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Y\u0130RM\u0130 SENE \u00f6nceydi. Hen\u00fcz g\u00fcnl\u00fck tuttu\u011fum g\u00fcnler…<\/p>\n
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O g\u00fcnlerden birinde, \u2018yapmak istediklerim\u2019 ile \u2018yapamad\u0131klar\u0131m\u2019 aras\u0131ndaki u\u00e7urumun h\u00fczn\u00fcn\u00fc not d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm defterime. Hayat\u0131m \u2018B\u00dcY\u00dcK B\u0130R H\u00dcZ\u00dcN\u2019 diye \u00f6zetlenebilir bir hayat olarak g\u00f6z\u00fckm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. Altba\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda \u2018\u00e7ok \u015fey yapmak istedi, \u00e7ok az\u0131n\u0131 yapabildi\u2019 c\u00fcmlesi yaz\u0131l\u0131, b\u00fcy\u00fck bir h\u00fcz\u00fcn…<\/p>\n
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Yirmi sene sonra d\u00f6n\u00fcp hayat\u0131ma bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda, o zaman hi\u00e7biri olmayan yirminin \u00fczerinde kitaba, yaz\u0131lmas\u0131na vesile olduklar\u0131ma, yazd\u0131klar\u0131mla vesile olabildiklerime baksam da, yirmi sene \u00f6nce g\u00fcnl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcme d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm \u00f6zet c\u00fcmlesi h\u00e2l\u00e2 y\u00fcre\u011fime kay\u0131tl\u0131. Altba\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131 da.<\/p>\n
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Yirmi sene \u00f6nce yapamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m ama yapmak istediklerimin en az\u0131ndan bir k\u0131sm\u0131n\u0131n yap\u0131labildi\u011fini, yazmay\u0131 istediklerimin bir k\u0131sm\u0131n\u0131n yaz\u0131labildi\u011fini g\u00f6sterdi Rabbim bana. Ama h\u00e2l\u00e2 yap\u0131lacak o kadar \u00e7ok \u015fey var ki… Yaz\u0131lacak bir o kadar \u015fey!<\/p>\n
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Allah \u00f6m\u00fcr verirse, k\u0131sa vadede yapamasam veya yazamasam bile uzun vadede yapmam ve yazmam gerekti\u011fine inand\u0131\u011f\u0131m onca vazife bir yana, bir \u2018kaht-\u0131 rical\u2019in ortas\u0131nda \u00fcst\u00fcme ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m y\u00fckler beni bunalt\u0131yor zaman zaman. \u201cNe kadar \u00e7ok ac\u0131 var?\u201d deyip kahretmeyi yahut kendine ac\u0131may\u0131 i\u015f edinmi\u015f bedbinler gibi de\u011filim \u00e7ok \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr. Bilakis, en a\u011f\u0131r y\u00fck\u00fcn alt\u0131nda dahi, \u201cAllah kimseye takatinin kald\u0131ramayaca\u011f\u0131 y\u00fck y\u00fcklemez\u201d mealindeki \u00e2yete iman\u0131mdan medet alabildi\u011fim i\u00e7in, i\u00e7 d\u00fcnyamda kopan h\u00fcz\u00fcn f\u0131rt\u0131nalar\u0131n\u0131 bast\u0131ran bir s\u00fck\u00fbnet hali hakim y\u00fcz\u00fcme. Ve dudaklar\u0131mda bir tebess\u00fcm hali… O hali do\u011fru anlayamay\u0131p kendisi ac\u0131yla kahrolurken bu kadar rahat olu\u015fuma \u015fa\u015f\u0131p psikanalizi elden b\u0131rakmayanlar da var ya, ge\u00e7elim oras\u0131n\u0131…<\/p>\n
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S\u00f6z\u00fcn k\u0131sas\u0131, sevinci bo\u011facak bir ac\u0131, rahmeti a\u015facak bir gadap, \u00fcmidi k\u0131racak bir y\u00fck yok \u015fu d\u00fcnyada. Ama ne kadar \u00e7ok vazife var… Ta\u015f\u0131nmas\u0131 gereken ne kadar \u00e7ok y\u00fck…<\/p>\n
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Ve hayat\u0131 herkesin hayat\u0131 olarak ya\u015fay\u0131p giderken bu y\u00fcklerin, bu vazifelerin ucundan tutar gibi, tutuverir gibi yapmakla vicdan\u0131n\u0131 rahatlatan, ama kendi elini tam olarak alt\u0131na koymaktan \u00e7ekindi\u011fi y\u00fck\u00fcn alt\u0131na ba\u015fkalar\u0131n\u0131n, sizin b\u00fct\u00fcn varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131zla girmenizi bir vecibe olarak g\u00f6ren…<\/p>\n
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Ne kadar \u00e7ok y\u00fck, ne kadar az el…<\/p>\n
