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\u00c7INARIN G\u00d6LGES\u0130NDE duran l\u00fcks araban\u0131n i\u00e7inde arkada\u015f\u0131n\u0131n gelmesini berklerken, anlams\u0131z bak\u0131\u015flarla d\u0131\u015far\u0131 seyrediyordu\u2026 Kar\u015f\u0131dan a\u011f\u0131r a\u011f\u0131r gelen k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck sandvi\u00e7 arabas\u0131na g\u00f6z\u00fc tak\u0131ld\u0131, yakla\u015ft\u0131k\u00e7a ilgisi artt\u0131\u2026 Ac\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan de\u011fil, \u00f6ndeki k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck tabelada yaz\u0131lan metindi dikkatini \u00e7eken; \u201c Her g\u00fclene dost sanma, d\u00fc\u015fte g\u00f6r\u201d<\/p>\n
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Yaz\u0131lan\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde i\u00e7inde bir k\u0131v\u0131lc\u0131m k\u0131p\u0131rdad\u0131, kendini toparlad\u0131, bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 adama y\u00f6nlendirdi\u2026 B\u00f6ylesi bir yaz\u0131y\u0131 arabaya ast\u0131\u011f\u0131na g\u00f6re, bu ger\u00e7ekle ilgili hayat\u0131nda m\u00fchim bir hadise ge\u00e7mi\u015fti\u2026 Ge\u00e7ip giderken yan\u0131ndan d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceleri de d\u00f6nmeye ba\u015flad\u0131; dost, g\u00fcl\u00fcmsemek, d\u00fc\u015fmek, g\u00f6rmek kavramlar\u0131n\u0131 takibe ba\u015flad\u0131 zihninde\u2026<\/p>\n
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Dostsuz d\u00fcnya, g\u00fcl\u00fcmsemesiz hayat olmaz\u2026 Sahte sa\u011flam, iyi k\u00f6t\u00fc, ger\u00e7ek yalan, do\u011fru yanl\u0131\u015f d\u00f6ng\u00fcs\u00fc aras\u0131nda hep sa\u011flam, iyi, ger\u00e7ek, do\u011fru olanlar denk gelmiyor, olumsuz olanlarla da kar\u015f\u0131la\u015fabiliyoruz\u2026 Sevgilinin sahtesi, d\u00fc\u015fman\u0131n dost k\u0131l\u0131kl\u0131s\u0131yla kar\u015f\u0131la\u015fmak; kolay kabullenilecek ve unutulacak bir hadise olmuyor, derin izler, ac\u0131 yaralar b\u0131rak\u0131yor i\u00e7 \u00e2lemde\u2026 <\/p>\n
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\u015euur alt\u0131 sars\u0131l\u0131yor, okyanus dalgalanmalar ya\u015fan\u0131yor dip derinliklerde\u2026 \u00dcmit gemisi su al\u0131yor, duygu tayfalar\u0131 tembelle\u015fiyor, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnce kaptan\u0131 dirayet d\u00fcmenini \u00e7evirmekte zorlan\u0131yor\u2026 Endi\u015fe dalgalar\u0131 vurduk\u00e7a vuruyor geminin g\u00f6vdesine\u2026 Bir o yana, bir bu yana yat\u0131yor batmamak i\u00e7in; endi\u015fe dalgalar\u0131nda kaybolmak veya karamsarl\u0131k karas\u0131na oturmak her an m\u00fcmk\u00fcn\u2026 Eminlik denizi bitiyor, g\u00fcvensizlik kapl\u0131yor benli\u011fin g\u00fcvertesine\u2026<\/p>\n
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G\u00fcl\u00fcmseyenlerin ger\u00e7e\u011fi ve sahtesi bu zamanlarda y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6sterir; sakin denizde g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc geminin m\u00fc\u015fterisi \u00e7oktur, biraz sallan\u0131versin siz o zaman g\u00f6r\u00fcn dostlar\u0131n samimisini\u2026 Gemiyi ilk terk eden kemirici farelerdir, en son da kaptan\u2026 K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck kay\u0131klarla kurtarabildi\u011fini kurtar\u0131r kaptan, son bir tanesiyle de kendini\u2026<\/p>\n
