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\u00d6M\u00dcR DEFTER\u0130N\u0130N yapraklar\u0131na g\u00fcnler birbiri ard\u0131nca eklenirken hayat\u0131n bana \u00f6\u011fretti\u011fi derslerden biri \u015fudur: Kendisine yard\u0131m etmeyene yard\u0131m etmeye, sizin asla g\u00fcc\u00fcn\u00fcz yetmez.<\/p>\n
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Yine hayat, bu ger\u00e7ekle ba\u011flant\u0131l\u0131 bir ders daha verir: \u0130\u00e7inden gelmeyene, d\u0131\u015far\u0131dan yapt\u0131ramazs\u0131n.<\/p>\n
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Yine, \u2018asabiyet\u2019in daha b\u00fcy\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fcn \u2018ben\u2019de de\u011fil, \u2018biz\u2019de gizli oldu\u011funu \u00f6\u011fretir hayat. \u2018Ben\u2019 asabiyetini, yani \u2018enaniyet\u2019i a\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 zannederken nice insan, i\u00e7inde \u2018ben\u2019in de yer ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u2018biz\u2019in koynunda saklar ve b\u00fcy\u00fct\u00fcr asabiyetini. Ama \u2018biz\u2019 asabiyetini fark ve tedavi etmek, \u2018ben\u2019 asabiyetini fark ve tedavi etmekten daha zordur. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc asabiyet, \u2018benlik\u2019te kendini kolayca a\u00e7\u0131\u011fa vururken, \u2018biz\u2019in geni\u015fli\u011fi i\u00e7inde saklan\u0131r. Hatta, bir de \u2018feragat\u2019 suretinde resmeder kendisini\u2026<\/p>\n
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Bu c\u00fcmleleri, hayat\u0131m\u0131n son \u00e7eyrek y\u00fczy\u0131l\u0131nda g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm baz\u0131 \u015feyler bir film \u015feridi gibi hayalimden ak\u0131p ge\u00e7er halde yaz\u0131yorum. Y\u00f6n\u00fcne bak\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131nda sonunu evvelce g\u00f6rebildi\u011fimiz bir gidi\u015fin m\u00fcthi\u015f bir kaza ve feci bir zayiata nas\u0131l var\u0131p dayand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 o \u015feritten a\u015fama a\u015fama g\u00f6r\u00fcr halde hem de.<\/p>\n
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Dostlar\u0131m bilir, nicedir s\u00f6yleyegelmi\u015fimdir: \u201cFreni patlam\u0131\u015f halde ya bir u\u00e7uruma yuvarlanmaya yahut bir keskin viraj\u0131n ard\u0131ndan kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na \u00e7\u0131kacak kayaya \u00e7arpmak \u00fczere h\u0131zla yoku\u015f a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 ilerleyen bir otob\u00fcs g\u00f6r\u00fcyorum\u201d diye. \u201cYaz\u0131k ki, bu kaza art\u0131k mukadder g\u00f6z\u00fck\u00fcyor, durdurmak imk\u00e2ns\u0131z g\u00f6z\u00fck\u00fcyor, kazadan sonra yaral\u0131lara nas\u0131l yard\u0131m g\u00f6t\u00fcrece\u011fiz, tedavileri nas\u0131l olacak, bunun cevab\u0131n\u0131 ar\u0131yorum art\u0131k\u201d diye.<\/p>\n
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Yaz\u0131k ki, b\u00f6yle oldu.<\/p>\n
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\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc, kendisine yard\u0131m etmeyene, yard\u0131m edemedik. \u0130\u00e7inden gelmeyen, d\u0131\u015far\u0131dan duydu\u011fu uyar\u0131c\u0131 seslere hi\u00e7 kulak \u00e7evirmedi. \u2018Biz\u2019 asabiyeti, \u015fefkatle gelen her uyar\u0131 sinyalini \u2018\u00e7ekememe, haset, k\u0131skan\u00e7l\u0131k, kulp takma\u2019 diye diye psikanalizlerle \u00e7arp\u0131tmay\u0131 denedi.<\/p>\n
