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\u0130SKAND\u0130NAV ASILLI B\u0130R A\u0130LEN\u0130N Kanada do\u011fumlu bir \u00e7ocu\u011fuyum ve Kanada\u2019da b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fcm. 1993 \u015eubat\u2019\u0131nda, yirmi\u00fc\u00e7 ya\u015f\u0131nda M\u00fcsl\u00fcman oldum. O zamana kadar herhangi bir dine ba\u011fl\u0131 de\u011fildim ger\u00e7i, ama ateist de de\u011fildim. Ond\u00f6rt-onbe\u015f ya\u015f\u0131ma geldi\u011fimde dine dair birtak\u0131m \u015feyler d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m ve daha o zaman tevhide, Allah\u2019\u0131n birli\u011fine inanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. H\u0131ristiyanl\u0131k asla ilgimi \u00e7ekmedi.<\/p>\n
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M\u00fcsl\u00fcmanlarla ilk kez temas\u0131m, 1988\u2019de de\u011fi\u015fik \u00fclkelerden gelmi\u015f baz\u0131 M\u00fcsl\u00fcman \u00f6\u011frencilerle tan\u0131\u015fmamla ger\u00e7ekle\u015fti. Onlar sayesinde \u0130sl\u00e2m hakk\u0131nda bir par\u00e7a m\u00e2l\u00fbmat edindim. Mesel\u00e2, Ramazan orucundan haberdar oldum. Ancak, ger\u00e7ekte 1992\u2019ye kadar \u0130sl\u00e2m\u2019la ilgilenmi\u015f oldu\u011fum s\u00f6ylenemez. 1992 y\u0131l\u0131n\u0131n yaz aylar\u0131nda, bir Kanada gazetesi, bizatih\u00ee \u0130sl\u00e2m\u2019\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131lamaya matuf bir te\u015febb\u00fcs dahilinde, baz\u0131 M\u00fcsl\u00fcmanlar\u0131n \u0130sl\u00e2m\u2019a ayk\u0131r\u0131 davran\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 malzeme edinerek \u0130sl\u00e2m\u2019a sald\u0131ran bir dizi makale yay\u0131nlad\u0131. Gayrim\u00fcslimler \u0130sl\u00e2m\u2019\u0131 baz\u0131 m\u00fcsl\u00fcmanlar\u0131n davran\u0131\u015flar\u0131na bakarak yarg\u0131lama e\u011filimindedirler\u00f3s\u00f6zkonusu M\u00fcsl\u00fcmanlar\u0131n bu davran\u0131\u015flar\u0131 \u0130sl\u00e2m\u00ee olmasa bile. Hen\u00fcz M\u00fcsl\u00fcman olmu\u015f biri de\u011fildim; l\u00e2kin, s\u00f6zkonusu makaleler o kadar rezil\u00e2ne idi ki, gazetenin edit\u00f6r\u00fcne \u0130sl\u00e2m\u2019\u0131 savunan bir mektup g\u00f6nderdim. Bu vesileyle \u0130sl\u00e2m\u2019\u0131n ger\u00e7ekten ne oldu\u011funu merak etmeye ba\u015flad\u0131m. Amerika\u2019daki M\u00fcsl\u00fcman \u00fcniversite \u00f6\u011frencilerinin derne\u011fi olan MSA\u2019in okudu\u011fum \u00fcniversitede birka\u00e7 ay \u00f6nce d\u00fczenledi\u011fi \u0130sl\u00e2m\u2019\u0131 Tan\u0131ma Haftas\u0131nda a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131 sergide g\u00f6r\u00fcp ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m baz\u0131 makaleleri yeniden okudum. Bu makalelerden biri, \u0130sa Aleyhisselam\u2019\u0131n bir \u0130sl\u00e2m peygamberi oldu\u011funa dairdi. Ayr\u0131ca, \u00fcniversiteden tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir M\u00fcsl\u00fcmandan bana \u0130sl\u00e2m hakk\u0131nda baz\u0131 kitaplar getirmesini rica ettim. Getirdi\u011fi kitaplar topyek\u00fcn \u0130sl\u00e2m ideolojisi hakk\u0131ndayd\u0131 ve iki tan\u0131nm\u0131\u015f M\u00fcsl\u00fcman yazar taraf\u0131ndan yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015flard\u0131. Etkilenmi\u015ftim. “\u0130sl\u00e2m bu mu? Buysa, do\u011fru bir\u015fey gibi g\u00f6z\u00fck\u00fcyor” diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm.<\/p>\n