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Endi\u015fe dalgalar\u0131na kap\u0131l\u0131p \u00fcmitsizlikte bo\u011fulmak yok, yokun bitti\u011fi yerde yeni ufuklara k\u00fcrek \u00e7ekilir; umut adalar\u0131na, sakin koylara do\u011fru yol al\u0131n\u0131r\u2026 Hayat durmuyor, ak\u0131yor gidiyor\u2026 Bilinmez, belki de yeni k\u0131talar ke\u015ffedilecektir\u2026 Kim olmaz diyebilir, kaderin \u00e7izdi\u011fini kim silebilir?<\/p>\n
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Sandvi\u00e7 arabas\u0131n\u0131 s\u00fcren kaptan belli ki gemisini kaybetmi\u015f, umudunu de\u011fil\u2026 Umudu olmasayd\u0131 aksayan aya\u011f\u0131na ra\u011fmen halen y\u00fcr\u00fcr m\u00fcyd\u00fc sokak aralar\u0131nda? \u015eevk tekerle\u011fi d\u00f6nmese, ilerlemi\u015f ya\u015f\u0131na ald\u0131r\u0131\u015f etmeden ad\u0131mlar m\u0131yd\u0131 tozlu yollar\u0131? Belli ki sakin bir koy, dertlerini d\u00f6kece\u011fi bir ada ar\u0131yor, belki de yeniden b\u00fcy\u00fck denizlere a\u00e7\u0131lacak yeni k\u0131talarla kar\u015f\u0131la\u015facak\u2026 Hayat bu, varl\u0131\u011f\u0131 da bir anl\u0131k, yoklu\u011fu da\u2026 \u201cVar\u201d \u201cyok\u201d la d\u00f6nen d\u00f6ng\u00fcy\u00fc unutmamak ve unutturmamak i\u00e7in plaka belirginli\u011finde araban\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcn\u00fc bunun i\u00e7in yazm\u0131\u015f olsa gerek\u2026<\/p>\n
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G\u00f6renlerin y\u00fcrek denizinde hikmet dalgalanma yaps\u0131n diye yazd\u0131 her halde\u2026 Kimi co\u015fkun dersler \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131r, kimi dalga ge\u00e7er gider\u2026 Sandvi\u00e7 yemekten daha lezzetli, o ibretlik levhada yaz\u0131lanlar\u0131 okumak\u2026 L\u00fcks araban\u0131n cam\u0131ndan derin dersli k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck arabay\u0131 g\u00f6rmek daha b\u00fcy\u00fck bir ufuk bak\u0131\u015f, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnenler, hissedenler i\u00e7in\u2026 Hevesinin ak\u0131nt\u0131s\u0131na kap\u0131lanlar i\u00e7in ise hi\u00e7bir anlam\u0131 yok bu olup bitenlerin, onlar i\u00e7in anl\u0131k zevkler var, sahte sevgilileri pe\u015finde ko\u015fmak, samimiyetsiz dostlarla e\u011flenmek var\u2026 \u201cYok\u201d u bilmiyor daha, ama az sonra g\u00f6recekler.<\/p>\n
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09.06.2008 \u00c7INARIN G\u00d6LGES\u0130NDE duran l\u00fcks araban\u0131n i\u00e7inde arkada\u015f\u0131n\u0131n gelmesini berklerken, anlams\u0131z bak\u0131\u015flarla d\u0131\u015far\u0131 seyrediyordu\u2026 Kar\u015f\u0131dan a\u011f\u0131r a\u011f\u0131r gelen k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck sandvi\u00e7 arabas\u0131na g\u00f6z\u00fc tak\u0131ld\u0131, yakla\u015ft\u0131k\u00e7a ilgisi artt\u0131\u2026 Ac\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan de\u011fil, \u00f6ndeki k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck tabelada yaz\u0131lan metindi dikkatini \u00e7eken; \u201c Her g\u00fclene dost sanma, d\u00fc\u015fte g\u00f6r\u201d Yaz\u0131lan\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde i\u00e7inde bir k\u0131v\u0131lc\u0131m k\u0131p\u0131rdad\u0131, kendini toparlad\u0131, bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 adama y\u00f6nlendirdi\u2026 B\u00f6ylesi bir […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":4,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[9],"tags":[],"ppma_author":[138],"class_list":["post-85456","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-yazarlar"],"yoast_head":"\n