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Ve olanlar oldu.<\/p>\n
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Olan\u0131n olaca\u011f\u0131 o kadar uyar\u0131ya kulak asmamaktan belliydi, ama yine de h\u00fcsn\u00fczan ettik, olmamas\u0131n\u0131 diledik, olmamas\u0131 i\u00e7in \u00e7aba g\u00f6sterdik. \u00dcslubunca yazd\u0131k, adab\u0131nca konu\u015ftuk, anlatt\u0131k. \u00d6nce, bir \u2018fanatik\u2019 kontenjan\u0131yla ya\u015faman\u0131n her toplulu\u011fun kaderi oldu\u011funu, ama \u2018makul \u00e7o\u011funlu\u011fun\u2019 m\u00fc\u2019min karde\u015flerinin uyar\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 dikkate al\u0131p, onlar\u0131 dahi bu halden kurtaraca\u011f\u0131 \u00fcmidiyle yapt\u0131k bunu. Sonra, birileri k\u00f6r taassubun, \u2018biz\u2019 kibrinin, \u2018ba\u015far\u0131\u2019 ucbunun \u00e7ukuruna d\u00fc\u015fse de, akl\u0131selim sahibi karde\u015flerimizin meseleyi farkedip bu gidi\u015fata dur diyece\u011fi, en az\u0131ndan kendisini bu gidi\u015fattan azad edece\u011fi \u00fcmidiyle.<\/p>\n
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Yoksa, niye yazar, niye konu\u015fur, o kadar zihin ve g\u00f6n\u00fcl mesaisini ve o kadar vakti bu konuda karde\u015f\u00e2ne bir uyar\u0131 i\u00e7in ay\u0131r\u0131r ki insan?<\/p>\n
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\u00dcstelik, \u2018nabza g\u00f6re \u015ferbet\u2019in zehrini i\u00e7irenlerin g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc o kadar itibar ve iltifata ra\u011fmen bu uyar\u0131lar\u0131 yazmam\u0131z ve yapmam\u0131z, dostlu\u011fumuzun s\u0131hhatinden ve kabil-i hitap olduklar\u0131na olan \u00fcmidimizden idi.<\/p>\n
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Ama \u015fimdi gelinen noktada, beni en \u00e7ok, m\u00e2kuliyetine itimad etti\u011fim insanlar\u0131n i\u00e7inden \u00e7\u0131k\u0131veren \u2018franke\u015ftayn\u2019lar hayrete d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr\u00fcyor. Umar\u0131m tedavileri m\u00fcmk\u00fcnd\u00fcr; ama bunun i\u00e7in, \u00f6nce onlar\u0131n kendilerine yard\u0131m etmeleri gerekiyor!<\/p>\n
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Bu s\u00fcre\u00e7te \u00fcmmet de a\u011f\u0131r bir fitnenin i\u00e7inden ge\u00e7iyor, do\u011fru. \u015e\u00fck\u00fcr ki, maliyeti daha da a\u011f\u0131rla\u015fmadan son bulsun diye dua etti\u011fimiz fitnenin i\u00e7inde, bir b\u00fcy\u00fck tecr\u00fcbe de ediniyor.<\/p>\n
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Bu ya\u015fananlar\u0131n, bize \u00f6\u011fretti\u011fi o kadar \u00e7ok ders, o kadar b\u00fcy\u00fck ibretler var ki\u2026<\/p>\n
