ku\u011fu sanki. Lalelerin g\u00fczelli\u011fini fark etmiyor de\u011filim, ama menek\u015felere reva g\u00f6r\u00fclene de biraz bozuluyorum do\u011frusu. Olmaz ki! Minik olmak g\u00fczelli\u011fe mani mi?<\/p>\n
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Laleler varken g\u00f6zden ka\u00e7an bir di\u011fer g\u00fczellikse zerrinlere ait. Beyaz ve sar\u0131 zerrinler, onlar\u0131n k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck karde\u015fleri fulyalar. Ya da tam tersi biri zerrin, biri fulya idi. Ama b\u00fcy\u00fc\u011f\u00fc m\u00fc k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fc\u011f\u00fc m\u00fc? Benim i\u00e7in karma\u015f\u0131k bir mesele. Zerrinler lalelere g\u00f6steri\u015fte fark atamazlar ku\u015fkusuz, ama kokular\u0131 yok mu? Kokular\u0131 ba\u015f d\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u00fcr. G\u00fczel kokuyu \u00e7i\u00e7ekte tercih edenlerin se\u00e7imi zerrinlerdir. G\u00fczel koku ruhlar\u0131n g\u0131das\u0131, g\u00fczel g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcm nefislerin\u2026<\/p>\n
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Bu vakitler zambak zaman\u0131d\u0131r da, Bosna\u2019da zambaklar a\u00e7m\u0131\u015ft\u0131r \u015fimdi. \u015eu vakitler Mostar\u2019da olmak vard\u0131 ya! Rengarenk zambaklar, en g\u00fczeli de beyaz olan\u0131, Bo\u015fnak halk\u0131n\u0131n ve dahi safl\u0131\u011f\u0131n simgesi. Biliyor musunuz, zambak ile lale akrabad\u0131r. Laleye eski zamanlarda T\u00fcrk zamba\u011f\u0131, yahut do\u011fu zamba\u011f\u0131 derlermi\u015f. Zambak deyince akl\u0131ma bir de bir \u0130ncil ayeti geldi, \u201cZambaklar gibi olun, onlar\u0131 Rabb ne g\u00fczel giydirir, S\u00fcleyman bile onlar kadar g\u00fczel giyinmedi\u201d der Hz. \u0130sa. Zambak isti\u011fnan\u0131n, Rabb\u2019den ba\u015fkas\u0131na el a\u00e7maman\u0131n, sebepten bir \u015fey beklememenin simgesidir. Bir de y\u00f6nelmi\u015f temiz bir kalbin\u2026 <\/p>\n
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Bir \u00e7uval g\u00f6rd\u00fcm, i\u00e7i zambaklarla dolu,r\u00fcya elbette r\u00fcya\u2026<\/p>\n
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G\u00fczel r\u00fcyalardan biri. Sevilen \u015feylerle ilgili\u2026<\/p>\n
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Bir de s\u00fcmb\u00fcller var de\u011fil mi? Bizim bah\u00e7ede de vard\u0131 onlardan, beyaz ve mor iki \u00f6bek. Onlar da harikulade kokarlar. Mini mini \u00e7i\u00e7eklerin bir g\u00f6kdelen gibi ard arda dizilmi\u015f ve d\u00f6ne d\u00f6ne yukar\u0131ya do\u011fru \u00e7\u0131kmaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015f halidir s\u00fcmb\u00fcl. Bana s\u00fcmb\u00fcl\u00fcn minik \u00e7i\u00e7ekleri, miraca \u00e7\u0131kmaya niyetlenmi\u015f gibi gelir. \u00c7\u0131km\u0131\u015f \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015f, tepedeki sivri noktaya dek \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015f, orada durmu\u015f, takati bitmi\u015f. Her varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n kemali kendi ar\u015f\u0131na dek, s\u00fcmb\u00fcl\u00fcn ar\u015f\u0131 da o sivri tepe olmal\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n
