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H\u00c2FIZA AR\u015e\u0130V\u0130ME kaydolunmu\u015f bir nottur \u2018kitabe-i seng-i mezar.\u2019 Kim yazm\u0131\u015f, kime yazm\u0131\u015f, ben nerede okumu\u015fum hat\u0131rlam\u0131yorum; ama \u2018kitabe-i seng-i mezar\u2019 ba\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131 ta\u015f\u0131yan bir edeb\u00ee metni okudu\u011fumu \u00e7ok iyi biliyorum.<\/p>\n
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\u00c7ok iyi bildi\u011fim bir di\u011fer husus, \u2018seng-i mezar\u2019 ile, yani mezarta\u015f\u0131yla ilgili okumalar\u0131m\u0131n, yaln\u0131zca bu edeb\u00ee metinle s\u0131n\u0131rl\u0131 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131. Hemen her mezar\u0131n bir de ta\u015f\u0131, hemen her mezarta\u015f\u0131n\u0131n ise bir de \u2018kitabe\u2019si bulundu\u011funa g\u00f6re, bug\u00fcne kadar \u00f6l\u00fcm \u00fclkesinin g\u00fcmr\u00fck kap\u0131s\u0131 h\u00fckm\u00fcndeki mezarl\u0131klarda ka\u00e7 bin \u2018kitabe-i seng-i mezar\u2019la kar\u015f\u0131la\u015f\u0131p \u2018k\u0131raat-\u0131 seng-i mezar\u2019 eyledim, kimbilir. Kimi tek kelimelik, kimi uzun \u00f6zge\u00e7mi\u015fler y\u00fckl\u00fc, kimi ac\u0131 m\u0131sralar ta\u015f\u0131yan, kimi \u00fcst\u00fcne \u00fcstl\u00fck foto\u011frafl\u0131 kimbilir ka\u00e7 bin mezarta\u015f\u0131 kitabesi okudum, galiba bir Allah, bir de yaz\u0131c\u0131 melekler bilir.<\/p>\n
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“Biricik varl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z”<\/p>\n
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“Sevgili e\u015fim”<\/p>\n
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“T\u00fcrkiye At\u0131c\u0131l\u0131k Federasyonunu kuran adam”<\/p>\n
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“Bir goncayd\u0131m d\u00fcnyada<\/p>\n
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A\u00e7amadan k\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131m<\/p>\n
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23 ya\u015f\u0131nda trafik kazas\u0131nda \u00f6len …”<\/p>\n
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“S\u00e2lih\u00e2t-\u0131 nisv\u00e2ndan …”<\/p>\n
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“Ruhuna el-F\u00e2tiha.”<\/p>\n
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\u00d6yle yahut b\u00f6yle, okudu\u011fum her mezarta\u015f\u0131, muhtemelen g\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcp gidenin, ama bilhassa gerida kalanlar\u0131n i\u00e7 d\u00fcnyalar\u0131n\u0131, d\u00fcnya g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015flerini, hayata bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 ihsas etmi\u015ftir bana. Bir mezarl\u0131kta dola\u015f\u0131rken, bir ailenin, bir \u015fehrin, bir toplumun veya bir \u00e7a\u011f\u0131n genel portresini mezarlar\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131karman\u0131n m\u00fcmk\u00fcn oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015f\u00fcmd\u00fcr her keresinde.<\/p>\n
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Ger\u00e7ekten, mezarta\u015flar\u0131, bir insan\u0131n hayat\u0131nda neyi \u00f6ne \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n, veya hayatta iken muhatap oldu\u011fu insanlar\u0131n neye \u00f6nem verdi\u011finin belgesidir. Mesel\u00e2, mezarta\u015f\u0131na emekli g\u00fcmr\u00fck m\u00fcd\u00fcr\u00fc yaz\u0131lan ki\u015fi, hayat\u0131na \u2018g\u00fcmr\u00fck\u2019 ile \u2018m\u00fcd\u00fcrl\u00fck\u2019\u00fcn m\u00fch\u00fcr vurdu\u011fu; b\u00fct\u00fcn hayat\u0131, mezar\u0131n \u00f6te