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Takip eden aylarda, \u00fcniversitedeki derslerimi takip ederken, \u0130sl\u00e2m hakk\u0131ndaki ara\u015ft\u0131rmam\u0131 devam ettirecek bo\u015f zaman\u0131m da oldu ve Dr. Muhammed Heykel\u2019in Hazreti Muhammed\u2019in Hayat\u0131 adl\u0131 eseri gibi otantik \u0130sl\u00e2m\u00ee eserleri okudum. Anlad\u0131m ki, \u0130sl\u00e2m\u2019\u0131n ger\u00e7ekte ne oldu\u011funu medyadan \u00f6\u011frenmek kesinlikle imk\u00e2ns\u0131z! Ayr\u0131ca, \u0130sl\u00e2m dairesine yeni girenlerin, \u0130sl\u00e2m\u2019a ba\u011fl\u0131 olduklar\u0131n\u0131 ifade eden ama insanlar\u0131 yanl\u0131\u015f yola sevkeden sapk\u0131n gruplar\u0131n yazd\u0131klar\u0131ndan ka\u00e7\u0131nma noktas\u0131nda da \u00f6zellikle dikkatli olmalar\u0131 gerek. Ve, bir yazar\u0131n Arap\u00e7a bir isim ta\u015f\u0131yor olmas\u0131, mutlaka onun bilgi ve marifet sahibi bir M\u00fcsl\u00fcman oldu\u011fu anlam\u0131na gelmiyor. M\u00fcsl\u00fcman ismi ta\u015f\u0131yan bir yazar, \u0130sl\u00e2m hakk\u0131nda insanlar\u0131 bilgilendirecek bir M\u00fcsl\u00fcman olmayabilir, hatta M\u00fcsl\u00fcman bile olmayabilir. Dahas\u0131, bana hi\u00e7 mi hi\u00e7 bask\u0131da bulunmayan bilgi ve marifet sahibi M\u00fcsl\u00fcman erkekler ve han\u0131mlardan \u0130sl\u00e2m hakk\u0131nda bir\u015feyler \u00f6\u011frendim. Bu s\u00fcre zarf\u0131nda davran\u0131\u015f\u0131m\u0131 \u0130sl\u00e2m\u00eele\u015ftirmeye ba\u015flad\u0131m; ki, bu muazzam bir de\u011fi\u015fim gerektirmiyordu benim i\u00e7in. Alkol kullanmaktan ve domuz eti yemekten oldum olas\u0131 ka\u00e7\u0131nan biriydim. Ayr\u0131ca, muhafazak\u00e2r, edepli bir giyim tarz\u0131n\u0131 hep tercih etmi\u015ftim ve evimin d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda makyajl\u0131, parf\u00fcm s\u00fcr\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015f halde veya m\u00fccevherat tak\u0131narak dola\u015fmaktan zaten uzak durmaktayd\u0131m. O y\u00fczden, ilk etapta, \u0130sl\u00e2m\u00ee usulde kesilmi\u015f etleri yemeye ba\u015flad\u0131m. Bu zaman zarf\u0131nda, hayat\u0131mda ilk kez, bir mescidi ziyaret ettim\u00f3 bulundu\u011fum \u015fehirdeki bir mescidi\u00d6<\/p>\n
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\u0130sl\u00e2m\u2019\u0131 ke\u015ffedinceye kadar, onun hakk\u0131nda hemen hemen hi\u00e7bir \u015fey bilmiyordum. \u2018Ke\u015ffetmek\u2019ten s\u00f6z ediyorum; \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc medya kanal\u0131yla her zaman kendisine dair bir\u015feyler i\u015fitti\u011fim \u2018\u0130sl\u00e2m\u2019 ger\u00e7ek \u0130sl\u00e2m de\u011fil. O zamana kadar \u0130sl\u00e2m\u2019\u0131n insan elinin eseri ba\u015fka bir din oldu\u011funu san\u0131yordum, onun Hakikat oldu\u011fundan habersizdim. Ayr\u0131ca, bir insan\u0131n M\u00fcsl\u00fcman say\u0131lmas\u0131 i\u00e7in, M\u00fcsl\u00fcman olarak yeti\u015ftirilmi\u015f olmas\u0131 gerekti\u011fini de san\u0131yordum. B\u00fct\u00fcn insanlar\u0131n M\u00fcsl\u00fcman olarak, yani \u0130sl\u00e2m \u00fczere, yani Yarat\u0131c\u0131ya teslim olmu\u015f olarak do\u011fdu\u011fu ger\u00e7e\u011finden habersizdim. Pek \u00e7ok \u2018Bat\u0131l\u0131\u2019 gibi, \u0130sl\u00e2m\u2019\u0131 \u2018Do\u011fu\u2019yla \u00f6zde\u015fle\u015ftirmi\u015ftim ve \u0130sl\u00e2m\u2019\u0131n gerek zaman, gerek mek\u00e2n itibar\u0131yla evrensel oldu\u011funu bilmiyordum. Bununla birlikte, elhamd\u00fclillah, \u0130sl\u00e2m hakk\u0131nda hi\u00e7bir zaman olumsuz duygular ta\u015f\u0131mam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. \u0130sl\u00e2m\u2019a dair daha fazla bilgi edindik\u00e7e, \u015funu da ziyadesiyle anlamaya ba\u015flad\u0131m: Ben, umum\u00ee anlamda M\u00fcsl\u00fcman say\u0131lmasam da, ger\u00e7ekte zaten M\u00fcsl\u00fcmanm\u0131\u015f\u0131m; \u0130sl\u00e2m\u2019\u0131n va\u2019zetti\u011fi bir\u00e7ok iman esas\u0131n\u0131 kabul edegelmi\u015fim zaten.<\/p>\n