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\u015eimdi g\u00fcl zaman\u0131, g\u00fcl \u00e7i\u00e7eklerin sultan\u0131. Kap\u0131 giri\u015finde portakal rengi g\u00fcller var, sarma\u015f\u0131k gibi dizili. Bah\u00e7eden \u00e7\u0131karken ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131za bir ta\u00e7 \u00f6r\u00fcyor sanki. Portakal rengini ne \u00e7ok severim! S\u0131cac\u0131k eder insan\u0131n kalbini. G\u00fcne\u015fin rengi, Akdenizin rengi. Bah\u00e7enin solunda pembe g\u00fcller var, sa\u011f\u0131nda ise k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131. Sanki bir \u00e2\u015f\u0131k at\u0131\u015fmas\u0131nda birbirlerine dizeler f\u0131rlat\u0131yorlar. Duymuyor musunuz? Sabah namaz\u0131ndan sonra g\u00fcne\u015fin ilk \u0131\u015f\u0131klar\u0131nda kahvalt\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 eden ku\u015flar\u0131n latif na\u011fmeleri aras\u0131nda kula\u011f\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 dikkatle kabart\u0131rsan\u0131z, k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 g\u00fcl\u00fcn ate\u015fli, pembe g\u00fcl\u00fcn nazl\u0131 dizelerini duyabilirsiniz. Pembe biraz utanga\u00e7 k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 biraz pervas\u0131z, bilirsiniz\u2026<\/p>\n
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Bu at\u0131\u015fmada ate\u015f g\u00fclleri ile naz g\u00fclleri aras\u0131nda tarafs\u0131z olmal\u0131y\u0131m, ama de\u011filim, \u00e7akt\u0131rmay\u0131n\u2026 <\/p>\n
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Bir karga balkonumuzun hemen alt\u0131ndaki a\u011faca yuva yapm\u0131\u015f,k\u0131z\u0131m g\u00f6sterdi de g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. B\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcn yuvada oturuyor. K\u0131m\u0131ldam\u0131yor. Ne sab\u0131r, can\u0131 hi\u00e7 mi s\u0131k\u0131lm\u0131yor? Aa! Baksana u\u00e7tu, yiyecek bulmaya m\u0131 gitti acaba? Aa! \u0130ki yumurta, masmavi iki yumurta var yuvada. Karga yumurtalar\u0131 mavi mi olurmu\u015f, tuhaf bir renk. A\u00e7\u0131k buzlu bir mavi renk. Mavi g\u00fczel renk, biraz so\u011fuk, ama hi\u00e7 beceremesem de bazen so\u011fuk olmak gerek. Demek karga han\u0131m, bunun i\u00e7in, bu g\u00fczel havada gezip tozan insanlara inat oturuyormu\u015f yuvada. Yavrular\u0131 i\u00e7in. B\u00fct\u00fcn anneler gibi. Bizi de \u00e7ocuklar\u0131m\u0131z ba\u011fl\u0131yor ya eve\u2026<\/p>\n
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Erikler b\u00fcy\u00fcmeye ba\u015flad\u0131lar. \u0130ki ye\u015fil erik, bir malta eri\u011fi a\u011fac\u0131 var bah\u00e7ede. Bir de ayva var yan tarafta ama onun zaman\u0131 de\u011fil \u015fimdi. Eyl\u00fcl gibi o tak\u0131p tak\u0131\u015ft\u0131rmaya ba\u015flar meyvelerini. \u00d6nce beyaz \u00e7i\u00e7ekler takar sa\u00e7lar\u0131na, sonra ye\u015fil, sonra sar\u0131 ayvalar. Ben pek ayva sevmem, Eyl\u00fcl\u2019de do\u011fmu\u015fum halbuki. A\u011fa\u00e7ta \u00e7ok g\u00fczel dursa da, yerken bo\u011fulacak gibi olur insan. Re\u00e7eli g\u00fczel olur ama\u2026 <\/p>\n
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Bir de otopark\u0131n orada incir a\u011fac\u0131 var. Bu binaya ilk ta\u015f\u0131nd\u0131\u011f\u0131m y\u0131llarda birka\u00e7 kez duvara t\u0131rman\u0131p incir koparm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m, hat\u0131rl\u0131yorum, tatl\u0131yd\u0131lar da. \u015eimdi ya\u015f ilerledi, t\u0131rmanacak mecal kalmad\u0131. Onun hemen yan\u0131nda da bir m\u00fcrd\u00fcm eri\u011fi var. Asl\u0131nda bu iki a\u011fa\u00e7la kavgal\u0131y\u0131m ben. Bir zaman sonra g\u00f6receksiniz yerlere v\u0131c\u0131k v\u0131c\u0131k incir, erik f\u0131rlatacaklar, aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131za yap\u0131\u015facak, araban\u0131z\u0131 yap\u0131\u015f yap\u0131\u015f yapacaklar. Bu kadar \u00e7ok a\u011fa\u00e7 olunca bah\u00e7ede \u00f6yle olur tabi. \u015e\u00fckretmek gereken \u015feye k\u0131z\u0131yorum de\u011fil mi? Nefis i\u015fte, k\u00f6r oluyor ya bazen\u2026<\/p>\n