taraf\u0131nda h\u00fck\u00fcms\u00fcz kalan bu iki kelime ekseninde \u015fekillenmi\u015f biridir. Aile mezarl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n ortas\u0131nda iri harflerle \u2018Amiral Filanca Ailesi\u2019 yaz\u0131yorsa, bilin ki, b\u00fct\u00fcn aile, amiral olan filanca ferdini eksen edinmi\u015ftir. Her yerde filanca aile ferdinin amiral olmas\u0131na dayanarak \u015feref ve itibar aram\u0131\u015f; e\u015fi-dostu taraf\u0131ndan “Filanca amiralin o\u011fludur, han\u0131m\u0131d\u0131r, torunudur” diye takdim edilmi\u015f; ve de, ailenin ba\u015fka hi\u00e7bir ferdi b\u00f6yle \u2018sayg\u0131n\u2019 bir r\u00fctbeye ula\u015fmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131r.<\/p>\n
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\u00d6te yandan, \u015fehir isimlerinin \u00f6ne \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131 mezarlar, bir \u2018g\u00f6\u00e7\u2019\u00fc veya \u2018hicret\u2019i, ama h\u00e2l\u00e2 g\u00f6\u00e7 edilen as\u0131l yurda d\u00f6n\u00fck aidiyet duygular\u0131n\u0131n hakimiyetini yans\u0131t\u0131r. Kemaliyeli Filanca\u2019n\u0131n mezar\u0131ndaki \u2018ruhuna el-f\u00e2tiha\u2019 yaz\u0131s\u0131 herkese bakmakta, ama bilhassa Kemaliyelilerden bir \u2018hem\u015fehri k\u0131ya\u011f\u0131\u2019 beklemektedir. Bir ba\u015fkas\u0131 “Afyon\u2019un \u015euhut kazas\u0131 Ball\u0131p\u0131nar k\u00f6y\u00fc e\u015fraf\u0131ndan” olarak mezar\u0131nda yat\u0131yorsa, bu, ger\u00e7ekte ailenin \u2018\u015feref\u2019 tak\u0131nt\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n terc\u00fcmesidir. Bir ba\u015fkas\u0131n\u0131n mezarta\u015f\u0131nda \u2018Sar\u0131lar k\u00f6y\u00fc muhtar\u0131\u2019 yaz\u0131yorsa, bilin ki, bu insan hayat\u0131n\u0131 \u2018muhtar\u2019 kelimesinin \u00e7evreledi\u011fi \u2018muhataral\u0131\u2019 bir vaziyette ya\u015fam\u0131\u015ft\u0131r.<\/p>\n
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\u0130\u015fte, mezarta\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 bu nazarla okudu\u011funda, insan\u0131n kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na, kimi yirmi, kimi seksen y\u0131l ya\u015fanm\u0131\u015f hayatlar\u0131n en k\u0131sa \u00f6zetleri \u00e7\u0131kar. Mevtan\u0131n hayat\u0131ndan \u00f6te, geride kalanlar\u0131n hayat anlay\u0131\u015f\u0131; ve bilhassa ilgili toplumun hayata bak\u0131\u015f\u0131 da. S\u00f6zgelimi, mezarta\u015flar\u0131na \u2018adliye dairesinde ba\u015fk\u00e2tip,\u2019 \u2018filanbank\u0131n ikinci m\u00fcd\u00fcr\u00fc,\u2019 \u2018istasyon \u00e2miri,\u2019 \u2018emekli ba\u015f m\u00fcd\u00fcr muavini\u2019 gibi \u00fcnvanlar\u0131n yaz\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir toplum, bilin ki, \u00fcnvan\u0131n \u00f6nemli oldu\u011fu; \u00f6zellikle devlete ait bir g\u00f6revin \u00f6ne \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131; a\u00e7\u0131k\u00e7as\u0131 \u2018devlet\u00e7i\u2019 bir toplum demektir. \u2018\u0130lk bilmemneci,\u2019 \u2018ilk at\u0131c\u0131,\u2019 \u2018ilk tutucu\u2019 gibi mezarta\u015f\u0131 yaz\u0131lar\u0131 ise, bu toplumun anlaml\u0131 olsun olmas\u0131n, bir i\u015fe yaras\u0131n yaramas\u0131n \u2018ilk\u2019lere de\u011fer verdi\u011fini bildirir. \u2018Yarbay,\u2019 \u2018albay,\u2019 \u2018t\u00fcmgeneral,\u2019 \u2018\u00fcste\u011fmen\u2019 gibi \u00fcnvanlar mezarta\u015flar\u0131na ta\u015f\u0131nm\u0131\u015fsa, o toplumun militarist bir zihniyetin derin izlerini ta\u015f\u0131yor oldu\u011funu anlaman\u0131z i\u00e7in ayr\u0131ca gazete man\u015fetleri, TV\u2019lerin ana haber b\u00fcltenleri ve baz\u0131 resmi erk\u00e2n\u0131n \u2018\u00f6nemli\u2019 a\u00e7\u0131klamalar\u0131 ile vakit harcaman\u0131za gerek kalmayacakt\u0131r. Hani, “\u00c7ocuktan al haberi” s\u00f6z\u00fc “Mezarta\u015f\u0131ndan al haberi” \u015feklinde \u00e7evrilse, elhak yerindedir.<\/p>\n
