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YAPRAKLARIM D\u00d6K\u00dcL\u00dcYOR \u00f6n\u00fcme; siyah ve beyaz\u2026 Beyaz\u0131 siyaha galip gelmek \u00fczere olan \u00f6m\u00fcr tellerim sa\u00e7\u0131l\u0131yor eteklerime\u2026 Tutam\u0131yorum ve tutunam\u0131yorum r\u00fczg\u00e2rlar\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde savrulmaktan\u2026 Azalan ve a\u011faran sa\u00e7lar\u0131m de\u011fil; \u00f6mr\u00fcn imbikleri \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcl\u00fcyor\u2026<\/p>\n
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A\u015finas\u0131 oldu\u011fum h\u0131yabanda y\u00fcr\u00fcrken yapraklar\u0131n sar\u0131 \u015fark\u0131s\u0131 kulaklar\u0131m\u0131 dolduruyor. H\u00fcz\u00fcnden k\u0131r\u0131l\u0131yor, k\u0131vr\u0131larak u\u00e7u\u015fan sar\u0131 sunduk\u00e7alar\u2026 Durakta dururken aya\u011f\u0131ma tak\u0131lan bir yaprak direniyor; ne ki u\u00e7maktan kendini kurtaram\u0131yor yine de\u2026<\/p>\n
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Bakakal\u0131yorum ard\u0131ndan, geleni beklerken\u2026 Hep bekliyorum zaten; y\u00fcr\u00fcrken de otururken de\u2026 K\u0131skan\u00e7 bir sevgili gibi ge\u00e7ti ge\u00e7en bahar, sonunu tutabildik sar\u0131 bahar\u0131n\u2026 Ya\u011fmur g\u00f6zlerden h\u00fcz\u00fcn ya\u011f\u0131yor ak\u015famlar\u0131ma\u2026 K\u0131\u015fa ka\u00e7 kald\u0131?<\/p>\n
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K\u0131rk yaprak u\u00e7tu ba\u015f\u0131mdan\u2026 Yar\u0131s\u0131na yak\u0131n\u0131 ak, kalan\u0131 kara kald\u0131\u2026 Kar ya\u011facak biraz sonra, eteklerinde biriktirdi\u011fim g\u00fcne\u015f rengi yapraklar beyazlara b\u00fcr\u00fcnecek\u2026<\/p>\n
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K\u0131\u015ftan ka\u00e7\u0131l\u0131r m\u0131? Korkunun k\u0131\u015fa faydas\u0131 var m\u0131? Kim kurtulmu\u015f ki k\u0131\u015ftan? Uyuma m\u0131, ay\u0131lma mevsimi mi k\u0131\u015f? K\u0131\u015flar\u0131n k\u0131\u015fk\u0131rtt\u0131\u011f\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceler nerelere u\u00e7urtuyor?<\/p>\n
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D\u0131\u015f\u0131m sar\u0131, i\u00e7im sar\u0131 sorularla u\u00e7u\u015fuyor. Her bahar soru yapraklar\u0131n\u0131 okutmak i\u00e7in geliyor. Cevap meyvelerini yiyen \u00e7am ye\u015fili zeytin dal\u0131yla kar\u015f\u0131lar k\u0131\u015flar\u0131\u2026 Bal hakikatleri tadan \u00fc\u015f\u00fcmez k\u0131\u015fta-k\u0131yamette\u2026 Kavurucu r\u00fczg\u00e2rlar koparamaz \u00e7\u0131nar k\u00f6kl\u00fc kalpleri\u2026<\/p>\n
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Ne gam d\u0131\u015far\u0131da k\u0131\u015f varm\u0131\u015f, i\u00e7imin \u00e7i\u00e7ekleri bahar ya\u011fmurlar\u0131yla besleniyorsa\u2026 Sar\u0131 sunduk\u00e7alar s\u0131ra s\u0131ra \u00f6n\u00fcmden giderken gidi\u015f adreslerini okuyabiliyorsam; ne keder\u2026<\/p>\n
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Baharda dirilen, k\u0131\u015f kederinde \u00f6lmez. Yapraklar\u0131n yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 okuyan, k\u0131\u015fta kardelenleri koklar\u2026 G\u00f6nl\u00fcn\u00fc sar\u0131 yapraklarla saran, so\u011fukta solmaz.<\/p>\n
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Yaz\u0131 yiyerek yitiren, sar\u0131 bahar\u0131n solgun yapraklar\u0131 gibi k\u0131\u015fa \u00fc\u015f\u00fcyerek girer… Ka\u00e7amad\u0131\u011f\u0131 k\u0131\u015fa s\u00fcr\u00fcklenerek gitmek ne ac\u0131\u2026 A\u00e7 y\u00fcrekle k\u0131\u015f k\u0131tl\u0131\u011f\u0131 katlan\u0131l\u0131r m\u0131?<\/p>\n
