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TANYER\u0130 A\u011eARIRKEN tarlan\u0131n yolunu tuttu Al\u00e2eddin. Ku\u015flar\u0131n kasidelerine kar\u0131\u015fan trakt\u00f6r g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fcs\u00fcyle ilerlerken, kendisi gibi i\u015fe gidenlere kimine eliyle, kimine klaksiyonuyla selam veriyordu. <\/p>\n
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Ovan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcne ye\u015fil bir \u015fal gibi \u00f6rten zeytinlikler, g\u00fcne\u015fin \u0131\u015f\u0131k selam\u0131yla belirginle\u015fmeye ba\u015flad\u0131. Sabah\u0131n s\u00fck\u00fbnunda selamlarla vard\u0131 bah\u00e7esine. Huzurla huzursuzluk aras\u0131nda git geller ya\u015f\u0131yordu nedense\u2026 Aniden do\u011fan sevin\u00e7lerin ve \u00fcz\u00fcnt\u00fclerin nedenini bulmak bazen m\u00fcmk\u00fcn olmuyor.<\/p>\n
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Dere kenar\u0131yla k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck yama\u00e7 aras\u0131ndaki zeytinlik bah\u00e7esini trakt\u00f6r\u00fcyle s\u00fcrerken de devam etti gidi\u015f geli\u015fler\u2026 Bir yukar\u0131, bir a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 derken epey zaman ge\u00e7ti fakat i\u00e7indeki garip hal ge\u00e7medi. De\u011fi\u015fik duygularla i\u00e7i de bir yerlere s\u00fcr\u00fcl\u00fcyordu sanki. Hayat da, yoku\u015fla ini\u015f aras\u0131nda s\u00fcr\u00fcp gitmiyor mu zaten. <\/p>\n
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\u0130\u00e7inin g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fcs\u00fc trakt\u00f6r\u00fcn g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fcs\u00fcne bast\u0131rmaya ba\u015flad\u0131. Duygu meltemleri f\u0131rt\u0131nalara d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrken trakt\u00f6r dereye do\u011fru kay\u0131yordu. Direksiyonu toplamak istedi fakat olmad\u0131, kontrolden \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015ft\u0131, bilinmeze gidiyordu. \u00c7al\u0131l\u0131klar, y\u00fcksek otlar g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f alan\u0131n\u0131 daralt\u0131yordu. Bilemedi\u011fi bir hayk\u0131r\u0131\u015fla hayk\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131nda yan yatm\u0131\u015f trakt\u00f6r\u00fcn tekerine s\u0131k\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f buldu kendini.<\/p>\n
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\u00d6lmemi\u015fti, ya\u015f\u0131yordu Al\u00e2eddin fakat birinin yard\u0131m\u0131 olmadan buradan \u00e7\u0131kmas\u0131 da m\u00fcmk\u00fcn de\u011fildi. Kimseler de yoktu, kim kurtaracakt\u0131 onu? Ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131 ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131, sesine ses gelmedi bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc\u2026 Sessizli\u011fin sesini dinleme\u011fe ba\u015flad\u0131 yaln\u0131zl\u0131kta\u2026<\/p>\n
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Hayat s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcr oldu ufkunda\u2026 \u00c7ocuklu\u011fu, anne-babas\u0131, ilk gen\u00e7lik y\u0131llar\u0131, e\u015fi, iki \u00e7ocu\u011fu\u2026 Dantel gibi \u00f6mr\u00fcn yar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 yeni ge\u00e7mi\u015fti daha\u2026 Demek ki \u00f6mr\u00fcn yar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 bilmek m\u00fcmk\u00fcn de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n
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Hat\u0131ralar\u0131n hat\u0131rlatt\u0131\u011f\u0131 ile bazen sevin\u00e7, bazen h\u00fcz\u00fcnle g\u00fcl\u00fcmsedi kimsesiz dere kenar\u0131nda. D\u00f6nen hayat tekeri bir tekerle\u011fin ard\u0131na s\u0131k\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. S\u00f6\u011f\u00fct dallar\u0131 aras\u0131nda ara s\u0131ra kurtar\u0131lmak i\u00e7in ba\u011f\u0131rsa da duyan olmuyordu\u2026 \u00dcmitleri aya\u011f\u0131ndan sulara ak\u0131p uzaklara gidiyordu. Suyun ak\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131 seyretti bir m\u00fcddet. Gruba giden g\u00fcne\u015fin suya d\u00fc\u015fen \u0131\u015f\u0131k huzmelerine tutunmak istedi\u2026<\/p>\n
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G\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 sulara ak\u0131tt\u0131, derenin \u00e7a\u011flayana d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fmesi duas\u0131yla\u2026 Dua a\u011flamalar\u0131na cevap geldi, k\u00f6ye d\u00f6nmekte olan birileri fark etti onu\u2026<\/p>\n