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Yine mezarta\u015f\u0131nda filan yerin falancas\u0131, filancan\u0131n da torunu gibi soya\u011fac\u0131 d\u00f6k\u00fcmleri \u00f6ne \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yorsa, bu ailede ciddi bir \u2018asalet\u2019 hastal\u0131\u011f\u0131 oldu\u011funu kolayca anlayabilirsiniz.<\/p>\n
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\u00d6te yandan, mezarta\u015flar\u0131na do\u011fum-\u00f6l\u00fcm tarihlerinin yaz\u0131lmas\u0131, neredeyse \u00e2dettendir. Bir kere \u00f6ld\u00fckten sonra, ne tarihte \u00f6l\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc pek bir anlam ifade eder mi, me\u00e7hul; ama bu rakamlar\u0131n pek \u00e7ok insan\u0131n aritmetik zek\u00e2s\u0131n\u0131n geli\u015fmesine veya en az\u0131ndan muhafazas\u0131na katk\u0131da bulundu\u011fu da bir v\u00e2k\u0131ad\u0131r. Mezarta\u015flar\u0131na bak\u0131l\u0131r, \u00f6l\u00fcm tarihi \u00fcste, do\u011fum tarihi alta konularak kafadan bir \u00e7\u0131karma i\u015flemi yap\u0131l\u0131r ve “Yaz\u0131k” denilir, “Bak\u0131n bu 18 ya\u015f\u0131nda \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015f.” “Ooo, buna bak\u0131n, 93 sene ya\u015fam\u0131\u015f.” “\u015euna bak, kar\u0131s\u0131 da, kendisi de 86 sene ya\u015fam\u0131\u015f.” Kabrin \u00f6te taraf\u0131 i\u00e7in, hayat\u0131n ne kadar ya\u015fand\u0131\u011f\u0131 de\u011fil, nas\u0131l ya\u015fand\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00f6nemlidir; ama bu tarafta kalanlar az zaman ya\u015fayanlara \u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcr, \u00e7ok zaman ya\u015fayanlara sevinirler. Mezarta\u015flar\u0131, bu noktada pek ketumdur; i\u015fin ger\u00e7ek y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc s\u00f6ylemezler. Ayn\u0131 mezarl\u0131kta yat\u0131yor olsalar ve mezarta\u015flar\u0131na do\u011fum-\u00f6l\u00fcm tarihleri de yaz\u0131lsa, ihtimal ki insanlar 30\u2019una varmadan \u00f6len Mus\u2019ab b. Umeyr\u2019e \u00fcz\u00fclecek, seksen k\u00fcsur sene ya\u015fam\u0131\u015f Ebu Leheb\u2019e ise kesinkes imrenecek ve onun ad\u0131na sevineceklerdir. Oysa, kabrin \u00f6te taraf\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6ren keskin g\u00f6zler, seksen k\u00fcsur sene cehennem \u00e7ukuruna do\u011fru yol alan kayalar\u0131n g\u00fcmb\u00fcrt\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc de, otuzuna varmadan her\u015feyini her\u015feyin Sahibine tevdi eden Mus\u2019ab\u2019lar\u0131n bir ku\u015f kadar rahatl\u0131kla semalara y\u00fckseli\u015fini g\u00f6rebilmi\u015flerdir. Keza, 38 ya\u015f\u0131nda \u00f6len \u015eeyh Galib\u2019in 98 ve 103 ya\u015f\u0131nda iki koskoca cumhurba\u015fkan\u0131n\u0131n bir araya gelseler de asla eri\u015fmeyecekleri sonsuz bir mutlulu\u011fa kavu\u015ftu\u011fu herhalde hakikattir. Ama birinin gen\u00e7 ya\u015fta \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc haber veren mezarta\u015f\u0131na bak\u0131p Galib\u2019e imrenen az; di\u011ferlerinin g\u00f6rkemli mezarlar\u0131na ve kabrin \u00f6tesinde kesinlikle ge\u00e7er ak\u00e7e olmayan cafcafl\u0131 \u00fcnvanlar\u0131na imrenenlerin say\u0131s\u0131 ise bir hayli fazlad\u0131r. Zira, \u2018nur-u fikir kalbden gelir.\u2019 Kalbin rehberli\u011fine ba\u015fvurmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 s\u00fcrece, akl\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fc k\u00f6rd\u00fcr. Niteli\u011fe bakmaz, niceli\u011fe aldan\u0131r. Az \u00f6m\u00fcrlere \u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcr, \u00e7ok olana sevinir. Ve mezarta\u015flar\u0131, i\u015fte bu aritmetik kullan\u0131m ile, niceli\u011fe \u00f6nem veren sath\u00ee bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 ele verir.<\/p>\n