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\u201cAn\u201d yapra\u011f\u0131n\u0131 malaniyat kurtlar\u0131 kemiriyorsa \u00f6m\u00fcr a\u011fac\u0131 meyvesiz girecektir k\u0131\u015fa\u2026 Kal\u0131n k\u00fct\u00fcklerin k\u00fclleri savrulacak k\u0131\u015f\u0131n ayaz\u0131nda\u2026 Ne bir nefes sevgi, ne bir dost y\u00fcz g\u00f6rebilecek karanl\u0131kta\u2026<\/p>\n
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Ah, sar\u0131 sand\u0131klar\u0131n saklad\u0131\u011f\u0131 s\u0131rlar, sarart\u0131n\u0131z benzimi\u2026 Yaprak yaprak d\u00f6k\u00fclen y\u0131llarda yoruluyor y\u00fcre\u011fim\u2026 \u00c7am ye\u015fili \u00e7\u0131nar kuytularda \u00f6rt\u00fcnmek istiyorum\u2026 Ka\u00e7amad\u0131\u011f\u0131m k\u0131\u015fa ka\u00e7 kald\u0131 bilmem ama k\u0131ymet bilemedim ge\u00e7en yazlar\u0131n, baharlar\u0131n\u2026<\/p>\n
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Soru sordum sar\u0131 yapra\u011fa, dayanamad\u0131 u\u00e7tu gitti, beni izle der gibi\u2026 Titrek dizle y\u00fcr\u00fcyorum ard\u0131ndan yaln\u0131z be yaln\u0131z\u2026 H\u00fcz\u00fcnle bak\u0131yorum geriye, umutla bakmak istiyorum ileriye\u2026 Beyaz \u00fcmitler belirsin ba\u015f\u0131mda, karamsarl\u0131klar d\u00f6k\u00fcls\u00fcn kalmas\u0131n k\u0131\u015flara\u2026<\/p>\n
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Bu yaprak doldu\u011fu gibi, \u00f6m\u00fcr yapra\u011f\u0131 da dolacak, siyah veya beyaz\u2026 Beyazlar galipse yaprak hakikatler iyi okunmu\u015f demektir, yoksa y\u0131rt\u0131k y\u0131llar \u00fc\u015f\u00fctecek bizi.<\/p>\n
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Ger\u00e7e\u011fin ger\u00e7e\u011fi a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131nda yapraklar\u0131m\u0131z serilecek \u00f6n\u00fcm\u00fcze\u2026 U\u00e7tu\u011funu sand\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z y\u0131llar\u0131n bir yaprakta topland\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6recek g\u00f6zlerimiz\u2026<\/p>\n
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Bir yaprak u\u00e7tu \u00f6n\u00fcmden; soluk solu\u011fa s\u00fcr\u00fckledi sar\u0131 soka\u011fa do\u011fru\u2026 Sar\u0131 sorular sordum, ye\u015fil cevaplar verdi ye\u015fil yolda y\u00fcr\u00fcmem i\u00e7in\u2026 Y\u00fcr\u00fcyorum servilerin d\u00f6k\u00fclmeyen yaprakl\u0131 yollar\u0131nda\u2026 Yaln\u0131z ve de yaln\u0131z bir yaprak misali\u2026<\/p>\n
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21.11.2005 YAPRAKLARIM D\u00d6K\u00dcL\u00dcYOR \u00f6n\u00fcme; siyah ve beyaz\u2026 Beyaz\u0131 siyaha galip gelmek \u00fczere olan \u00f6m\u00fcr tellerim sa\u00e7\u0131l\u0131yor eteklerime\u2026 Tutam\u0131yorum ve tutunam\u0131yorum r\u00fczg\u00e2rlar\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde savrulmaktan\u2026 Azalan ve a\u011faran sa\u00e7lar\u0131m de\u011fil; \u00f6mr\u00fcn imbikleri \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcl\u00fcyor\u2026 A\u015finas\u0131 oldu\u011fum h\u0131yabanda y\u00fcr\u00fcrken yapraklar\u0131n sar\u0131 \u015fark\u0131s\u0131 kulaklar\u0131m\u0131 dolduruyor. H\u00fcz\u00fcnden k\u0131r\u0131l\u0131yor, k\u0131vr\u0131larak u\u00e7u\u015fan sar\u0131 sunduk\u00e7alar\u2026 Durakta dururken aya\u011f\u0131ma tak\u0131lan bir yaprak direniyor; ne ki […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":4,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[9],"tags":[],"ppma_author":[138],"class_list":["post-85572","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-yazarlar"],"yoast_head":"\n