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D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcp ta\u015f\u0131narak \u0130sl\u00e2m\u2019\u0131n esas olarak ne oldu\u011fu ve M\u00fcsl\u00fcman bir ki\u015finin g\u00f6revlerinin ve yapmas\u0131 gereken as\u0131l vazifenin neler oldu\u011fu konusunda b\u00f6ylesi bir a\u015final\u0131k sa\u011flad\u0131ktan sonra, \u0130sl\u00e2m\u2019\u0131 kabul etmeye ve bir M\u00fcslime olarak ya\u015famaya haz\u0131r hale geldi\u011fimi hissettim. Elhamd\u00fclillah, evde oldu\u011fum bir g\u00fcn kelime-i \u015fehadet getirdim ve be\u015f vakit namaz k\u0131lmaya ba\u015flad\u0131m. Bu, 1993 \u015eubat\u2019\u0131nda, oru\u00e7 ay\u0131 Ramazan\u2019\u0131n ba\u015flamas\u0131ndan birka\u00e7 g\u00fcn \u00f6nce ger\u00e7ekle\u015fti. \u00d6n\u00fcm\u00fczde Ramazan ay\u0131 varken, Ramazan orucunu ka\u00e7\u0131rmak istemedim! Oru\u00e7, bana tahmin etti\u011fimden \u00e7ok daha kolay geldi; oru\u00e7 tutmazdan evvel, a\u00e7l\u0131ktan bay\u0131labilece\u011fim endi\u015fesi ta\u015f\u0131yordum, ama hi\u00e7 de \u00f6yle olmad\u0131. \u0130lk etapta namaz k\u0131lma ve oru\u00e7 tutma eksenindeki yeni g\u00fcndelik hayata al\u0131\u015fma noktas\u0131nda belli bir \u2018intibak s\u00fcreci\u2019 ge\u00e7irdim, ama bu hi\u00e7 de zor de\u011fildi\u00f3bilakis, heyecan vericiydi. Abdullah Yusuf Ali\u2019nin mealiyle Kur\u2019\u00e2n okumaya ba\u015flad\u0131m; bu \u0130ngilizce meali, \u0130sl\u00e2m\u2019\u0131 kabul etmemden \u00e7ok k\u0131sa bir s\u00fcre sonra, biri vermi\u015fti bana. Daha \u00f6nce, ba\u015fka kitaplarda Kur\u2019\u00e2n\u2019dan baz\u0131 pasajlar okumu\u015ftum yaln\u0131zca. Ayr\u0131ca, ba\u015flang\u0131\u00e7ta, Dr. Yusuf el-Kard\u00e2v\u00ee\u2019nin \u0130sl\u00e2m\u2019da Hel\u00e2ller ve Haramlar kitab\u0131 da benim i\u00e7in faydal\u0131 bir rehber oldu.<\/p>\n
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Ocak 1996\u2019da (gene Ramazan ay\u0131 i\u00e7erisinde) ba\u015f\u00f6rt\u00fcs\u00fc takmaya ba\u015flad\u0131m. Anlad\u0131m ki, M\u00fcsl\u00fcman olmak Allah\u2019a teslim olmak oldu\u011funa g\u00f6re, ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 \u00f6rtmezsem Allah\u2019a tam anlam\u0131yla teslim olamam\u0131\u015f durumda olaca\u011f\u0131m. Anlad\u0131m ki, \u0130sl\u00e2m\u2019\u0131n bir b\u00fct\u00fcn olarak kabul edilmesi ve ya\u015fanmas\u0131 gerekiyor; o bir “kafana-g\u00f6re-tak\u0131l,” “i\u015fine-g\u00f6re-e\u011f-b\u00fck” dini de\u011fil. \u0130sl\u00e2m\u2019\u0131 kabul etti\u011fimde, M\u00fcsl\u00fcman bir kad\u0131n\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6rtmesi gerekti\u011finin fark\u0131ndayd\u0131m ve en sonunda buna niyet etmi\u015ftim. M\u00fcsl\u00fcman olur olmaz ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 \u00f6rtm\u00fc\u015f olmam gerekirdi asl\u0131nda, ama bir\u00e7ok M\u00fcslime i\u00e7in (hatta M\u00fcsl\u00fcman bir aileden gelen insanlardan bir k\u0131sm\u0131 i\u00e7in) gayrim\u00fcslim bir toplumda bu ad\u0131m\u0131 atmak ve ba\u015f\u0131na \u00f6rt\u00fcy\u00fc ge\u00e7irmek pek de kolay de\u011fil. Bir\u00e7ok insan\u0131n onu bir bez par\u00e7as\u0131 diye g\u00f6rmesi aptalca bir\u015fey! Hem, enteresand\u0131r, H\u0131ristiyan rahibeler, onlar da ba\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6rtt\u00fckleri halde, ba\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6rt\u00fcyorlar diye tenkit edilmiyorlar. Kendi hayat\u0131mda, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6rten mesture han\u0131mlar g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm vakit onlara kar\u015f\u0131 hi\u00e7bir zaman olumsuz duygular ta\u015f\u0131mam\u0131\u015f\u0131md\u0131r. Beni ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 \u00f6rt\u00fcp \u00f6rtmeme konusunda teredd\u00fcde sevkeden \u015fey, ba\u015fka insanlardan, \u00f6zellikle ailemden k\u00f6t\u00fc mualeme g\u00f6rme korkusu idi. Fakat, bizim yaln\u0131zca Allahu Te\u00e2l\u00e2\u2019dan korkuyor olmam\u0131z gerek; ba\u015fkalar\u0131ndan de\u011fil. Ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 kesin olarak \u00f6rtmemden \u00f6nceki birka\u00e7 ay zarf\u0131nda, ad\u0131m ad\u0131m ba\u015f\u00f6rt\u00fcs\u00fc takma \u2018prati\u011fi\u2019ne ba\u015flad\u0131m. En ba\u015fta, evim ile Cuma g\u00fcnleri Cuma namazlar\u0131na i\u015ftirak etmek \u00fczere gitmeye ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131m mescid aras\u0131nda gidip gelirken ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 \u00f6rtt\u00fcm. (Maamafih, M\u00fcsl\u00fcman olal\u0131 beri, her namaz esnas\u0131nda ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 zaten \u00f6rt\u00fcyordum). Ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 tamamen \u00f6rtmeye ba\u015flamamdan iki hafta \u00f6nce, dualar\u0131mda, Allah\u2019a ba\u015f\u00f6rt\u00fcs\u00fc takmay\u0131 benim i\u00e7in kolay k\u0131lmas\u0131 yolunda tazarruda bulunmaya ba\u015flad\u0131m.<\/p>\n
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En sonunda ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 kesin olarak \u00f6rtme noktas\u0131na ula\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m g\u00fcn, art\u0131k \u00f6rt\u00fcs\u00fcz bir ba\u015fla d\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kamayaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 hissettim ve ba\u015fkalar\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 \u00f6rtmemden ho\u015flanmasa da ba\u015f\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131k vaziyette \u2018kemale ermemi\u015f\u2019 olaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm. Yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m amellerin hesab\u0131n\u0131 verecek olan bendim ve benim \u0130sl\u00e2m\u00ee vazifelerimi yerine getirmem gerekiyordu, o y\u00fczden de ba\u015fkalar\u0131n\u0131n ho\u015fnut olup olmamas\u0131 hi\u00e7bir surette beni ilgilendirmemeliydi. Kimi zamanlar, ba\u015f\u00f6rt\u00fcs\u00fcne muhalefet bir denetim meselesidir: Baz\u0131lar\u0131, ba\u011f\u0131ms\u0131z, ne yapmas\u0131 gerekti\u011fine kendisi karar veren insanlardan hi\u00e7 hi hi\u00e7 ho\u015flanmazlar; hele hele bunlar kendi \u00e7ocuklar\u0131 ise…<\/p>\n
