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YOL YORGUNLU\u011eU, g\u00fcn bitkinlili\u011fiyle eve d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f i\u00e7in durakta duruyordu\u2026 Kendi gibi birine rastlad\u0131, o da kaim validesine gidiyormu\u015f, \u015fakala\u015ft\u0131 arkada\u015f\u0131yla; damat gelecek diye b\u00f6rekler \u00e7\u00f6rekler haz\u0131rlan\u0131yordur diyerek\u2026 <\/p>\n
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Biraz tebess\u00fcmden sonra ciddile\u015fti arkada\u015f\u0131; me\u011fer validesi vefat edeli alt\u0131 g\u00fcn olmu\u015f, evde Kur\u2019an okunuyormu\u015f ak\u015famlar\u0131, onun i\u00e7in gidiyormu\u015f\u2026<\/p>\n
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Sohbetin rengi de\u011fi\u015fti, hayata olan bak\u0131\u015f farkl\u0131la\u015ft\u0131, hastal\u0131klardan, \u00f6l\u00fcmden konu\u015fulmaya ba\u015fland\u0131\u2026 Sokaklar, caddeler \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc unutturan sefahat seline kap\u0131lm\u0131\u015f \u00e7\u0131lg\u0131n dalgalar halinde ak\u0131yor olsa da, \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc yan\u0131 ba\u015flar\u0131nda, bir ad\u0131m, bir nefes \u00f6tede hissettiler\u2026<\/p>\n
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Fanili\u011fin fena uyu\u015fturdu\u011fu, g\u00f6z ve g\u00f6n\u00fcl boyayan cazibedar \u00e7arp\u0131k manzaralar\u0131na hi\u00e7bir \u015fekilde kap\u0131lmad\u0131k diyecek kadar g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc de\u011filiz\u2026 Nefsaniyetin, \u015feytaniyetin her y\u00f6nden, her koldan insileri eliyle geli\u015fi, geli\u015fi g\u00fczel de\u011fil, her \u015feyi ile \u015feytanca kurulmu\u015f tuzaklarla oldu\u011funu biliyor olmak bile bazen aldanmaya yetmiyor\u2026 <\/p>\n
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Hastal\u0131\u011f\u0131 dolay\u0131s\u0131yla ameliyat olmas\u0131 gerekiyormu\u015f annesinin, doktor a\u00e7m\u0131\u015f ve kapatm\u0131\u015f, yapacak bir \u015fey yok, eve g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcn demi\u015f\u2026 Son otuz saati sekarat halinde ge\u00e7irmi\u015f, bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131 belli belirsiz, sanki biraz oraya biraz buraya bak\u0131yor gibi dalg\u0131n ve derin\u2026 <\/p>\n
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\u00d6l\u00fcm an\u0131 yakla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131nda \u00e7ocuklar\u0131 yan\u0131nda toplanm\u0131\u015f, \u00f6nce biraz a\u011flam\u0131\u015f, sonras\u0131nda g\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f ve g\u00fclerek vefat etmi\u015f\u2026<\/p>\n
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Buradakilerinden ayr\u0131l\u0131yorum diye a\u011fl\u0131yor, oradakilere kavu\u015fuyorum diye g\u00fcl\u00fcyor; sanki do\u011fum gibi\u2026 A\u011flayarak do\u011fmak, g\u00fclerek \u00f6lmek, a\u011flama ve g\u00fclme aras\u0131nda ge\u00e7en \u201can-\u0131 seyyale\u201d \u00f6m\u00fcr\u2026 Ne uzun emeller i\u00e7in \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131ld\u0131, ne bitmez istekler pe\u015finde ko\u015fuldu; sevinildi \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcld\u00fc, yeti\u015fti yeti\u015fmedi, var oldu yok oldu, heyecan duyuldu s\u00fck\u00fbn solundu\u2026 Hepsi bitti, bir \u201can\u201da d\u00f6k\u00fcld\u00fc, \u00f6mr\u00fc bir nefes yuttu, bazen oldu nefeste bir \u00f6m\u00fcr solundu\u2026<\/p>\n
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Hayat uykusundan \u00f6l\u00fcm ger\u00e7e\u011fi uyand\u0131rd\u0131, bo\u015f \u015feylerle heder edilmemi\u015f hayat, \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc g\u00fcld\u00fcrd\u00fc\u2026 Hayatta diri olunmak isteniyorsa – hele \u00f6l\u00fclerin ve \u00f6lg\u00fcnlerin ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bu as\u0131rda \u2013 \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn diriltici nefesi daha fazla solunmal\u0131; neye sevilece\u011fi neye \u00fcz\u00fclece\u011fi, neyin a\u011flamaya de\u011fer neyin g\u00fclmeye de\u011fer oldu\u011funu bilmek i\u00e7in\u2026<\/p>\n
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En bilinen \u015fey \u00f6l\u00fcm, en gaflet edilen yine \u00f6l\u00fcm\u2026<\/p>\n
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Bir g\u00f6lgelik zamanda konu\u015furlarken, birinin otob\u00fcs\u00fc geldi, gitmeliydi, ayr\u0131l\u0131k vakti gelmi\u015fti, a\u011flanacak ne vard\u0131 bunda, g\u00fclerek vedala\u015ft\u0131lar, nas\u0131l olsa ge\u00e7ici bir ayr\u0131l\u0131kt\u0131 bu\u2026<\/p>\n
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B\u00fct\u00fcn zamanlar bir \u201can\u201d a, b\u00fct\u00fcn \u201can\u201dlar bir zamana d\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcyordu nihayetinde, as\u0131l olan bir \u201can\u201dda b\u00fct\u00fcn zamanlar\u0131 hissedebilmekti; \u00f6m\u00fcr a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7ekirde\u011fini, yine meyvesindeki \u00e7ekirde\u011fini, zahiri ya\u015fant\u0131y\u0131, batini derinli\u011fi hepsini birden ku\u015fatan nazara sahip olmakt\u0131 g\u00fclerek \u00f6lmenin anahtar\u0131. G\u00fclerek gitmek duas\u0131yla\u2026<\/p>\n
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18.08.2008 YOL YORGUNLU\u011eU, g\u00fcn bitkinlili\u011fiyle eve d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f i\u00e7in durakta duruyordu\u2026 Kendi gibi birine rastlad\u0131, o da kaim validesine gidiyormu\u015f, \u015fakala\u015ft\u0131 arkada\u015f\u0131yla; damat gelecek diye b\u00f6rekler \u00e7\u00f6rekler haz\u0131rlan\u0131yordur diyerek\u2026 Biraz tebess\u00fcmden sonra ciddile\u015fti arkada\u015f\u0131; me\u011fer validesi vefat edeli alt\u0131 g\u00fcn olmu\u015f, evde Kur\u2019an okunuyormu\u015f ak\u015famlar\u0131, onun i\u00e7in gidiyormu\u015f\u2026 Sohbetin rengi de\u011fi\u015fti, hayata olan bak\u0131\u015f farkl\u0131la\u015ft\u0131, hastal\u0131klardan, […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":4,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[9],"tags":[],"ppma_author":[138],"class_list":["post-85449","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-yazarlar"],"yoast_head":"\n