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Bedi\u00fczzaman\u2019a, \u201c\u0130ki elimiz var; y\u00fcz elimiz olsa ancak k\u00e2fi gelir\u201d dedirten…<\/p>\n
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Nisap miktar\u0131 zenginli\u011fi olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in kendisine farz olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 halde hacca niyetlenen talebesine, buradaki b\u0131rak\u0131lmamas\u0131 gereken \u2018farz-\u0131 manevi-yi cihad\u2019 vazifesini hat\u0131rlatma gere\u011fi hissettiren…<\/p>\n
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Senelerdir yazmam beklenen, senelerdir yazamad\u0131klar\u0131m…<\/p>\n
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Her sene, bir sonraki sene muhakkak tamamlanmas\u0131 \u00fcmidiyle tekrar masa\u00fcst\u00fcne ta\u015f\u0131nan…<\/p>\n
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Hi\u00e7 ba\u015flayamad\u0131klar\u0131m…<\/p>\n
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Bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc bitiremediklerim…<\/p>\n
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Arada, \u00fcst\u00fcne her hafta, her g\u00fcn yenisi eklenen talepler…<\/p>\n
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Ana \u00e7at\u0131s\u0131 ikibu\u00e7uk ay \u00f6nce dev\u015firilmi\u015f oldu\u011fu halde, bir dergiye son halini vermeyi m\u00fcmk\u00fcn k\u0131lacak \u00fc\u00e7 m\u00fcstakil g\u00fcn\u00fc bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc bulamay\u0131\u015f…<\/p>\n
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Beri tarafta, hepsi de Allah\u2019\u0131n yolunda bir hizmet g\u00f6ren, o dergiden, bu dergiden hepsinde hamiyetini takdir etti\u011fim vazifedar gen\u00e7 karde\u015flerimin yaz\u0131 talepleri…<\/p>\n
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Mektuplar, sorular, husus\u00ee bir mesele i\u00e7in isti\u015fare ricalar\u0131…<\/p>\n
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Yaz\u0131s\u0131 i\u00e7in, kitap \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmas\u0131 i\u00e7in de\u011ferlendirme talepleri…<\/p>\n
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Bitmemi\u015f dosyalar…<\/p>\n
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Her defas\u0131nda hakk\u0131n\u0131 veremedim, yeterince haz\u0131rlanamad\u0131m kayg\u0131s\u0131yla konu\u015fmaya ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131m seminerler…<\/p>\n
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Kendi ya\u015fad\u0131klar\u0131 \u015fehirde de ayn\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rmek isteyen karde\u015flerimizin talepleri, teklifleri…<\/p>\n
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Risale-i Nur\u2019un d\u00fcnyas\u0131na bir de bu a\u00e7\u0131dan girebilme d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncesiyle dile getirilen d\u00fczenli sohbet, ders, okuma teklifleri…<\/p>\n
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Yan\u0131ba\u015f\u0131nda, bu ya\u015fta h\u00e2l\u00e2 \u00f6\u011frenici olabilme azmiyle haftan\u0131n d\u00f6rt g\u00fcn\u00fc d\u00f6rt saati bir \u2018tahsil\u2019 \u00e7abas\u0131 i\u00e7in tahsis etme gere\u011fi…<\/p>\n
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Bir de \u2018yeni ba\u015flayanlar\u2019 i\u00e7in, bir de \u2018gen\u00e7ler\u2019 i\u00e7in, bir de husus\u00ee \u015fartlardaki husus\u00ee ki\u015filer i\u00e7in beraberce Risale okuma teklifleri…<\/p>\n
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Hepsi gerekli, hepsi vazife ve hepsi y\u00fck…<\/p>\n
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Ne kadar da vazife var. Ne kadar da y\u00fck. Ve ne kadar da az insan var elinin bir parma\u011f\u0131yla tutar gibi yapmay\u0131 de\u011fil, d\u00f6rt elle sar\u0131lmay\u0131, b\u00fct\u00fcn ruh u can\u0131yla sahiplenmeyi se\u00e7en… Ne kadar da az insan var te\u011fet ge\u00e7meyi de\u011fil, tam ortas\u0131nda durmay\u0131 tercih eden…<\/p>\n