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Hakikatin dengesini, iradeyi akl\u0131n elinden alan y\u00f6ntemlerin muhakkak bir ar\u0131zaya gebe oldu\u011funu, aleniyetin \u015fart oldu\u011funu, \u2018ne istedilerse verme\u2019nin erdem olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, din\u00ee hizmetin bizatihi bir \u00f6d\u00fcl oldu\u011funa, onu ba\u015fkaca pazarl\u0131klara vesile k\u0131lman\u0131n ba\u015ftan tav\u0131r koymay\u0131 gerektiren bir maraz oldu\u011funu, \u2018kurtar\u0131c\u0131\u2019lara itimad edilmemesi gerekti\u011fini ve \u2018kurtar\u0131c\u0131l\u0131k\u2019 vehminin kurtulunmas\u0131 gereken bir bela oldu\u011funu, k\u00f6t\u00fcl\u00fc\u011f\u00fc hep \u2018d\u0131\u015far\u0131da\u2019 resmetmenin bizi bir i\u00e7 muhasebeden al\u0131koyup b\u00fcy\u00fck bir k\u00f6t\u00fcl\u00fc\u011fe du\u00e7ar etti\u011fini, daha nice dersi ve ibreti i\u00e7eren ac\u0131 ve b\u00fcy\u00fck bir tecr\u00fcbe\u2026<\/p>\n
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Bu dersleri, dilimiz d\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnce, takip eden yaz\u0131larda yazaca\u011f\u0131z.<\/p>\n
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Ac\u0131 konu\u015faca\u011f\u0131z bazen. Hem nal\u0131na, hem m\u0131h\u0131na da diyece\u011fiz. B\u00fct\u00fcn meseleyi ortadaki \u2018hey\u00fcla\u2019ya y\u0131kma kolayl\u0131\u011f\u0131na da dur deyip, daha geni\u015f dairedeki ar\u0131zalara da dikkat \u00e7ekece\u011fiz. Dahas\u0131, bu kavgan\u0131n ortas\u0131nda, filiz verme istidad\u0131nda oldu\u011funu g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fcz, bir k\u0131sm\u0131 yeni ba\u015fkaca ar\u0131zalara da dikkat \u00e7ekece\u011fiz.<\/p>\n
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Ac\u0131 gelecek s\u00f6ylediklerimiz. Olsun. Yirmi y\u0131l \u00f6nce de ac\u0131 konu\u015fmu\u015f, \u2018Camide Dans Var\u2019 diye ac\u0131yla yazm\u0131\u015ft\u0131k da, \u015fimdi akl\u0131n\u0131 hastal\u0131kl\u0131 muhalefetin dehlizlerine savurmu\u015f biri \u2018\u015fefkatsiz\u2019 olmakla su\u00e7lam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 bizi.<\/p>\n
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O zaman da demi\u015ftim: \u201cHastaya hasta de\u011filsin demek \u015fefkat de\u011fildir. \u015eefkatli olmak, hastal\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6rmemeyi de\u011fil, g\u00f6rmeyi, uyarmay\u0131 ve tedavisi i\u00e7in \u00e7aba g\u00f6stermeyi gerektirir. \u015eefkatsiz olsam, bu kitab\u0131 yazmazd\u0131m.\u201d<\/p>\n
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08.06.2014 \u00d6M\u00dcR DEFTER\u0130N\u0130N yapraklar\u0131na g\u00fcnler birbiri ard\u0131nca eklenirken hayat\u0131n bana \u00f6\u011fretti\u011fi derslerden biri \u015fudur: Kendisine yard\u0131m etmeyene yard\u0131m etmeye, sizin asla g\u00fcc\u00fcn\u00fcz yetmez. Yine hayat, bu ger\u00e7ekle ba\u011flant\u0131l\u0131 bir ders daha verir: \u0130\u00e7inden gelmeyene, d\u0131\u015far\u0131dan yapt\u0131ramazs\u0131n. Yine, \u2018asabiyet\u2019in daha b\u00fcy\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fcn \u2018ben\u2019de de\u011fil, \u2018biz\u2019de gizli oldu\u011funu \u00f6\u011fretir hayat. \u2018Ben\u2019 asabiyetini, yani \u2018enaniyet\u2019i a\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 zannederken nice insan, […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[9],"tags":[],"ppma_author":[132],"class_list":["post-83162","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-yazarlar"],"yoast_head":"\n