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Ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 \u00f6rtt\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmde, hemencecik kendimi \u2018koruma alt\u0131nda\u2019 hissettim ve en nihayeti erkeklerin bana g\u00f6zlerini dikmelerinden, onlar\u0131n \u015fehvetli bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n hedefi olmaktan kurtulmaya muktedir olmu\u015f oldum. \u0130lk etapta bir derece tedirginlik ya\u015famad\u0131m de\u011fil, ama birka\u00e7 hafta sonra ba\u015f\u00f6rt\u00fcs\u00fcyle dola\u015fmaya tamamen al\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Zaman zaman, sair insanlar beni bu halde g\u00f6r\u00fcnce \u015fa\u015f\u0131r\u0131yor, hatta \u015fa\u015fk\u0131na d\u00f6n\u00fcyorlar; san\u0131yorum, soluk benizli, mavi g\u00f6zl\u00fc M\u00fcslimeler g\u00f6rmeye pek al\u0131\u015f\u0131k olmad\u0131klar\u0131 i\u00e7in! Bu bak\u0131mdan, ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 \u00f6rt\u00fcyor olmam, insanlar\u0131n dikkatini \u0130sl\u00e2m\u2019a \u00e7ekerek, bir nevi \u0130sl\u00e2m\u2019a davet niteli\u011fi de ta\u015f\u0131yor.<\/p>\n
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\u0130sl\u00e2m\u2019\u0131 kabul edi\u015fimden beri, dinin hakikat\u0131na dair bilgi edinme \u00e7abam\u0131 s\u00fcrd\u00fcr\u00fcyorum; bu, erkek-kad\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn M\u00fcsl\u00fcmanlar\u0131n \u00f6m\u00fcr boyu y\u00fcr\u00fctecekleri bir g\u00f6rev \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc. Halihaz\u0131rda Arap\u00e7a \u00f6\u011freniyorum ve in\u015faallah, k\u0131sa bir zaman sonra Kur\u2019\u00e2n\u2019\u0131 Arap\u00e7a olarak okumaya k\u00e2dir olaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 \u00fcmit ediyorum. Okumak, sair M\u00fcsl\u00fcmanlarla \u0130sl\u00e2m\u2019a dair m\u00fczakerelerde bulunmak ve Cuma hutbesi, hepsi insan\u0131 e\u011fiten \u015feyler. Olabildi\u011fince m\u00fcttaki bir insan olmaya cehdetmek ve kendi nefsine kar\u015f\u0131 m\u00fccadele etmek, yani nefsi ile olan cihad\u0131n\u0131 y\u00fcr\u00fctmek gayret istiyor; \u00fcstelik, bu, M\u00fcsl\u00fcmanlar i\u00e7in daim\u00ee ve hi\u00e7 bitmeyecek bir g\u00f6rev.<\/p>\n
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\u0130sl\u00e2m\u2019\u0131 hadsiz derecede hayranl\u0131k uyand\u0131r\u0131c\u0131 bir din olarak g\u00f6r\u00fcyor ve bir M\u00fcslime olarak ya\u015famaktan \u00e7ok ho\u015flan\u0131yorum.<\/p>\n
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28.12.2003 \u0130SKAND\u0130NAV ASILLI B\u0130R A\u0130LEN\u0130N Kanada do\u011fumlu bir \u00e7ocu\u011fuyum ve Kanada\u2019da b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fcm. 1993 \u015eubat\u2019\u0131nda, yirmi\u00fc\u00e7 ya\u015f\u0131nda M\u00fcsl\u00fcman oldum. O zamana kadar herhangi bir dine ba\u011fl\u0131 de\u011fildim ger\u00e7i, ama ateist de de\u011fildim. Ond\u00f6rt-onbe\u015f ya\u015f\u0131ma geldi\u011fimde dine dair birtak\u0131m \u015feyler d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m ve daha o zaman tevhide, Allah\u2019\u0131n birli\u011fine inanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. H\u0131ristiyanl\u0131k asla ilgimi \u00e7ekmedi. M\u00fcsl\u00fcmanlarla ilk kez […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[9],"tags":[],"ppma_author":[132],"class_list":["post-83670","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-yazarlar"],"yoast_head":"\n