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Yine mezar ta\u015flar\u0131, \u015fekli ve bi\u00e7imi ile de \u00e7ok \u015fey s\u00f6yler. Mezarta\u015f\u0131 \u2018s\u0131radan\u2019 bir ta\u015f ise, bilin ki, orada yatan ki\u015fi, \u2018ord. prof. dr.\u2019 ise de, m\u00fctevazi bir ki\u015fidir. Mezarta\u015f\u0131n\u0131n mermer veya granit olarak kalitesinden, bu mezarta\u015f\u0131n\u0131 yapt\u0131ranlar\u0131n ev d\u00f6\u015femini \u00e7\u0131karabilirsiniz. Mevtas\u0131n\u0131n mezarta\u015f\u0131n\u0131 y\u00fcksek ve heybetli yapan bir ailenin sair insanlara \u2018tepeden bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131\u2019n\u0131 anlamak i\u00e7in, bana kal\u0131rsa, ayr\u0131ca yanlar\u0131na sokulup ger\u00e7ekten a\u015fa\u011f\u0131lanman\u0131z gerekmez.<\/p>\n
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Mezarta\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 okurken, i\u015fte hepsi d\u00fcnyada kalan b\u00f6ylesi mesajlar\u0131 okur insan. Mezarta\u015f\u0131nda, \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn berisinde kalan d\u00fcnyal\u0131lar konu\u015fur; \u00f6l\u00fcm \u00f6tesine dair mesajlar\u0131 ise, \u00e7oklukla okuyan olmaz. Oysa, granit mermerlerin \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcmekten korudu\u011fu bir insan olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 gibi, alt\u0131n lahitlerin M\u00fcnker-Nekir sorgusundan muaf k\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir fani de ge\u00e7memi\u015ftir \u015fu d\u00fcnyadan. Kabrin \u00f6te taraf\u0131nda olup bitenler bir i\u015fitilse, g\u00f6r\u00fclecektir ki, ancak \u2018El-B\u00e2ki H\u00fcvelb\u00e2ki\u2019 yazan mezarta\u015flar\u0131 ho\u015ftur, gerisi tamamen bo\u015ftur.<\/p>\n
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Ger\u00e7ekten, t\u00fcm mezar ta\u015flar\u0131, insana, “K\u00fcll\u00fc men aleyh\u00e2 f\u00e2n” s\u0131rr\u0131n\u0131 okutur. Yarat\u0131lm\u0131\u015f olan her ne varsa \u00f6l\u00fcml\u00fcd\u00fcr; \u015fu d\u00fcnyada her neye sahiplik iddia etmi\u015f olursa olsun, iddias\u0131 bo\u015funad\u0131r. M\u00fclk\u00fcn ilk Sahibi, ayn\u0131 zamanda son Sahibidir. Yaln\u0131z O B\u00e2ki\u2019dir ve mezarta\u015flar\u0131na yaz\u0131lan di\u011fer t\u00fcm \u015feyler, yaln\u0131zca hik\u00e2yedir.<\/p>\n
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21.10.2000 H\u00c2FIZA AR\u015e\u0130V\u0130ME kaydolunmu\u015f bir nottur \u2018kitabe-i seng-i mezar.\u2019 Kim yazm\u0131\u015f, kime yazm\u0131\u015f, ben nerede okumu\u015fum hat\u0131rlam\u0131yorum; ama \u2018kitabe-i seng-i mezar\u2019 ba\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131 ta\u015f\u0131yan bir edeb\u00ee metni okudu\u011fumu \u00e7ok iyi biliyorum. \u00c7ok iyi bildi\u011fim bir di\u011fer husus, \u2018seng-i mezar\u2019 ile, yani mezarta\u015f\u0131yla ilgili okumalar\u0131m\u0131n, yaln\u0131zca bu edeb\u00ee metinle s\u0131n\u0131rl\u0131 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131. Hemen her mezar\u0131n bir de ta\u015f\u0131, […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[9],"tags":[],"ppma_author":[132],"class_list":["post-83821","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-yazarlar"],"yoast_head":"\n