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Yap\u0131lmas\u0131 gere\u011fine inand\u0131klar\u0131m ile yapamad\u0131klar\u0131m aras\u0131ndaki fark, hayat\u0131m\u0131 bir b\u00fcy\u00fck h\u00fczne \u00e7eviriyor.<\/p>\n
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Yaz\u0131lmas\u0131 l\u00fczumunu g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm halde yaz\u0131lamayanlar keza…<\/p>\n
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Ya bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc ba\u015flayamay\u0131\u015f\u0131n yahut bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc bitiremeyi\u015fin ortas\u0131nday\u0131m hep.<\/p>\n
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Yirmi k\u00fcsur kitap, bin k\u00fcsur yaz\u0131, bir de vesile olunanlar…<\/p>\n
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\u00c7ok \u015fey yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131, \u00e7ok rahat yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 san\u0131yor kimileri…<\/p>\n
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Halbuki yap\u0131lmas\u0131 gereken ne \u00e7ok vazife var, yaz\u0131lmas\u0131 gereken ne kadar \u00e7ok konu…<\/p>\n
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Mehmed \u00c2kif\u2019e \u201cYa param olsayd\u0131, ya hamiyetim olmasayd\u0131!\u201d dedirten ruh halini \u00e7ok iyi anl\u0131yorum.<\/p>\n
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\u00dcstelik, \u201cYa zaman\u0131m olsayd\u0131, ya hamiyetim olmasayd\u0131!\u201d c\u00fcmlesini de ekleyerek.<\/p>\n
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Bu i\u015f, bir ki\u015finin, birka\u00e7 ki\u015finin i\u015fi de\u011fil…<\/p>\n
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\u0130haleyi birilerine vererek, kendi vazifesini ise seyredip alk\u0131\u015flamak, ara s\u0131ra bir ucundan l\u00fctfen tutuvermek suretiyle ger\u00e7ekle\u015fecek t\u00fcrden bir vazife de de\u011fil.<\/p>\n
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Hamiyetimizi hamiyete eklemek; zamanlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 birbirine biti\u015ftirmek gerekiyor.<\/p>\n
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Ne kadar \u00e7ok vazife var; ne kadar \u00e7ok manev\u00ee y\u00fck…<\/p>\n
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D\u00f6rt eliften 1111; d\u00f6rt d\u00f6rtten 4444 \u00e7\u0131karmak gerek biiznillah alt\u0131ndan kalkmak i\u00e7in…<\/p>\n
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Onu sa\u011flayabilmek i\u00e7in de, \u0130brahim\u00ee bir gayreti ku\u015fanmak; \u2018himmeti milleti olan,\u2019 b\u00f6ylece \u2018tek ba\u015f\u0131na bir millet\u2019 olabilenlerden olmay\u0131 se\u00e7mek…<\/p>\n
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Var\u0131m diyene kap\u0131lar a\u00e7\u0131k…<\/p>\n
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24.10.2009 Y\u0130RM\u0130 SENE \u00f6nceydi. Hen\u00fcz g\u00fcnl\u00fck tuttu\u011fum g\u00fcnler… O g\u00fcnlerden birinde, \u2018yapmak istediklerim\u2019 ile \u2018yapamad\u0131klar\u0131m\u2019 aras\u0131ndaki u\u00e7urumun h\u00fczn\u00fcn\u00fc not d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm defterime. Hayat\u0131m \u2018B\u00dcY\u00dcK B\u0130R H\u00dcZ\u00dcN\u2019 diye \u00f6zetlenebilir bir hayat olarak g\u00f6z\u00fckm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. Altba\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda \u2018\u00e7ok \u015fey yapmak istedi, \u00e7ok az\u0131n\u0131 yapabildi\u2019 c\u00fcmlesi yaz\u0131l\u0131, b\u00fcy\u00fck bir h\u00fcz\u00fcn… Yirmi sene sonra d\u00f6n\u00fcp hayat\u0131ma bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda, o zaman hi\u00e7biri olmayan yirminin […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[9],"tags":[],"ppma_author":[132],"class_list":["post-83211","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-yazarlar"],"yoast_head":"\n