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Aa! Unutursam g\u00fccenir. Bir de f\u0131st\u0131k \u00e7amlar\u0131 var ki, de\u011fmeyin keyfimize. Yaz sonuna do\u011fru yerlerden koca bir torba dolusu f\u0131st\u0131k toplayabilirsiniz. Bizim k\u0131z\u0131mla keyfimiz, bah\u00e7eye inip bir ta\u015fla onlar\u0131 tek tek k\u0131rmak ve yemek. Dikkat! Ta\u015f\u0131 ayar\u0131nda vurmak gerek. Az vurunca f\u0131st\u0131k f\u0131rlar gider, \u00e7ok vurunca ezilir. Celalin fazlas\u0131 zul\u00fcm, her \u015feyde itidal gerek. Biz de \u00f6yle yap\u0131yoruz ve payla\u015f\u0131yoruz, bir anneye be\u015f mini\u011fe, bir anneye be\u015f mini\u011fe\u2026<\/p>\n
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Evvel zamana gitti zihnim. \u00c7ocuklu\u011fumuza, buraya \u00e7ok uzak olmayan bir yere, oturdu\u011fumuz eski bah\u00e7eli m\u00fcstakil eve. A\u011fabeyim de b\u00f6yle f\u0131st\u0131k toplard\u0131. Tek tek k\u0131rard\u0131. Ben merdivenlere oturup beklerdim, bana ta\u015f\u0131 elime vururum diye k\u0131rd\u0131rmazd\u0131. O da hep fazlas\u0131n\u0131 bana verir, az\u0131n\u0131 kendine al\u0131rd\u0131. Erik a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131na nas\u0131l t\u0131rman\u0131rd\u0131, annem k\u0131zard\u0131, d\u00fc\u015fecek diye \u00f6d\u00fc kopard\u0131. Annem ba\u011f\u0131r\u0131rsa ba\u011f\u0131rs\u0131n, a\u011fabeyim yine a\u011faca \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131. A\u011faca \u00e7\u0131kmak sanki d\u00fcnyaya meydan okumakt\u0131. A\u011fabeyim beni severdi, a\u011fabeyim d\u00fcnyaya meydan okurdu. O \u00e7ocuk g\u00f6z\u00fcmde bir devdi\u2026<\/p>\n
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Ne \u00e7ok an\u0131m var onunla, ummad\u0131\u011f\u0131m her yerden hat\u0131ras\u0131 zuhur ediyor.<\/p>\n
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Yeni bir bahar, yeni bir yaz, yeni bir dirim. Her bir \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn ard\u0131ndan yeniden filizlenen hayat. \u201cKalbini a\u00e7\u201d der gibi parlayan g\u00fcne\u015f. \u201cUmut et\u201d der gibi y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc ok\u015fayan tatl\u0131 r\u00fczgar. Sahilde dans eden dalgalar, onlara e\u015flik eden u\u00e7urtmalar. Y\u00fcr\u00fcyen, ko\u015fan, bisiklete binen, paten kayan, k\u00f6pek gezdiren, frizbi oynayan insanlar. Bir de gitar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131karm\u0131\u015f \u00e7al\u0131p s\u00f6yleyen sokak \u00e7alg\u0131c\u0131lar\u0131. Dur bakay\u0131m ne \u00e7al\u0131yor? \u201cAray\u0131p sormasan da\/unuttum seni sanma\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
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Yaz geldi\u2026<\/p>\n
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Ne g\u00fczel!<\/p>\n
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22.05.2010 YAZ BEN\u0130M mevsimim, ben s\u0131ca\u011f\u0131n, g\u00fcne\u015fin ve yaz\u0131n insan\u0131y\u0131m. Hava ne denli \u0131s\u0131n\u0131rsa \u0131s\u0131ns\u0131n bana v\u0131z geldi hep. D\u0131\u015far\u0131da insan\u0131n kan\u0131n\u0131 \u0131s\u0131tan bir g\u00fcne\u015f var. Is\u0131nd\u0131k\u00e7a \u0131s\u0131n\u0131yor. Daha da \u0131s\u0131nacak in\u015fallah. En s\u0131kk\u0131n halde bile g\u00fcl\u00fcmseyesim geliyor. Sanki g\u00fcne\u015fi kalbimle k\u00f6r\u00fckl\u00fcyorum. Yan! Parla! Is\u0131n! Bah\u00e7emizde k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 ve beyaz papatyalar\u2026 Yanl\u0131\u015f duymad\u0131n\u0131z papatya, k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131, ben […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":5,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[9],"tags":[],"ppma_author":[140],"class_list":["post-86370","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-yazarlar"],"yoast_head":"\n