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\u0130SL\u00c2M\u2019I BEN\u0130MSEMEM, BE\u015e YILI a\u015fan bir zaman ald\u0131 benim i\u00e7in. On\u00fc\u00e7 ya\u015f\u0131ndan beri, \u0130sa taraf\u0131ndan istikbalde ortaya \u00e7\u0131kaca\u011f\u0131 noktas\u0131nda uyar\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z b\u00e2t\u0131l inanc\u0131n \u0130sl\u00e2m oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyordum. Daha da b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fck\u00e7e, rahip olma fikri yerle\u015fti akl\u0131ma. \u00dcniversiteye ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131mda, intisap edece\u011fim bir H\u0131ristiyan tarikat\u0131 ar\u0131yordum. Stigmatine\u2019lere kat\u0131ld\u0131m daha sonra.<\/p>\n
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Bu zaman zarf\u0131nda, \u0130ran\u2019dan gelmi\u015f bir kad\u0131nla tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Birbirimize a\u015f\u0131k olduk. Rahiplik fikrini bir kenara b\u0131rakt\u0131m. G\u00fcvenlikle ilgili bir i\u015f buldum ve bir s\u00fcre sonra, ona benimle evlenip evlenmeyece\u011fini sordum. “Evet” cevab\u0131n\u0131 verdi. Birka\u00e7 hafta sonra da, kendisiyle evlenmek istiyorsam, \u0130sl\u00e2m\u2019a d\u00f6nmem gerekti\u011fini s\u00f6ylemeye ba\u015flad\u0131. “Kesinlikle hay\u0131r!” cevab\u0131n\u0131 verdim. Kendisi M\u00fcsl\u00fcman olarak kalabilirdi; ben de Katolik olarak kal\u0131rd\u0131m. O, evlilik tarihimizi erteleyip durarak, birka\u00e7 y\u0131l boyu beni dinine d\u00f6nd\u00fcrmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Saatler boyu dinle ilgili tart\u0131\u015fmalar yapt\u0131k. Bir zaman sonra, bana “Ya \u0130sl\u00e2m\u2019a d\u00f6nersin, veya seni terkederim” dedi. D\u00f6nmeyece\u011fimi s\u00f6yledim. O da beni terketti.<\/p>\n
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\u0130\u015fimi b\u0131rak\u0131p bat\u0131ya g\u00f6\u00e7t\u00fcm. Art\u0131k, \u0130sl\u00e2m\u2019da ve M\u00fcsl\u00fcmanlarda yanl\u0131\u015f bir\u015feylerin olmas\u0131 gerekti\u011finden emindim. Bu M\u00fcsl\u00fcman milletlerin k\u00fcliyen ortadan kald\u0131r\u0131lmas\u0131 gerekti\u011fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyordum. L\u00e2kin, bir sava\u015f a\u00e7\u0131lmas\u0131 filan de\u011fildi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm; sava\u015f dedi\u011fin, olsa olsa savunma ama\u00e7l\u0131 veya Ha\u00e7l\u0131 Seferleri kabilinden olurdu (ve bunun olmayaca\u011f\u0131 da a\u00e7\u0131kt\u0131). Dolay\u0131s\u0131yla, bu i\u015fi, M\u00fcsl\u00fcmanlar\u0131 H\u0131ristiyan inanc\u0131na d\u00f6nd\u00fcrerek yapabilece\u011fimi farkettim.<\/p>\n
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Arizona\u2019da iken, Kore\u2019den gelmi\u015f bir kad\u0131nla tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Kendisiyle \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131m zaman zarf\u0131nda, tekrar \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmalar\u0131ma ba\u015flad\u0131m ve M\u00fcsl\u00fcmanlar\u0131 dinlerinden d\u00f6nd\u00fcrmeye gayret ettim. M\u00fcsl\u00fcmanlarla tart\u0131\u015fmalar yaparak ve de b\u00fct\u00fcn kutsal kitaplardaki mevzular\u0131 ara\u015ft\u0131rarak ge\u00e7en iki y\u0131ldan sonra da, \u0130sl\u00e2m\u2019\u0131 benimsedim.<\/p>\n
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\u015eimdi, bunun sebebi sorulsa, anlataca\u011f\u0131m bir\u00e7ok \u015fey var. \u0130sa aleyhisselam\u0131n Allah olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 ger\u00e7e\u011finden Teslise ve Tevhide kadar\u00d6 \u0130sl\u00e2m\u2019\u0131 benimseyi\u015fimin b\u00fct\u00fcn gerek\u00e7elerine tek tek belirtmeye kalksam, bu yaz\u0131 son derece uzard\u0131. Kitap yazmak gerekirdi.<\/p>\n
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\u0130sl\u00e2m\u2019\u0131 benimsememden sonra, Koreli k\u0131z arkada\u015f\u0131m \u0130nsuk, \u0130sl\u00e2m\u2019\u0131 terketmem ve Katolik inanc\u0131na geri d\u00f6nmem i\u00e7in bana alt\u0131 ay m\u00fchlet tan\u0131d\u0131. Ona, “Ben M\u00fcsl\u00fcman olarak kal\u0131rken, sen de kendi Katolik inanc\u0131n\u0131 s\u00fcrd\u00fcrsen ho\u015f olur” dedim. Alt\u0131 ay sonra, \u0130nsuk bana H\u0131ristiyanl\u0131\u011fa geri d\u00f6n\u00fcp d\u00f6nmeyece\u011fimi sordu. Ben “Hay\u0131r” cevab\u0131n\u0131 verince de beni terketti.<\/p>\n
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28.12.2003 \u0130SL\u00c2M\u2019I BEN\u0130MSEMEM, BE\u015e YILI a\u015fan bir zaman ald\u0131 benim i\u00e7in. On\u00fc\u00e7 ya\u015f\u0131ndan beri, \u0130sa taraf\u0131ndan istikbalde ortaya \u00e7\u0131kaca\u011f\u0131 noktas\u0131nda uyar\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z b\u00e2t\u0131l inanc\u0131n \u0130sl\u00e2m oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyordum. Daha da b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fck\u00e7e, rahip olma fikri yerle\u015fti akl\u0131ma. \u00dcniversiteye ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131mda, intisap edece\u011fim bir H\u0131ristiyan tarikat\u0131 ar\u0131yordum. Stigmatine\u2019lere kat\u0131ld\u0131m daha sonra. Bu zaman zarf\u0131nda, \u0130ran\u2019dan gelmi\u015f bir kad\u0131nla tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Birbirimize […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[9],"tags":[],"ppma_author":[132],"class_list":["post-83684","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-yazarlar"],"yoast_head":"\n