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Hemen ba\u015fka trakt\u00f6r\u00fc ba\u011flay\u0131p \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131lar s\u0131k\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 yerden. Bo\u015fluk ve s\u0131cakl\u0131k hissediyordu\u2026 Hissiz giden ayaklar\u0131n\u0131 birine dayanarak y\u00fcr\u00fctebildi.<\/p>\n
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Ailesinin derin \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131klar\u0131yla hastaneye yeti\u015ftirildi. \u015euuru, konu\u015fmas\u0131 yerindeydi\u2026 Sedye ile ameliyathaneye girerken annesinin g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131na; \u201canne iyiyim\u201d le kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131k verdi\u2026 Bu son s\u00f6zleri mi olacakt\u0131 yoksa yine yoku\u015f-a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 hayat yolunda \u00e7ift s\u00fcrme\u011fe devam edebilecek miydi?<\/p>\n
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Do\u011fum beklemek de\u011fil de, do\u011fum-\u00f6l\u00fcm aras\u0131 bekleyi\u015fle ailesi beklerken doktor kap\u0131da g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fc; \u201cba\u015f\u0131n\u0131z sa\u011f olsun\u201d la ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 yana sallad\u0131. Al\u00e2eddin\u2019in hayat lambas\u0131 s\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc, hastane koridoru ailesi i\u00e7in karanl\u0131k dehlize d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. Dere deniz olmu\u015f hepsini s\u00fcr\u00fckl\u00fcyordu\u2026<\/p>\n
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Tutunam\u0131yorlard\u0131 s\u00f6\u011f\u00fct dallar\u0131na, zeytin a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131na; \u00f6l\u00fcm hakt\u0131, hayat tekerle\u011fini geri d\u00f6nd\u00fcrmek ise m\u00fcmk\u00fcn de\u011fildi. Durdular duruldular hep birlikte\u2026<\/p>\n
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Anne y\u00fcre\u011finin \u00e7a\u011flayan\u0131 durdurmak ise m\u00fcmk\u00fcn de\u011fildi, \u201cke\u015fke\u201d dedi sedyede son bir kez daha sa\u00e7\u0131n\u0131 ok\u015fayabilseydim\u2026 Ke\u015fke\u2026 Hayat bir tutam sa\u00e7\u0131 ok\u015fayabilmek kadar k\u0131sa, y\u0131llar kadar uzun\u2026 <\/p>\n
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Tekerin dere kenar\u0131nda m\u0131, hastane koridorunda m\u0131 duraca\u011f\u0131 bilinmiyor, ama bir g\u00fcn bir \u015fekilde duracak. Bizi sevenin sevmek i\u00e7in verdi\u011fi y\u00fcre\u011fi sevgiyle d\u00f6nd\u00fcrelim durmadan\u2026 Sevgi dereleri nehirlerden denizlere akarken ok\u015fas\u0131n da gitsin\u2026 <\/p>\n
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Evlat gibi \u00e7i\u00e7ek de, y\u0131ld\u0131z da tefekk\u00fcr eliyle ok\u015fanmak sevilmek ister. Biz de bizi saran sevgiyi b\u00f6ylelikle bir nebze olsun kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131k vermi\u015f oluruz.<\/p>\n
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Derek\u00f6y\u2019\u00fcn dereleri Al\u00e2eddin\u2019in \u00f6yk\u00fcs\u00fcyle h\u00fcz\u00fcnle akarken, d\u00f6nen hayat tekerimize bir\u015feyler katmal\u0131 de\u011fil mi? <\/p>\n
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28.11.2005 TANYER\u0130 A\u011eARIRKEN tarlan\u0131n yolunu tuttu Al\u00e2eddin. Ku\u015flar\u0131n kasidelerine kar\u0131\u015fan trakt\u00f6r g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fcs\u00fcyle ilerlerken, kendisi gibi i\u015fe gidenlere kimine eliyle, kimine klaksiyonuyla selam veriyordu. Ovan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcne ye\u015fil bir \u015fal gibi \u00f6rten zeytinlikler, g\u00fcne\u015fin \u0131\u015f\u0131k selam\u0131yla belirginle\u015fmeye ba\u015flad\u0131. Sabah\u0131n s\u00fck\u00fbnunda selamlarla vard\u0131 bah\u00e7esine. Huzurla huzursuzluk aras\u0131nda git geller ya\u015f\u0131yordu nedense\u2026 Aniden do\u011fan sevin\u00e7lerin ve \u00fcz\u00fcnt\u00fclerin nedenini bulmak […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":4,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[9],"tags":[],"ppma_author":[138],"class_list":["post-85571","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-yazarlar"],"yoast_head":"\n